tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post5020088878776091694..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): DonkeyTrotterNutterGoblinDongleSnatcher Sleeping...Gledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-5570861789650890592010-12-24T04:32:45.515+00:002010-12-24T04:32:45.515+00:00Cheers Sid. Unbelievable, innit.
That's just ...<em>Cheers Sid. Unbelievable, innit.<br /><br />That's just not me. I AM heroin. <br /><br />How I can ever become normal again is anyone's guess. At the moment I'm just an addict who doesn't use...</em>Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-36409408503888259112010-12-24T01:58:14.877+00:002010-12-24T01:58:14.877+00:00I too am relieved to hear that you are not taking ...I too am relieved to hear that you are not taking H and hope that you will be a success story of someone who quit and stayed off the stuff. Rooting for you, dude.Sydhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05642843245634635843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-414976070149703272010-12-23T20:38:46.437+00:002010-12-23T20:38:46.437+00:00Gracie: thank you ever so much. That was a v kind ...<strong>Gracie:</strong> thank you ever so much. That was a v kind comment. I miss seeing you online. <br /><br /><strong>Z:</strong> akh! That's inconvenient!<br /><br /><strong>Akelamalu:</strong> I wobble every day now. Never gave in though. Hopefully I'll outsell Enid Blyton and Agatha Christie combined. That's my goal. 3 billion copies.<br /><br /><strong>SB :</strong> cheers dears. And to you. As I said I do have mixed feelings about Kate Holden's book. She is writing, of course about 2 subject: addiction and prostitution. I think as a prostitute's memoir it's pretty good. But I haven't (and wouldn't be interested in) reading another one to compare<br /><br /><strong>Jams:</strong> cheers!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-71958027678311569842010-12-23T19:49:05.324+00:002010-12-23T19:49:05.324+00:00Well done Gledwood. You can do itWell done Gledwood. You can do itjams o donnellhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17315325008175184363noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-77753117136933081882010-12-23T15:55:29.118+00:002010-12-23T15:55:29.118+00:00Love you, Gledds.
I read the Kate Holden book on...Love you, Gledds. <br /><br />I read the Kate Holden book on your recommendation, and I really loved it. Quite a good and quick read.<br /><br />I wish you a happy holiday and a terrific new year, my dear friend.<br /><br />Love,<br /><br />SBSarcastic Bastardhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17116577711704241625noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-28476459776552946872010-12-23T15:20:52.949+00:002010-12-23T15:20:52.949+00:00Oh I'm so happy to hear this Gleds, you are do...Oh I'm so happy to hear this Gleds, you are doing so well.<br /><br />My thoughts are with you and I hope you have the strength to carry on resisting Heroin.<br /><br />I wish you a Happy Christmas and hope that 2011 is the year that you get clean and become a famous author. xxxxAkelamaluhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11234268568845148285noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-7699716746603382482010-12-23T08:46:44.047+00:002010-12-23T08:46:44.047+00:00Some bastard broke the picture in the attic and I&...Some bastard broke the picture in the attic and I've aged 50 years overnight.Zhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00822383355869390919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-21014935650769137282010-12-23T08:37:11.774+00:002010-12-23T08:37:11.774+00:00I am SO glad you stopped by! I'd been thinkin...I am SO glad you stopped by! I'd been thinking about you now and again, and am very pleased to see you're making some headway on your journey. I won't pile on the platitudes because I know how addictions just downright suck. None of us know what we'd do in the same situation, and all I can do is wish you well and pray for your recovery. Stay warm (inside and out!) and just let the knowledge flow through you that a lot of people you may never meet in the flesh care about you......<br />~~~Blessings~~~Amazing Graciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12788890988002911896noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-39996505496219262092010-12-23T08:23:46.921+00:002010-12-23T08:23:46.921+00:00Z: have you suddenly taken growth hormones..??!!?(...<strong>Z</strong>: have you suddenly taken growth hormones..??!!?(!!)<br /><br /><strong>Taffeta</strong>: I'm so sorry about your friend. I wasn't entirely sure when that happened or how recent it was. If I'd known it was that bad I'd not have been asking for posts about clothing!<br /> <br />When I'm rich I'g getting 2 cleaning ladies called Mavis and Olive. I shall torture them with my home-made shapherd's pie which they'll have to accept from sheer politeness and then pile on to their grandchildren... or someone else who doesn't want it!<br /><br /><strong>BMelons</strong>: You can links posts by clicking the title, then the post appears on its own with comments after it. Click on the top bar now, and you get the specific address of that post, which is how I linked to your two posts about Katrina and fleeing katrina.<br /><br />I first heard "anecdotallly" off a friend that heroin was an antipsychotic. We used to use with 2 schizophrenics and it certainly seemed to damp their symptoms down.<br /><br />On me it had a marked mood-stabilizing effect. I think I had something of a "cyclothymic temperament" that is one where you're up then down. I'm not miseryguts (dysthymic) I'm not annoyingly positive (hyperthymic) I'm not euthymic (no moods) I'm in flux and it stopped the flux and stopped my depressions for a few years. It held me together really well. Not just re moods but re something I can't put my finger on, which is to do with having a view of myself and it all being complete when it's not complete. On gear that became a non-issue, as I couldn't even recall the problem for years later. There is some research about heroin's antipsychotic properties. It doesn't surprise me that heroin works stronger than any psychiatric meds. I've read throuth the post dn the CUCKOO clock cluck=cuckoo! Cuckoote]<br /><br />I got told I was self-medicating at the clinic, but no advice at all was given on how to stop. No antidepressants offered. Nothing. So now I'm stuck, self-medicating. Was stuck like that for months. Whenever I tried to go on methadone without using on top I felt so flat it was unreal. On a bad day I went from flat to downright suicidal. My experience of methadone is nothing that needs doing ever getting done. This bullshit about people somehow holding down jobs on methadone ~ do they come from mars or something? Because it ain't the methadone I'm on. I'm never, ever going to be OK on this methadone, and I seriously doubt I will ever be OK on nothing.<br /><br />OK I'll give these figures just for the record. They aren't my "opinion" but they are what I think when I'm despairing: 1. Assuming this is the road to Clean, I give the chances of a severe mental breakdown within 3 years of now at 80%. I give the lifetime chance of me surviving off gear without committing suicide at 50%. So those are my feelings on being clean.<br /><br />Not very inspiring are they. But they are the cynnical me, just one aspect of me. Without heroin holding me together now, all these bits that used to feel in sync are out of sync. I cannot explain how or why. i can feel it, But I cannot explain it.<br /><br />Even though they sound negative, I'd still rather be off heroin.<br /><br />And nobody take those 80% and 50% figures to heart PLEASE. They're just ONE PART of me that WAS held together that's now NOT held together prattling away.<br /><br />Knowing me I will live till 90 writing hamster books and children around the world will adore me and happily ever after XxXxXxXXX etc etc!<br /><br />Now I have to post this it's really really late and I've barely slept properly! 8:30am!!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-66677813162567685152010-12-23T04:51:20.091+00:002010-12-23T04:51:20.091+00:00Gled, I went back on my blog, to look for more pos...Gled, I went back on my blog, to look for more posts about Katrina...in a sense, they are all about katrina, because she is inherently in everything I do now, in some way, shape or form. There is a post from March, called "Katrina In Breif", and there is a post from August about katrina as well. Some of the best writing samples from my blog are in May, and also March...also June has a lot of great pieces. I am not sure how to link any of it, really...BMelonsLemonadehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06746882165582323180noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-61369615799868364832010-12-23T04:34:46.621+00:002010-12-23T04:34:46.621+00:00Thanks for the links to my blog! One thing I want...Thanks for the links to my blog! One thing I wanted to mention...I think that mental illness and heroin can often go hand in hand. I heard an overwhelming amount of testimony at the methadone clinic about this. It is not my personal situation, so I was, at first, surprised at the number of people who claimed that heroin kept their demons most at bay. Many feel like they are comfortable in their own skin with heroin, and otherwise...they are not quite right, in one way or another. Many of the patients I knew had been in and out of mental institutions, and no medicine worked quite as well as heroin. One of my closest friends is among these. She was insane with heroin, and it helped her a lot to be normal. I must say, she also experienced the hurricane...and she is clean today. She struggles with mental illness, and that was exasperated by the storm. She also struggles with her addiction, partly due to the mental and emotional unrest. I think heroin is a common solution for various mental conditions, whether they realize it or not...they are self medicating. I am going to agree with the other sentiments, her, too...you are doing well, and I am also proud of you. It is not an easy road to walk, and it will not get better in a few months...it could even take years. It is a path of ups and downs and ins and outs, just keep pacing along, and one day you will look up, and realize you really are looking at a very different world than the one you know right now.BMelonsLemonadehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06746882165582323180noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-86172679303810680872010-12-23T02:10:57.333+00:002010-12-23T02:10:57.333+00:00P.S.
In regards to cleaning, I get no fulfillment ...P.S.<br />In regards to cleaning, I get no fulfillment out of that.<br />If only I could afford a cleaning lady.I can't so that's the end of that.<br />I do a little at a time, but with so many pets even that is difficult.<br />Anyway, take good caree.<br />All the best,<br />j.the guy in the silk taffeta dresshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16393888432347341365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-50221998795916224092010-12-23T02:03:55.837+00:002010-12-23T02:03:55.837+00:00Gleds,
I think you're doing great and have com...Gleds,<br />I think you're doing great and have come a long, long way.<br />I haven't been around awhile because just last week,my friend had an aneurysm, was brain dead,suffered a stroke on top of it all and then disconnected from life support and it was too much for me to take.<br />I WILL answer your question, but at this time kinda in still in shock over the loss.<br />All the best to you,<br />j.the guy in the silk taffeta dresshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16393888432347341365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-83808352307137156812010-12-22T22:42:51.872+00:002010-12-22T22:42:51.872+00:00I'll go for Ganesha then, he's always joll...I'll go for Ganesha then, he's always jolly.<br /><br />Yes, a photo of me up now. A particularly flattering one, admittedly, and a couple of years old.Zhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00822383355869390919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-48485382312913937772010-12-22T22:34:46.070+00:002010-12-22T22:34:46.070+00:00Is there one of you on your blog? I don't real...Is there one of you on your blog? I don't really want you to change your "avatar". Did you know an avatar means an incarnation of an Indian god? Krishna is said to be an avatar of Vishnu, for example (the only example I know, but there we go..!!)Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-20447771420176242782010-12-22T21:42:57.536+00:002010-12-22T21:42:57.536+00:00That's my granddaughter! I'd better put u...That's my granddaughter! I'd better put up a photo of me so you know what you'd be in for...Zhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00822383355869390919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-5619564272510233482010-12-22T21:38:56.406+00:002010-12-22T21:38:56.406+00:00Z: you aren't really a 7 year old girl are you...<strong>Z</strong>: you aren't really a 7 year old girl are you? People might think that <em>slightly</em> odd...(!)Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-56873653228589313152010-12-22T21:37:32.515+00:002010-12-22T21:37:32.515+00:00Z: I did once dream of doing a worldwide bloghop w...<strong>Z:</strong> I did once dream of doing a worldwide bloghop where I actually MEET the bloggers. Wouldn't that be great. One day....<br /><br /><strong>Bimbimbie:</strong> hammy steps, that's it. And no <em>ping</em>ing!!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-39464168031112005722010-12-22T20:38:56.513+00:002010-12-22T20:38:56.513+00:00That's a big positive statement Gleds
hold you...That's a big positive statement Gleds<br />hold your head high - I'm with Baino, well done you... keep moving forward each little hammy step counts*!*Bimbimbiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12427788003822538655noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-67669119476248078112010-12-22T20:34:28.807+00:002010-12-22T20:34:28.807+00:00I'm so rooting for you, Gledwood. Hope that w...I'm so rooting for you, Gledwood. Hope that we'll be able to meet one day.Zhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00822383355869390919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-48186554379412506922010-12-22T19:41:13.130+00:002010-12-22T19:41:13.130+00:00I'm not taking those pills unless I really nee...I'm not taking those pills unless I really need them.<br /><br />Somehow I don't want heroin today. Wow!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-36062476866025052542010-12-22T19:23:23.562+00:002010-12-22T19:23:23.562+00:00I'm very proud of you nonetheless. Stick with ...I'm very proud of you nonetheless. Stick with it.Bainohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14156193098088048637noreply@blogger.com