tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post4202164182961304659..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): Part 8: Cold TurkeyGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-44398681126962572602007-07-09T08:39:00.000+01:002007-07-09T08:39:00.000+01:00hello?no word from you, no response to my query, n...hello?<BR/>no word from you, no response to my query, no response to my putting you in my blog and adding a link. did you get my messages on this post? <BR/>-confused and oversensitiverowanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13539447839992864631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-77714095954365035522007-07-07T23:31:00.000+01:002007-07-07T23:31:00.000+01:00Edyta a writer! I just gotta channel the writing i...<STRONG>Edyta</STRONG> a writer! I just gotta channel the writing into something more profitable than a blog, tho, innit?! Thanxx for the compliment tho<BR/><BR/><STRONG>Sadgirl</STRONG>: yeah, they never really mention how hard withdrawal is MENTALLY. PHYSICALLY being ill is one thing, but mental suffering is quite something else... I mean maybe 90% of physical suffering is in the mind (think of what pain clinics tend to say) ... that is why depression is such a very devastating experience ...<BR/><BR/>"So that's why the loading time" ... what do you mean, <STRONG>Ivy</STRONG>?Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-89663443304006997112007-07-07T23:28:00.000+01:002007-07-07T23:28:00.000+01:00Raffi: hopefully I won't even have to "cluck" it o...<STRONG>Raffi</STRONG>: hopefully I won't even have to "cluck" it out ... well not properly... they always promise a painless detox ... <STRONG>liars!</STRONG><BR/><BR/><STRONG>Anonymous</STRONG>~ that's why heroin is the archetypal drug of addiction. BC it is so very compellingly powerfully addictive. It's utterly impossible for a nonaddict to comprehend how addictive this stuff is ...<BR/><STRONG>I'm glad life is OK for you now though...</STRONG><BR/><BR/><STRONG>Puss-in-Boots</STRONG> I hope it is cathartic. & I hope it means I never have to go through crap like that ever again!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-92232110019017732932007-07-07T23:25:00.000+01:002007-07-07T23:25:00.000+01:00Janice: if crystal meth is harder to get off than ...<STRONG>Janice:</STRONG> if crystal meth is harder to get off than heroin it must be an utter nightmare! I must say, I saw a news item about the stuff on NBC nightly news and was horrified to see people who'd been in treatment for <STRONG>a month</STRONG> still looking horrible. Heroin and crack addicts usually look vastly better within a matter of <STRONG>days!</STRONG><BR/><BR/>Thanks, <STRONG>Audrey</STRONG>~ I'm glad the story has made some impression on people<BR/><BR/>Yeah, <STRONG>Dan</STRONG>, I have thought of that ... but what to write? Where to start ..? ... etc ... (Which is no reason why not to, not knowing, I know. But I'm just saying ... one's own life is a pretty huge topic!)Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-17351286477005342622007-07-07T23:21:00.000+01:002007-07-07T23:21:00.000+01:00Wayward: do you really think it contains all the r...<STRONG>Wayward:</STRONG> do you really think it contains all the reasons I want to quit? That is the kind of stuff I don't realize I'm saying while I write it, know what I mean? I'm glad you said I managed to put my finger on the nuances of addiction bc that's really what I was trying to do when I set up the blog ~ to tell what addiction is like from the inside in a way that has never been (satisfactorily) done before ...<BR/><BR/>Thanks, <STRONG>Megs</STRONG>!<BR/><BR/>I shall try not to pick up, <STRONG>Empress!</STRONG>Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-70562188040918131942007-07-06T18:44:00.001+01:002007-07-06T18:44:00.001+01:00so that's why the loading time!!so that's why the loading time!!rowanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13539447839992864631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-28079427384994614492007-07-06T18:44:00.000+01:002007-07-06T18:44:00.000+01:00PPS. you do realize that there is still the side-b...PPS. you do realize that there is still the side-bar on my page dont you? You just didnt wait long enough. Maybe one of these days I should start putting some of my entries on another page but right now ALL entries are on ONE web page. That's like... a bajillion words.rowanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13539447839992864631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-63688558615687723822007-07-06T18:38:00.000+01:002007-07-06T18:38:00.000+01:00Nice writing... "As the withdrawal progresses it's...Nice writing... <BR/>"As the withdrawal progresses it's like stripping layer after layer off your own skin, off your resistence to the world's minor irritations. Which is why, as I mention, the sweats became like an "agony" ~ the threshold of discomfort of any kind plummets. That fairytale "The Princess and the Pea" might well have been written about a detoxing royal junkie, because the author's point about luxury lowering tolerance to suffering and all suffering being relative is very much applicable to the heroin addict's self-inflicted lot." <BR/>Loved that paragraph. <BR/><BR/>Sorry I have been busy lately. moving and didnt have internet access so wasnt commenting but I'm back now. <BR/><BR/>I wish I had a timeline because the way you wrote it I think it just happened in the last three days? But how is that possible. ANd if you were detoxing from methadone? That takes months. Were you purposely leaving the end to be ambiguous or just tired out from the strenuousness of writing such a close piece? <BR/>Well done. Good writing. I still have questions but I really related to this one and I was proud of how you handled the withdrawals. <BR/>It also made me realize there is a lot I DONT know about you. Much more that I dont know than I do but writing is misleading in that it makes one think one knows more than they do... <BR/><BR/><BR/>I think if I could ever withdrawal it would have to be in the prescence of my mother, even though she is one of the "reasons" I started, she and burro, a teacher who had an affair with me, scored me, and then got married. I was ashamed that I felt anything and needed to flood myself with numbness. Of course it's all so complicated. If I'd had a better relationship with my parents.. If I had any support network at the time.. if I had anything but my WORK.. anything but my love for music, writing, literature.. it would all be different. I need to stop here. WHy is it I write better on other people's boxes sometimes than I do on my own blog???rowanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13539447839992864631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-62485246608324759042007-07-06T10:57:00.000+01:002007-07-06T10:57:00.000+01:00Hi GledsI am gobsmacked by your story, your intens...Hi Gleds<BR/><BR/>I am gobsmacked by your story, your intense suffering. I have greatly underestimated how bad withdrawal is. Heroin is a very brutal drug. Its cheating you out of a real life. I think WS comments are very insightful. I think you want to change. I agree with someone else who suggested a book. You explain your torment very precisely as though dissecting it for other people.<BR/><BR/>Thinking of you Gleds. I know your life has been tough but luck can change.<BR/><BR/>all the best<BR/>sad xThe onehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00277822928900774623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-11563364876191236502007-07-06T10:06:00.000+01:002007-07-06T10:06:00.000+01:00Gleds!I told ya u were a writer! I can tell u one ...Gleds!<BR/>I told ya u were a writer! I can tell u one thing, as an art-geek <-- me. I know that this writing makes ppl sad or feel miserable or makes them understand that ur experience isnt something that they would like to repeat cuz u went through it all. But that is actually a good thing. Ur writing is leaveing ain IMPRESSION on ppl. It doesnt matter if its a positive or nagative one - it leaves an impression. This is what counts. Basically, I agree with Dan very much & i told u this before, despite ur ups & downs, u still have your talent. Seriously.<BR/><BR/>& u know, Gleds, I think it is very sweet of u to remember me & leave a comment on my blog after ages i have been not there. I am not here cuz of my finishing touches to the prom. I promise I want to write something useful & come again to read everyone's thoughts & poems & anything else. I missed it so much. So I'll be back soon & stalk you :D So cya cya & thanx again sooo much for your care. U r awesome!Edytahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02464143620834984822noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-44354849021629242122007-07-06T08:54:00.000+01:002007-07-06T08:54:00.000+01:00Gleds, that is seriously scary. I couldn't imagin...Gleds, that is seriously scary. I couldn't imagine what you went through, just reading about it is enough to give me the shudders.<BR/><BR/>I can't help feeling that, in some way, writing about this is going to be cathartic for you. Whatever, I wish you all the best and hope you can get clean.<BR/><BR/>HugPuss-in-Bootshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02313418336654760327noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-1300768267887019392007-07-06T07:00:00.000+01:002007-07-06T07:00:00.000+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-27064885376667865072007-07-06T05:59:00.000+01:002007-07-06T05:59:00.000+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-69360471080403719642007-07-06T05:58:00.003+01:002007-07-06T05:58:00.003+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-65628289766215291062007-07-06T05:58:00.002+01:002007-07-06T05:58:00.002+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-44673756438319339922007-07-06T05:58:00.001+01:002007-07-06T05:58:00.001+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-68140125084988615032007-07-06T05:58:00.000+01:002007-07-06T05:58:00.000+01:00Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying...Heroin was a nightmare. Getting clean and staying clean was a nightmare. Clean for over two years now. Life is good. Cravings occasional, but weaken with time. Learned how to distinguish those impulses and eradicate them with other actions and behaviors. Your story is exactly mine. Gledwood, don't be one of those junkies that keeps trying and ends up dead. It's such a reality - DEATH.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-42221121903305427762007-07-06T05:54:00.000+01:002007-07-06T05:54:00.000+01:00the 'you're so dirty you want to be clean' idea is...the 'you're so dirty you want to be clean' idea is deep. i hope once you completely "cluck", it's your last one. good luck, gleds.raffihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04843220599568904061noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-30521430148629145792007-07-06T05:01:00.000+01:002007-07-06T05:01:00.000+01:00Gleds, have you ever thought of writing a book on ...Gleds, have you ever thought of writing a book on this? Some might really find it helpful?Danhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09763751210167358084noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-60600597729285715662007-07-06T01:47:00.000+01:002007-07-06T01:47:00.000+01:00Ive been reading these past few days Gledwood but ...Ive been reading these past few days Gledwood but not commenting,your story is so powerful and I can only thankyou for sharing it..Its deeply moving and thought provoking,you have given so much through sharing in a very real,open and honest way...May you find strength when you need it most and that one day you will say it was worth the struggle. I was also very moved by WS comment..<BR/><BR/>Your in my thoughts too x AudsAudreyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14719984917185676736noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-37252363657363876872007-07-06T01:45:00.000+01:002007-07-06T01:45:00.000+01:00I've heard the only thing worse than detoxing from...I've heard the only thing worse than detoxing from heroin is trying to get off meth. It's hard. Lots of folks don't understand that. I wish you the best and hugs for support.Crazed Nitwithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09433413927453925851noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-48054422631095061062007-07-06T00:06:00.000+01:002007-07-06T00:06:00.000+01:00don't pick up....smiles, beedon't pick up....<BR/><BR/>smiles, beeEmpress Bee (of the high sea)https://www.blogger.com/profile/08300140506585000934noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-53546484840219120592007-07-05T23:50:00.000+01:002007-07-05T23:50:00.000+01:00Hang tough Gleds--I'm keeping you in my thoughts!Hang tough Gleds--I'm keeping you in my thoughts!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-77793515176892114632007-07-05T22:39:00.000+01:002007-07-05T22:39:00.000+01:00You have written an account of your fall and exist...You have written an account of your fall and existence into addiction that is so utterly true. You have endeavored (quite successfully, I think) to explain the nuances of addiction and the spin it plays on one's life. You have been very informative about an addiction I am not that familiar with and have provided details and insight into the hows and whys. It's a VERY powerful story and an amazing bit of writing.<BR/><BR/>It also contains, I believe, all the reasons you want to quit. You know you have more to offer this world and you know that your addiction is standing in your way. I think you know that one day soon, being the person you will ultimately be will feel worth the struggle. Through your words you seem very, very close to the decision you have been sneaking up on for years. <BR/><BR/>The fact that I know you can do it is as worthless as others thinking you cannot. It's what you think that has any merit. I will promise you this, though. You will be amazed at how much people will help you and as you struggle on how much that help will grow. I have a feeling that our friend Ruth could share with you the most loving stories of people helping other's addicted to heroin and how much that service to others has helped them. Once you are on that path you will see that love has no end and you will witness all that is good in humanity. (something that seems in short supply when one is living with addiction)<BR/><BR/>Despite all the help that will come your way, it will be your decision, your actions, your struggle, your pain and your responsibility. It will also be your success. It will be the one thing in life you do that you will never, ever regret.<BR/><BR/>WSWayward Sonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16169683029085558375noreply@blogger.com