ALL SCANDAL has broken loose by my "daring" to walk out of an antidrugs seminar yesterday afternoon!The officiators told Maple, my personal worker, that I seemed very depressed. And usually one to share so much saying so little. And then pinging out the door...
It is all made worse by my loudly complaining about mental health nondiagnostics from non-services that have been a total non-help when my life was in smithereens...
And as if just babbling can heal anything..?!?!
This is what gets me about the modern world. The idea that "therapy" (and presumably healing) can only be achieved by spewing rubbish through the mouth: even when one has nothing to share.
Maple said "hear hear" to that one, for she disagrees with the compulsoriness of public sharing in "psychological" contexts (e.g. anti-drugs workers' "we are superior professionals so let's stick together like a professional cabal" forum meetings) as well.
When I first came to my groups I made the mistake of assuming that most folks there would be from the same manner of past as me: decade or more long history of using; tried everything; needles; heroin addict and crack... Life swooshed totally down the lavatory pan. No! Some attendees, apart from regular toking on da 'erb have been messing around with crack for a few months and now wish to extricate from said problem. Nothing at all wrong with such determined, swift action. But it does rather clam me up from talk of overdosing, dead friends, dirty needles, life on the streets, begging, squats and so on. Plus my fellow group attendees, not being "trusted" professionals, have signed nothing promising not to hear a juicy tale and go blabbing all around the area!
Of course I have not given up on giving up. If I had I'd not have thought to post anything like yesterday's lamentation. I'd simply have reverted (I suppose) to talk of syrupy brown gear dripping like honey from the spike-end of my junkie's poison darts... And so on...
Do you like my white tiger under water? They do love their daily swim...
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MICHAEL JACKSON: WILL THE speculations never end?
Not until quite a few multimillion-dollar juicy "all-exposing" bookdeals have been struck, I should suppose...
Today's allegations suggest Mr Jackson might not be biological father to any of those three curiously white children after all...
HERE'S A VIDEO I was watching the other day... found myself thinking: "Michael Jackson's with a black woman!" ("Supermodel" Naomi Campbell.) And not even realizing, till this short film "KEEP IT IN THE CLOSET" (allegedly co-voiced by Madonna, though I don't believe that) was nearly over [that he of course was black too!]...
[~ and the words in square brackets are those I missed out yesterday. DUR!!]
Gleddy,
ReplyDeleteI love the tiger swimming under water. You always find the best photos.
I don't blame you about the sharing. If you don't want to share in group, then you shouldn't fucking have to!
Love you,
SB
TOO RIGHT!!
ReplyDeleteThe tiger is cool. Stay cool Gled.
ReplyDeleteOf course those aren't his biological children. No way, for they look nothing like he used to when he was a child. It's so sad really. Michael just did not have sex or was capable of even having orgasms like a normal masturbatory male I believe.
ReplyDeleteI love IN THE CLOSET! WHAT A GREAT SONG! And the tiger swimming pic is too cute.
I hate group therapy. I mean its either a bunch of lets hold hands and love each other or it makes you wish you had whatever it is you're trying so hard to not have even more..
ReplyDeletenot to mention if you weren't depressed going in you might be coming out!
ReplyDeleteGAH didn't realise the seminars involved 'sharing' . .can't you get some one-on-one time and as for 'blabbing' that's unforgiveable! Keep swimming tiger!
ReplyDeleteHey Gleds,
ReplyDeleteI deleted my comment with the email address so I hope you got it - I didn't get an email from you yesterday. I didn't want undesirables to get hold of me so had to delete it.
Hope I didn't freak you out by saying 'You're Great'. You put yourself down a lot and apart from being a nice person you also have a lot of skills and talent, more than the average person. I wasn't just saying it to be nice, it's just true whether you like it or not.
Anyway, about Christiane F. I've got the film (not dubbed, I couldn't bear that). I really want the book but it seems to be out of print and I've seen it sold for daft amounts of money!
Here are excerpts from the book. Enter the site then click on the numbers on the right hand side for whatever chapter you want to read:
http://winonacentral.tripod.com/unrelated/christiane-f/home-e.html
As you can speak German why don't you check out 'Stern' - who ran the original article on her.
Here's a link to a story about her last year:
http://www.spiegel.de/international/germany/0,1518,571323,00.html
Here's photos of the REAL Christiane (too many are of the film):
http://christiane.hurz.at/chrispics.html
xKelly
Syd: I'll try
ReplyDeleteWat: when he was v little he had to share hotel rooms with his much older brothers who brought girls in. That experience is said to have put him off for life...
Aimee: Yes, absolutely correct!!
Baino: o yeah. That's why I find them so stressful. Really was not in mood for sharing. Would have listened. But not shared. No.
Kelly: I missed it! Sorry. We could try again tomorrow. I should be online around 10am and 5pm...
It is very interesting for me to read this article. Thanx for it. I like such topics and everything connected to them. I definitely want to read more on that blog soon.
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