THIS POST IS REALLY FOR MORE MUSIC (see below). I slept about 10 hours from midnight to 10am.
Took 2x2mg Risperidone 1x7.5mg zopiclone; had 2 or 3 drinks (500ml White Stars/White Aces 7.5% vol alcohol). The day before yesterday I drank about 5 of them. Today I'm sticking to 2, or even 1 if I can do it.2 drinks I can get to quite easy. 1 in the morning; 1 in the afternoon. Going below that has been difficult. I could cut out the morning drink most easily.
The Dual Diagnosis Worker phoned me the other day, post Psych Dr Appointment; we talked about ways of reducing. Everybody says I want to switch drinks as White Cyder is "gutrotting" and "has never seen an apple". It is NOT a romanticized evening Cyder House near
Stonehenge beautiful Keats Ode to Autumn type drink. It is liquid Brillo pads, for homeless street drinkers to get pissed-up as quick and as cheap as possible. Mixed with tropical fruit mixed cocktail it's a beautiful budget alcopop. And probably super-bad for my teeth. Which are acid-eroded enough (to quote the toothpaste commercial).OK so that's me and drink. I don't know my mental state it's probably higher than normal still but high feels good. I only say "high" knowing now what that is and how it reacts and how it feels (not the same as drug high, by any means: feels more "normal" goes off like a Pinnnnng--gggggg-ing Pika at no notice. Is intensely cheered by social situations. Speaks quick. Is highly distractable. Is paranoid more on the lower levels than the high ones, when it is full of grandeur...) so that's me.
I'm OK. I hope I'm staying on topic and being relevant.
Anyway here's music!
FUTURE SOUND OF LONDON: PAPUA NEW GUINEA
Thanks Lizzie
OBIE TRICE: GOT SOME TEETH
Hilarious. I love this "song"; only rap thing I really like
SNEAKER PIMPS Spin Spin Sugar ( Armands Dark Garage Mix )
Thanks Lizzie
ARMIN VAN BUUREN FT. SHARON DEN ADEL - In and Out of Love (Official Music Video)
Illustrated pinging pikas: they live up mountains in North America and Central Asia, look like a bunny rabbit crossed with a hamster. They ping everywhere, and collect bunches of flowers to hoard and eat when the flowers rot down. Russian Dwarf hammies live in disused pika burrows....
13:25 severe hunger pangs; going up Iceland for a Family Steak Pie (proper chunks of steak, no mince) which I eat with mixed veg dumped on top (there's enough carbs in the crust in my view...)
I just read your Friday post and thought you sounded better but you sound even better in this post! I'm so glad you're trying so hard to cut down on the drinking. I'm wishing you well Gleds. x
ReplyDeleteI so much don't want to turn into an old drinker. I'm fed up of people looking at me probably because I smell of drink and act a bit strange, thinking I'm an alkie.
ReplyDeleteIt has to go!
Catching up on your posts. I am glad that you are going to meetings. I am really hopeful for you.
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