Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Chinchilla ii

I CAN'T really have an 秋田犬 Akita-inu where I am now (nor in most rented accommodation). Plus the cost of jabs and microchipping, bowls and leads or leashes and other incidentals mounts up exceedingly high (though I would really love one) ... so I've set my sights on chinchillas instead. These only cost £25 or so each. Maybe £50. But I don't want a fancy one I want a grey one... The cage is the biggest expense as to house a rabbit-sized creature it has to be massive, with a huge ratty-style wheel for them to ramble on plus dustbath to play in. Chinchillas (so the books say) require a certain type of obscure volcanic sand from the high Andes to brush their fur on... otherwise it will go all sweaty-looking and greasy...



Chinchilla dustbath ~ isn't this entertaining? Look how he gets right in..!



And don't they have South American alpaca/emu/llama-style faces..?

... And don't they look sweet!!

As for the "mental health" comments yesterday:

Thank you y'all!

I tried pretending nothing was wrong for so long and it never worked, so does it mean "embracing" a label?... or just ploughing through therapy to get the hell out as quickly as possible..?

All I know about therapy and counselling is that the more you put into these things, the more you get out. You can (and I'm sure lots of people do) use these sessions merely as an outlet to complain about people, things and circumstances that have occurred during the week. You sound off in the session and do nothing about anything between sessions and the time in the room becomes an emotional outlet. You can also look deep within yourself, like the character described yesterday staring into his own eyes saying "aren't I amazing" (and in counselling ~ complexicated ~ and contradictory and deep and fascinating. (But so is everyone else!!) OR you can use such sessions as a means to throw up insights you can hold on to and use as a means of change. And though it might sound a bit snotty-nosed, that's what I would hope I might do with these "therapeutic" experiences.

I hate counselling, in a way. Because it is an inherently one-sided relationship. They know all these things about you, yet you are talking to a human whitewashed wall. What's "healthy" about that?

The blankness of such a relationship is its freedom, because you should be able to say anything you like without fear of emotional fallout (as might happen if you confided in a family member, who is inextricably tied to the same web of interconnected conflicts as you are)... so it all gets deep and meaningful and whatever. But every time I turn up I look at the watch and see 50 minutes of blank time ... and wish I could somehow fast forward it over!

And every time, somehow the minutes go too quickly!!

Right I gotta go find me a chinchilla. Have a nice day, y'all...

5 comments:

  1. Hope you get the chinchilla, Gledds. They are so cute.

    Love you much,

    SB

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  2. Chins live forever but theyre incredibly entertaining. In the US the best avail chin cages are rather tall, as chinchillas are from rocky highlands and LOVE to hop!!!!! make sure to have lots of platforms and a cooling marble for yours; theyre rather poor at regulating their body temperatures when its warm out and love a cool marble to relax on.

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  3. Gleds honey. There is no quick fix. Whether you have a label or not, if it helps, stick with it for a little while and just see where it takes you. One thing I've learned after following you for a very long time is that you are not the most patient of creatures. Give something a chance to work whether it's methodone, therapy, counselling. I think you've hit it right on the head with "You can hold onto and use as a means of change'. But you need to stick at it. In a way, you're very fortunate to be living in a country where these services are available to you for free . . think of our poor American cousins who pay thousands for the type of services you're getting on the NHS, it's not about money but the services are there so use them. Sorry, I didn't mean to lecture, I just think the time has come for you to get serious and follow through.

    And frankly, if you don't Bimbimbie and I may well abduct you and force you into cold turkey and whalesong for a month!

    And no, don't get a Chinchilla. They need too much maintenance, stick with hammies. There, my five cents and a bit!

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  4. SB: :-)

    J: i will have to think about whether I really can keep one. i ain't got ROOM for a huge enclosure, not really, and especially one i would want to HIDE from the EVIL LANDLORD, ya know...

    BAINO: me?? impatient?? how did you guess??

    re the labelling thing, well as I spose I said ~ I'm a bit anti it. I tried not to go down the "mental" road but if constant depression and basically living in a mess becomes a problem then I have to hold my hands up and do what's needed. At least the last doctor seemed to take on the idea that 1. i want help and will be willing to go with it but 2. it/i'm/life isn't straightforward

    yeah you're right chinchillas are a bit too big really and I had siberian hamsters who looked like they were about to expire in high summer ~ i heard chinchillas are the same. the hamsters liked ice packs but what do you do with a chinchilla??

    but they do look cute

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  5. That is one reason that I like Al-Anon so much rather than therapy. I get to hear something from others who tell a story similar to mine. And I can see their growth in recovery. It is powerful.

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