tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post4993574906707821095..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): SchizophreniaGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-19524587426415781242011-01-20T01:48:37.357+00:002011-01-20T01:48:37.357+00:00Wow to Jess. I think that she has given an ace of ...Wow to Jess. I think that she has given an ace of a comment.Sydhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05642843245634635843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-79820617697882705342011-01-19T23:28:02.387+00:002011-01-19T23:28:02.387+00:00Hi Gleds,
Hmm, pretty ruff day.
Jess Mistress, goo...Hi Gleds,<br />Hmm, pretty ruff day.<br />Jess Mistress, good reply.<br />Take good care Gledsthe guy in the silk taffeta dresshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16393888432347341365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-70352110849483375022011-01-19T18:19:30.122+00:002011-01-19T18:19:30.122+00:00also ditto pretty much what jess said. a few weeks...also ditto pretty much what jess said. a few weeks off gear aint long enough, after ten yrs on, to stabilize. but u know all that and sleep deprivation enough to make the sanest feel like they truly mad. so both mixed with alcohol and much self analysis is going round in circles. i got no suggestions as i still at foolish stage of keep trying another bag to see if it better than the last, (well it cant be worse i think at the time) only to be proved wrong. . again! get some more robos to look after u . i got seven and highly poss few more on way as i sexed them by watching behaviour instead of recommended way. but u seem happier today. . the you that we hear about that is. hope the real u ok 2 xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-40713667564386297132011-01-19T16:05:55.150+00:002011-01-19T16:05:55.150+00:00Ditto everything Jess said.
Also, the people in NA...Ditto everything Jess said.<br />Also, the people in NA are far from perfect, just like everyone else. We make mistakes, we judge people, we can be self-centered, but we are working on it.<br />In my area of NA we had a member that had schizophrenia. He sometimes talked to himself, and people that weren't there during meetings. Some people accused him of not actually being clean, although I don't know anyone accused him directly (he was a big biker dude, a bit intimidating even without the mental illness). But I actually hung out with this guy a few times (which, sadly, elicited some snickers from my peers) and I truly believe he was drug free. And when he shared, if you could open your mind and truly follow what he was saying, it was pretty clear he had an excellent grasp of the program and how to work the steps. Like you, he was highly intelligent, but not easily accessible. He doesn't come around anymore, which is upsetting because he needs NA, and NA needs him as well.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-31776639150649899692011-01-19T14:50:56.642+00:002011-01-19T14:50:56.642+00:00LOL, you are a liar, not in the normal sense, you ...LOL, you are a liar, not in the normal sense, you lie to yourself.<br /><br />You ARE on drugs right? Doesn't matter that you decided <br />a) to obtain through other means what you believe a doctor would prescribe if you had the money to go to a DR <br />b)whether a doctor or clinic prescribes <br />c) whether you've taken/scored illegal drugs recently, you're still on drugs. <br /><br />If you say not, you are lying to yourself.<br /><br />Also, alcohol IS a drug, and you do use that.<br /><br />The idea is to get honest with yourself and others who have experience with what you are going through, but you can't do that so long as you are closed-minded and trying to keep from seeing where your experiences and lives are similar to an alcoholic/addict. <br /><br />Drug addiction masks itself in LOTS of symptoms that can be diagnosed in different ways, depression, mania, OCD, ADHD, ADD, Bi-polar, scizophrenia.... NONE OF THESE CAN BE ACCURATELY DIAGNOSED (I think you've heard this before) until your system is clear of the drugs that can cause those symptoms (alcohol and all other mind altering/mood altering) <br /><br />Self-diagnosis by someone with your history is insanity.<br /><br />You're mind is lost in a haze of drugs and psychosis, NA and AA tell you that we've been there and no matter how hard we tried, we couldn't get clear until we were willing to concede that we had been using our own idea of the perfect chemistry for so long that we had no idea how to distinguish real psychosis from the drug induced craze that MAY indeed BE permanent damage, BUT we don't know for sure until we're willing to dry out and allow the chemicals to leave our system COMPLETELY!<br /><br />You're not willing, that's ok. You'll either die trying your way, be locked up so that you have no choice (for the safety of the general public and yourself) or get so hopeless trying to figure it all out yourself and failing that that you'll get willing.<br /><br />That's the beauty of the programs NA/AA, no one can force you, only your personal circumstance and your experience can become the force. The law or another powerful organization can step in, but that's still your own experience with failure to be powerful enough to stop the progression that causes it to happen.<br /><br />So far... you're still free to choose even if your choices are insane, schizophrenic, manic, or disordered. You get to pick for now what you believe and how you act on your belief. Course, if I was experiencing what you are, I'd prolly be willing to listen to someone who had the psychotic feelings and thoughts and got free (and didn't need any chemicals to do so) <br /><br />Good luckJess Mistress of Mischiefhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14766848582303523764noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-33129665633841284022011-01-19T10:28:04.917+00:002011-01-19T10:28:04.917+00:00I'm glad I read what you put twice. Slightly s...I'm glad I read what you put twice. Slightly scattered attention span going on here. I wish I could do that but that is mixing 2 identities. Both are real, but one says things not said in real life and it would make me too para. I get paranoid enough considering that they might have stumbled across it and recognized me... which is vaguely possible y'know... something I don't want to think of.<br /><br />NA all think I'm ON drugs IN denial bloody hell. It made me laugh before. It's getting to me now. Usually I'm expert at not letting anything much get to me. With or without drugs. Which really begs the question why I wasted my time on them. <br /><br />I feel high enough without drugs why the hell did I bother I feel such a fool.<br /><br />I hope he gets better soon. I cannot say anything else, We're at opposite poles psychologically in a different sense, I mean it was obvious to me once I heard about it, that something had gone wrong in childhood because OCD is so distinctive. The depression bit was harder to grasp as it involved worrying about dying to the extent of actually feelling like I was dying.<br /><br />I do understand how he feels. In a sense the way you see things from the top and bottom pole are real truth, the in-between is too grey and boring for words. then again what th hell is severe depression compared to "grey and boring"... post-nuclear? How bad does he want it to get?? Sorry I'm probably not helping. <br /><br />I think he will one day see. You'd do better talking to him once he's in a normal mood because he will see a pattern. In depression he's only going to look back on depression. <br /><br />I hope I haven't wandered off the point I'm so tired I cannot think any constructive thing you could doGledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-45748447627237780572011-01-19T08:39:04.208+00:002011-01-19T08:39:04.208+00:00Gleds I have a friend at the moment having a major...Gleds I have a friend at the moment having a major bi polar episode and he won't recognise that he's depressed. He just thinks it's the way his life is. He won't seek help and it's tearing me apart. At least you're cogniscent of your moods and issues and linking in with professionals who can help. You should give them a link to your blog, you say more here than you probably do on the couch. If only I could get my darling boy to seek help, I'd sleep at night. Very sad today.Bainohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14156193098088048637noreply@blogger.com