MY FRIEND ANNA GRACE is doing gym membership stuff. She does this thing when you can use a step machine or other machine at a cinema, while watching a movie! That is so American!So I decided instead of getting laughed out of the boxing club I was going to go swimming. I have about 2 stone I want to lose. That's about 14kg or 28 lbs. An unsympathetic doctor (ooo where you gonna find one of those?! Try a prison. Try a drug clinic!) one of them they'd tell me I'm ideal weight. Bullshit I am I'm overweight I hate having any fat on me so I have to do Water Torture x3 a week. I looked up the prices. Without a special card it costs £6 with a bus or about £5.50 at the really posh one or about £3.80 at the less posh one. I was going to walk there to use up more calories. If I can eat one meal divided in three and cut alcohol out I should be able to lose weight despite antipsychotics. I know this sounds OTT but you have to be strict. One meal means a BIG meal, about 1500 calories. I can easily survive on that much. Most of the population of the world eats between 1000 and 1500 calories a day. I've been to India and eaten with the natives. I know.
Risperidone like most atypical antipsychotics causes weight gain and everyone says I look fat. Not that they use that word. They say I put on weight since January when I had that breakdown and literally exhausted myself so bad I felt physically sick from exhaustion. If I could keep up a level of activity I could get really thin and lithe. Last thing I want to be is that steroidal look. I want the karate-type look.
I would quite like to go swimming while in my "elevated mood" that would be fantastic.
Exercise always makes my mood go higher. I need to sort this shit out. I'm less scared of going swimming than I am of going into town and buying paints. Paints are stressful. Swimming I've done endless times before and it's the only sport I genuinely like.
OK so remind me in 3 weeks time I said I'M NEVER GOING SWIMMING IN LONDON. EVER. NEVER EVER GOING.
If I say that then I'll definitely go. I only make resolutions these days to break them... ha ha ha!
0420 OK I don't know how much weight I wanna lose or how fit I want to be but I wanna do something and swimming is it
Swimming is the best exercise one can do apparently. Good luck Gleds. :)
ReplyDeleteI hate the body issue of stripping off but once you jump in it's gone.
ReplyDeleteThey say only women feel that way that is such a lie.
Anyway yes! It is the only exercise i actually like. Proper like. And it doesn't feel totally torturous. I would never swim lengths. If you keep moving you may as well be swimming lengths anyhow.
Sounds good to me. I like swimming.
ReplyDeleteExercise really helps for PAWS too, getting endorphines going natrually ius a good thing.. unfortunately post detox the last thing you want to do is anything physical so it's a real battle to have the discipline to actually do it, swimming.. hmm.. detox always makes me hydrophobic..
ReplyDeleteThe last rehab I went to was a really posh one, they had an amazing gym and I had my own personal trainer lol... they had me on the step machine, looked a right dick, im not cut out for excersize! It does help though, after my last detox I tried to walk every day, it helps RLS and aches..
Thanks for your last comment re meds, i've actually been on most of those at one point or another, im pretty crap at answering comments so my aplogies,.. hope your ok otherwise mr
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