tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post4843872112364334171..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): When are you coming round again?Gledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-91470238765209261352010-11-21T01:56:50.854+00:002010-11-21T01:56:50.854+00:00I'm OK, really. Physically I am fine. I get te...I'm OK, really. Physically I am fine. I get terrified some impressionable kid will read something and get the wrong idea. That is why I keep checking myself. I don't want anyone to die either! I know what it is like to cry over someone who is alive and you are so terrified they will OD or whatever. I just cannot worry about myself like that. I don't think anyone ever does.<br /><br />I'm eating OK. Takeaway, as in frozen supermarket takeout containers that go in the oven. Loads of those. Not too expensive. I spent £12.50 on drugs this week, a record low!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-24367807688290185202010-11-21T00:10:40.657+00:002010-11-21T00:10:40.657+00:00Dear Gleds,
I worry about you dying one day...
I ...Dear Gleds,<br /><br />I worry about you dying one day...<br />I would call your drugs worker and anyone else you trust who won't feed you drugs, and talk...<br /><br />The other thing you can do is as Baino suggested and keep your nutrition on the right track, and if there's no-one around, write, about feelings, cravings, whatever. You surely must have a guardian angel...<br /><br />Sorry to sound like I'm preaching, I know it's the worst to try and kick...Don't give up!ehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11376645220662546020noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-40091711154314954362010-11-19T20:11:48.844+00:002010-11-19T20:11:48.844+00:00Haha!
I would like to advise go do the normality b...Haha!<br />I would like to advise go do the normality but I know how you feel.<br />Spicy fix. You know what I am so cydered out I could actually do with a cup of TEA. Gotta go get the milk though.<br />Be good, hahaha!!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-23669782288250162052010-11-19T20:06:19.451+00:002010-11-19T20:06:19.451+00:00Hi, same here, craving, craving...and annoyed at m...Hi, same here, craving, craving...and annoyed at myself for craving shit....but still craving...<br /><br />...my straight flatmate has invited long-lost schoolfriend over for dinner and it is so unbearably normal and nice and half of me wants to go fuck it, join in. Talk, maybe drink wine. But the darker half is saying...wait...you may be able to get some later, the miracle guy is trying to sort something. You may be alright...<br /><br />So I'm on my computer, balancing in the middle, don't want to commit to a normal evening, don't want to hope for some gear instead...<br /><br />..oh, and I totally get the heroin/food thing, on juice I don't want to eat/drink anything, on heroin I LOVE food. Mature cheddar cheese and bread, cake. Its like I only work inside when I am on it...<br /><br />Anyway, thanks for the post...good luck with your spicy fix (sounds well dangerous innit!)Lady Anonnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-59271432131836223512010-11-19T20:03:43.263+00:002010-11-19T20:03:43.263+00:00I used Wednesday, but posted yesterday.
It really ...I used Wednesday, but posted yesterday.<br />It really did my head in when that dealer got in touch. He could tell, and sounded guilty about everything. <br /><br />I know how they justify it to themselves. "They want to do it, so I'll let them." Also it probably works a bit like addiction. If the contact is there, you want to use it. Not everyone knows where to go to get wholesale gear (if they did it wouldn't be so awful now).<br /><br />I took more juice. I split doses anyway. Much better than going 24 hours on a peak and trough. I am surprised that with surely nearly clean blood I can still feel that 12-hour mini-trough, but ho hum!<br /><br />I looked and looked for your email before but could not find it. I spent maybe an hour over 3 occasions carefully going through them all. I will look again.<br /><br />Did you know Subutex does make most of the craving go. It's the obsessivene ritualisticness it can't get to as effectively. And the feeling of being bereft without "B". Not physical craving, but an emotional thing, like when someone dies and you can only think of the good times. It's v deceptive like that.<br /><br />I do appreciate your commenting. It's hard for a normal person to do. I think a lot of people feel out of their depth in the present deluge, not knowing what to say.Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-35045218016755335842010-11-19T19:44:39.923+00:002010-11-19T19:44:39.923+00:00OK sounds perfectly normal to me but you can't...OK sounds perfectly normal to me but you can't do this on your own. You still have a drug worker? Make sure their number is in your phone and talk to them when you feel like this. I was disappointed that you actually used yesterday knowing full well that the shit could have anything in it. I don't know what advice was in your post but yes, coming from you it could sound a little preachy then hey,you know what you're talking about. As far as eating goes, try something that will last a while, apples or a bowl of soup just to take the edge off and keep the nutrition up. Keep on it Gleds, you won't get an opportunity like this again even if it hurts. Most importantly, seek support. We had a drought here in 2007 and surprisingly, usage went down, ODs went down and only a slight rise in the use of crack. (Go read your bloody email, I put it in there). I am not a religious person but if I was, I'd be banging out prayers left right and centre, use this to get clean. I still want to see "Recovering Heroin Addict" under your masthead. Oh, Subutex is supposede to be OK for preventing the high but I don't see how it curbs the need. Check out casualty if you need to.Bainohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14156193098088048637noreply@blogger.com