Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Blue Skies!


IT'S A GORGEOUS DAY TODAY AND I'VE BEEN CLEANING MY HOUSE! At long long last. And doing things and addressing things that have gone too long unadressed and undone because I was wallowing in an apathy of ordures, as the French charmingly call their shyte.

Yesterday I had the final consultation in my mental health "probe" (to use Sunday newspaper language). As I told the Operative, I finally wish to address my "issues" in a grown-up way that was not possible previously when I was too para to throw my problems on the table without feeling outmanoevred ~ even checkmated ~ before I even started...

I have two appointments, possibly with two doctors though one's the Shrink. I told the Operative of many of my tangled jangling past of unusual experience. Now the Operative's going to give the Shrink a summary before I go in. So for once I might get a proper assessment instead of a doctor barking up the wrong tree and me too eager to flee out the room to bother putting him right. I always felt whatever I said, whatever I did, circumstances would conspire against me and thwart my efforts at tidying my mess up or building any future. This was another fuel to my Great Apathy.

My Worker was all aglow with praise at my transformation but there's still such a lot of transforming left to do. Today I've to get on with cleaning my house. It's gone scuzzier than I realized, when I suddenly see it through "normal people's" eyes. Then I have to clean up my SELF. And then build a future. Not much to do then.


Q U E E N R E P R I M A N D S P R I M E M I N I S T E R
S i l v i o B e r l u s c o n i y e l l s a t B a r r a c k O b a m a
d u r i n g B u c k i n g h a m P a l a c e p h o t o s h o o t : ~
f a b u l o u s l y f a m o u s e n t e r t a i n i n g f o o t a g e
o f t h e v u l g a r I t a l i a n P M b e i n g p u t i n h i s p l a c e . . .

19 comments:

  1. aye, good luck with all of that!
    swings n roundabouts, ups and downs

    ;->

    xk

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  2. you sound good today Gleds, this makes the Queen a happy girl

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  3. KELLY: aye!

    QUEENEE: good. btw did you see your Namesake reprimanding Italian PM Berlusconi for shouting at Obama during a Buckingham Palace photo shoot..?

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  4. That is great news, gleds! Hang in there!

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  5. diolch yn fawr!
    ps shw mae George? ody e'n bydd yn naughty heddu?

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  6. Sometimes if I get things in order around me, I start to feel more in order too. That may just be the controlling me feeling better. But I know that when I get busy with something I do get better. Hang in there.

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  7. i have intellectual writing to do, too...

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  8. Sounds like you are on a good path! I like these optomistic posts of yours. I agree with Syd's comment, sometimes having things around you in order can help launch your mood in the right direction. Keep trying, don't give up :) Getting some sunshine on your face always helps too!

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  9. Gleds they say that decluttering your environment helps declutter the mind! Sounds like you have a plan and great to see you having a little faith in your psych before you meet them. Great step in the right direction! Gotta love that Lizzie!

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  10. I am dying to know whaat you look like! Just to place a face to the scrawl if ya know what I mean. Reading about you cutting your long locks got me to thinking of it. If you won't or can't post a photo or etching, about a written description?

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  11. Well done Gled... no matter what the outcome, your journey will always be amazing.

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  12. Best of luck with your spring cleaning :)

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  13. Sounds like you're ready for a big spring clean all round! Good luck with it all m'dear, I'll be seding you positive thoughts. :)

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  14. I gotta go back to therapy myself, but I want a new one. The one I had before was fine and all, but she was always too smiley and I don't think I ever connected with her.

    That G20 event made big headlines! BIG! GOD SAVE OBA...

    I MEAN, GOD SAVE THE QUEEN!

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  15. Eileen/Reeny: aye! That's what I was thinkin' of trying to do. Get sunlight in my brains. You'd not believe how dark my hair has gone from light-deprivation. I wonder if it does anything likewise to the brainbox..??

    Baino:
    psychiatrists? I used to think they had a toxic bite and sucked your brains out through integral suckerfangs... yeah I'm still tidying today, most uncharacteristically...

    MFiler: I really don't know how to post a foto and I'm dreadful at verbal D-scription...

    Nicole: j'en espere!!

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  16. Rita: grazie!!

    Akelamalu: merci beaucoup!!

    Wat: I don't know how they can live with the shame (apart from the Arab Prince... vulgar elected officials hobnobbing with lifelong royalty with a far superior house to any of theirs...

    therapy: best one I ever had was ultra intelligent, ultra neat and tidy (handwriting like a textbook) highly intelligent, detached and schoolmarmish. And I got under her skin like nothing else!! But I loved her and I think we worked better together than anything else I'm gonna find "psychotherapeutically"...

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  17. Rita: I meant to say kiitos!

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  18. well you need a digital camera. Then you transfer the image from camera to computer. Then you upload from computer to blog post. I know it's a lot to dealwith if you have never done it. And if you don't have a digital...well forgetaboutit.

    But I KNOW you are a good writer. Hogwash about not being a good verbal descriptor. Hogwash!

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  19. Glad you're feeling positive, Gleds. Love the video! Who the hell is Brown's barber?!

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