I WEPT OPENLY IN THE STREET TODAY... what's the world coming to?I saw Lucky's "brother" (not by blood)/former lover/best friend (well as "best" a friend as many of us will ever have) she treated him just like a brother, moaning on and on about various shortcomings at various times but I'm sure she loved him.
I saw him coming from behind a pillar near the library. Ignoring the urge to dodge behind I faced up to him and told the truth I could not face going to a funeral with a vicar who never knew her and people I didn't know.
There was no vicar (one relief). What can you say? This is a woman who was sorely addicted to drugs since childhood (as she tells it). Made some dreadful mistakes in life, but never willfully hurt anybody...??
Still I could not bear the whole emotional vary-go-round of it all. And all this time up until today I had managed NOT TO CRY and then it happened. In full view in a public square. How typical.
The best friend/brother figure showed me a card of Lucky aged about 2 or 3 drest in ballet tutu looking very young and innocent. The sort of picture that makes you look at the child and think, "boy what does life do to people?"
And that is that.
KATIE MELUA ~ NINE MILLION BICYCLES IN BEIJING
MADONNA ~ YOU'LL SEE
There is absolutely nothing wrong with crying in the street over a dear friend lost. Last weekend I went over to a friend's place and we were all going through old photos of people that she had kept all these years. In the photos there were people who are now struggling with addiction and it shows in their older age. I was looking at the photos of all of us, so young and full of life. I just wanted to talk to the person they were then and let them know that the path they were about to go down leads to nowhere. Looking at the pictures and the smiles made a huge lump well up in my throat. I miss the people that they once were :(
ReplyDeleteAgain sorry for your loss. Let the grieving process happen naturally.
I remember coming home once. I was extremely depressed. I think it was just after I'd tried to kill myself one Christmas... ended up going through baby photos of myself in family albums. Hmmm
ReplyDeleteAw, Gledwood you are making me all sad....
ReplyDeleteThis is why pictures are important, they can capture so much more than just an image.
I was so innocent then and thought it would be really good to live forever
ReplyDeleteThat's not unfair. I think it would be cool if you lived too!
ReplyDeleteThere's nothing wrong with crying for a friend Gleds. It just means you're human honey. x
ReplyDeleteAkelamalu's right...you're human and a caring human.
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You know it takes a strong person to show their emotions. All sadly part of the grieving process Gleds. I don't cry enough and it makes me feel hard sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI think photos are the hardest thing to look at sometimes. I agree with that whole idea of "how do these children change and become who they are." I wonder it about my friends, and what they'll become.
ReplyDeleteIt's good to cry, it's better than holding in all that emotion. I'm sorry Gleds, I wish there was something better I could say, but sorry for your loss. Crying shows you really cared, and it's far better to care.
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Im not ashamed to cry...it takes more guts to be emotional than to stay like a rock.
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Keshi.
Life on the street and hard core drugs makes you age before your time.
ReplyDeleteAdd a spoonful of dispare too.
Crying in public for the loss of a friend is nothing to be ashamed of but to be respected for
"what does life do to people?" it removes every single bit of innocence people have. Only non-human animals manage to keep their innocence.
ReplyDeleteIt's OK that you cried mate. You're only human :-)
I often look at kids and feel sorry for them knowing what's ahead.
ReplyDeleteThose are v good points. Thanks, Friends ...
ReplyDelete(As far as I remember:...) do you know she is the first and only person I've ever cried over bc she's gone. I always think when somone's taking drugs like that what can be expected? And surely at the back of their mind the possibility of "that" happening's there... so
o I don't know!¬
I cannot comfort you, but I am sending you hugs anyway!
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