I am rushing faster than I thought I was. Two cups of tea set it off, if you want blame. Should I blame something or was it just me? I felt anxious, then had to find my keys, then had to go get methadone after going post office to get out money to lend someone else. Then I went saw Paddadadster gave him £25 then I felt PHEWWWEWWWW!! Deflated, down to the ground, but in a good way, then I was hyper again by the public library, pacing, racing. Pinging in all directions inside there. Found a Readers Digest Family Health guide, right there on the shelf-end, found myself in there, didn’t like what I saw. Snapped book shut. Pinged out, up the road, phone rang someone had seen me who was in that Magical Mystery Tour Car last Saturday saying I saw you from the bus how’s it going. Very well. Very quick. I didn’t say quick, but talked it.
Now I’m in bedroom as other room so chilly my hands barely move. Open windows no heating. My own heater’s broken or the fuse has gone.Last night I slept maybe 11 or 12 hours. 10:30 to 10:30 with some awake “uuuuuuh?!?” in between. First time I got up it was just after nine, but I was sure the click was broken and it was 7pm ie not 0900 but 1900 hours but no. It just felt like I slept hours and hours and hours MORE than I did. I had a weird dream about a servant girl from Upstairs Downstairs in our house sneaking upstairs to take the dogs for a walk.
I went to NA last night but was only there for the chair [life story given at beginning]. I was tripping* with “auditory hallucinations” all day and all night.Yesterday day time I went to the laundrette but again was tripping. And trying not to drink too much as people think I’m an alcoholic when I just was off on one anyway.
That’s my diary for today and yesterday. Hope it makes sense.
Hope y’all are OK. Take care XX
*I haven't taken a drugs trip for over 10 years, this tripping/hallucinating is just me, what happens
JAM AND SPOON
thanks Lizzie
part of that's the tune from moby's GO. jam and spoon did AGE OF LOVE BY AGE OF LOVE remix
which is fantastic trance classic, from a Tsuyoshi psychotrance mix tape we had back in 1994 which seems ANCIENT now!
AGE OF LOVE AGE OF LOVE
this tune is transcendently beautiful. note the foreign voice "come on, dance with me, move your body..." trance was & is international
VIDEO the waters are Goa-green. When I went to India, the water I saw was emerald green, not sapphire blue I was expecting... except perhaps in Tamil Nadu, which is on the Bay of Bengal-cum-Indian Ocean (not the Arabian Sea as is Goa) ... I'd love to Goa back...
for non-trance-party purposes, i thik this mix is better than the one at the bottom
AGE OF LOVE AGE OF LOVE JAM & SPOON REMIX same as above but longer 6 mins not 3
MOBY GO 2 VIDEOS the distinctive tune is the twin peaks music, not the theme tune, the tune that made it seem so dreamlike in-sequence ...
apart from the awful piano break i quite like this one:~~~~~~~~
different visuals, different mix
loving the music gleds moby go makes me want to cry
ReplyDeletehow about this one its the first 12" i bought after my first ruhbarb and custard at my first spiral tribe party
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjQqYFNK50M&feature=related
Papua New Guinea... doesn't that sound a little bit like Long Dark Tunnel? I can't play till later, broadband maxxed out!
ReplyDeleteI always used to mix that tune up with Urban Shakedown Some Justice, the sunlight at dawn "Now-eeee-yeah We Live As One Family" "woman" sounded rather New Guinean to me ..!
Great music choices although the 'trippiness' is a bit weird. Part of the withdrawal maybe? You talking to your psych about these episodes?
ReplyDeleteyeah the psych knows about them, he was asking me how paranoid i was etc etc, then i went into one re hep c tests and their computer then (a few hours later) thought "oh shit" ~ that was paranoia speaking!
ReplyDeletei'm on methadone though, just not heroin. nobody else seems to get it this bad, which i don't understand. maybe i'm just not receptive to methadone mentally. i got told you feel flat and assumed everyone felt suicidal/or just started into space when not doing anything. That WAS me on methadone. Now i'm too hyped up. which i cannot 100% complain about, obviously it's better than depression any day of the week, even though it does get ultra intense...
... hmmmm. strange, i know
i see the psych in a month, that means (i hope) it's rolling appointments from now on. you wouldn't usually get appointments more frequently than that on the nhs, only emergency ones (like the other day)
In the final analysis, I have to tip my cap to any magazine that has the balls and intelligence to include Japanese animation on their list.
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