And a lopsy-eared chinchilla, for those, like me, who prefer a martian bunny to the earth variety...
A technicolour Easter Chinchilla...
I had a miserable easter with no eggs and no drugs. I was trying to give up but ended up in such pits of misery I only wanted to die and do the world a favour and get it over with as quick as possible. How I hate being alive without drugs. Can't live with them; can't live without 'em. What the hell am I going to do?I don't WANT to cut my throat, or jump in front of a train, but I haven't the guts to detox. So I'm stuck in this agony of misery ~ toothache of the soul.. and have no idea what steps to take to clamber out of this dreadful morass....
Nobody can help me. Only I can help myself. Yet I can't. I'm too lazy.
So I'm ****ed, aren't I??
Akita 秋田犬 alerts! Akita 秋田 means Autumn 秋 Field 田 or Fallfield 秋田, if you want to be American and succinct about it. I saw a huge dark male one trotting down the street the other day. I wanted to say kon-ban-wa! (good evening) to it, but was too self-conscious. Also it looked 50% really cute and 50% like it wanted to bite me (which is why that breed appeals to me in the first place, a mixture of ultra-furry and scary, haha!...
Then I was watching Ray Mears in South East Asia yesterday and saw a white Akita dog 秋田犬 on a floating Vietnamese boat village in Vietnam. I'm surprised a dog designed to brave the Greenlandic winters of northern Japan could survive in a tropical climate, and it did look a bit scraggly, but I suppose the undercoat moults out in tropical climes... Anyway, Northern Vietnam has quite severe winters, so I spose the poor swine would need his coat for that...
I'm still undecided about what to do about pets. The problem is, roborovski hammies are so very tiny and pingy and are a bugger to get back once they escape (which they do with exceeding ease) and I have a great gap under my door that would NOT be good vis-a-vis getting the tiny swines back...
I was thinking of doing what Mr Downstairs Man did with his Staffordshire Bull Terrier puppy and getting a doggie anyway and waiting facing whatever trouble arises as and when. I really want my Akita 犬 swine and do not see why the local council piggery should stand in the way of doggie happiness. The swines!
Gleds, I hope that you will do the detox. I don't want you to die--that is how I feel and sorry to put a damper on any thoughts of suicide. I see that you enjoy animals and that to me means that you are a good fellow. There is much of life to be enjoyed. But taking the step towards recovery is a courageous one, but one that is filled with a lot of hope.
ReplyDeleteI will offer words of encouragement for you to continue the fight, but are mere words enough?
ReplyDeleteAre you really sure you want a doggie? Doggies are so much work. It might be more than you want to take on right now. I say go with the pingy trotter donkeys. They will give you much joy and not much cost or effort. If you must have a doggie, an Akita will be way too much doggie. You could consider a Shiba Inu. Looks like a minature Akita. The only problem with Shibas are they are very independent minded so they are not a doggie for someone without a lot of patience.
Remember that doggies need to be walked many times in the day and evening no matter what the weather is. Is this something you are prepared to do when you may have a day where you want to sleep 15 hours? Also remember, doggies need lots of food and lots of vet care. It's not cheap. What would you do if you got a doggie and then found that you couldn't care for it properly? If you had to give up the doggie to a shelter, it would break your heart. Is this something you are prepared to handle?
Wow. I was a right fine buzz kill wasn't I? Sorry for that, but I stand by what I wrote. Best of luck to you no matter what you decide, but I say stick with the trotter donkeys.
Now should you need a doggie fix, just go to the local park where the doggies are allowed to play and adopt one for the day. That's what I do. Most owners are happy to show their doggies off to anyone with an interest. Maybe you could even get a job as a doggie walker. That one maybe a stretch, but I'm just thinking here. Maybe I will stop now because thinking hurts. Ciao.
I do wish you can find the courage and resolve to detox Gleds. x
ReplyDeleteGleds don't you have a 'buddy' or mentor you can call when you feel like shit? Doing it alone isn't the way to go. And I agree with Molson, dogs are a huge responsibility. No good if you're feeling horrible and can't be bothered taking them out.
ReplyDeleteI feel for you. I'm not even an alcoholic but would be devastated to have to go without forever. I also know what's it's like to feel hopeless and depressed. You are right - no one else can fix it for you. I hope you can pull yourself up out of the slump. Life is good when you aren't in the pit. You are not hopeless much as you might feel you are.
ReplyDeleteI think you SHOULD get a pet but get a quiet one so they don't find out.