Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Sheer Exhaustion

IT'S NOT THAT I've been running along hot desert roads ~ but I'm still utterly exhausted and sleeping hours at night AND during the day. I hate having to rouse myself for anything.

Sorry I have not yet replied to yesterday's comments. My mind is a bit scattered.

You know I still have not been to that diagnostic psych appointment. I had the "every few months how are you doing you sad druggie" check-up but my worker was there and that inhibited ANY conversation off the doctor's script. I just wanted to get out of there as quick as possible.

A week or two ago I got a letter advising me an appointment had been booked for me the day BEFORE the letter came. This was the dreaded appointment. I didn't bother rebooking as at the time I thought I felt fine ~ fine enough to reinterpret my entire past as the results of someone not willing to try hard enough.

But now I'm wading through honey (or worse) again and what goes around comes around again and again and again. I'm OK though I'm not going to hang myself I just feel sick, tired and depressed. And I've got to go because the evil cybercaff's about to time me out for dawdling ...
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6 comments:

  1. Lone Grey Squirrel17 June 2009 at 19:21

    I've been there. But it is summer. Why don't you try having an adventure? It may be as simple as taking a walk through one of London's more interesting boroughs or parks. I quite like the walk along the canal near Regent's Park when I am in the dumps. Maybe even visit the animals at the zoo? Much better than group therapy or visits to the psychiatrist.

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  2. Akelamalu17 June 2009 at 19:48

    You know you've got to go!

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  3. Reeny's Ramblin'17 June 2009 at 21:23

    D'aw Gledwood...depression sucks, I've been there too. I agree with your Lonely Squirrel friend, force yourself to get up, go somewhere in London that you love. The Zoo sounds like a perfect place to walk around and ponder things...

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  4. Syd18 June 2009 at 00:55

    Hope that you do get to the doctor. And it must be a good time to get out and about. Museums or some music sounds good. Hope that you feel better.

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  5. Welshcakes Limoncello18 June 2009 at 01:10

    Oh, Gleds, if your body is telling you to sleep, then that's what you need to do. But do eat properly in between! I think the Lone Grey Squirrel has given you very good advice here.

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  6. Gledwood18 June 2009 at 18:43

    LONEGREY I might well do that

    AKELAMALU I know

    REENY I haven't been into central London for over 6 months!!

    SYD they're making appt for me as we speak (sort of)

    WELSHCAKES I hate doing it but what choice do I have if so knackered?

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