tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post5462978092957360444..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): AntidepressantsGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-51938611667052198292011-03-02T18:29:36.668+00:002011-03-02T18:29:36.668+00:00BAINO: i talk what i am; it's not like a panic...BAINO: i talk what i am; it's not like a panic attack where you wouldn't blog it while you had it this goes just as strong but it's fast so i'm blogging what happens if i didn't there would be no record of where i came from. now i'm here; then i'll be somewhere else so i need to remember now<br /><br />my memory is shot to pieces<br /><br />i get all the help i can. if it wasn't free i dont think id pay for meds i'd just use heroin instead so perhaps it's good i'm here. i mean in america you have to pay $15 a day to use a methadone clinic when you could do a $15 heroin bag in 2 goes!<br /><br />sorry i can't think any further than this this is why i post where i am because i'm stuck in it i can't remember what i said that was so psycho? you mean the other day? i was spinning around man spinning! it feels really exhilarating i don't care whether it is called madness it feels fucking great far better than normality. problem is (other people say) you can spend literally millions in that state if you have it and it all turns to dust like an illusion and you wouldn't know what you've done. not good, is it!<br /><br />ok I just looked. you mean the nutter talk here. that's just me googling shit i'm supposed to find out what i can. can't do self help otherwise. it's not negative even death is positive i posted that one up today. i think people get too hung up on the downside of stuff when everything's good<br /><br />BUGGERLUGZ: hammy lovenest, i like that<br /><br />"in the mood" you sound like you bipolar you know that. or cyclothymic which is bipolar lite as they like to say. but if you're depressed enough to be really down you're automatically bipolar ii which i realized 10 years ago about me and just HID IT from everyone, then i detoxed cold turkey and found out completely by accident i had met the criteria for "mixed bipolar episode" by being manic/depressed at the same time<br /><br />if you're on antidepressants that are making your mood cycle you need to talk to a shrink about them. the shrink will want to know whether you cycle OFF the of just go down. if you just go down he/she would probably keep you don the antiDs and just give a mood stabilizer in addition. if you're ok off them they'd probably change it to a mood stabilizer<br /><br />i wouldn't advise you mess around with meds on your own. seriously unadvisable i mean i went really up then badly badly down, i mean really bad, on mirtazapine and that's a licensed antidepressant so be CAREFUL PLEASE.<br /><br />yeah if i can i will put the art up. it might give my paintings more value, y'never know!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-8432206227013235572011-03-02T11:20:11.771+00:002011-03-02T11:20:11.771+00:00hi
maybe u felt a bit sad etc yesterday from using...hi<br />maybe u felt a bit sad etc yesterday from using on monday. <br />I know u think the H doesn't affect u but it will be doing something in your head. I do understand what it is to have good intentions one day (painting etc) then it feel like the last thing u wanna do the next day.<br />I did 9 hrs preparing walls for papering on saturday.<br />rested sunday cus ached like a bastard then planned to sand all wood work on monday. <br />had i remained in that "mood" i would have done it. but I felt yuk monday morning and cud not motivate myself to do anything other than day to day shit that has to be done. It pisses me off and i wonder y it is? and why i can't be consistent, but i can't and thats that. End of.(my mum and bro r so used to this, he will say i can help u do ceiling on fri pm, if u in the "mood". or mum will offer to drive me to asda when i in "mood" they just know its no use naming a day.Also when im like that i kid myself that a bag wud motivate me (O yeah, to what? sleep?)<br />Then i think well I not doing ote anyway so note to lose! yes mad i know. sorryas usual , to go on.<br />Also my kids know not to call me if i running a bath, cleaning my teeth or in kitchen (washing machine usually on)cus I got so fed up of hearing them<br />either asking me something, arguing, calling me, etc and i kept shouting WHAT? or SHUT UP! and they got pissed off shouting back" WE aint saying ote!" (voices in water) Not sure where any of this is going. I think it would help if u could accept thats who u r and have good days & bad days (i know thats easy said) not so easy done with your intellect and persistent searching for names, causes, "cures" etc.<br />I don't know, anyway you probably fine today and off to get paints.<br />(when i said will you put some (painting) on your blog)<br /><br />I meant would u take a photo of your painting and donwnload/upload (whichever it is) it onto your blog?<br />Right, having said all that, what i actually came here to say is, I so excited I've found 2 people who want a couple of robos (each) so YEAY yippee!!Ican put Reginald and Anchovy back together and wait for some yummy furry babies.<br />And if there r five then i can keep one.<br />So I've made a "romantic" cage for them, yes i know the red lights r lost on them but the new "love nest" and pumpkin seeds had them cuddling up all yesterday afternoon! will keep you up dated.<br />Sure I had somut else to say but i will shut up for now. dreading copying this and seeing how long it is. (Shut it then!)<br />word verify is immill (me or you?)<br />take care, really hope u r good today<br />love<br />xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-3946001943423985872011-03-02T07:50:36.978+00:002011-03-02T07:50:36.978+00:00Ok so you've fallen off the wagon. That's ...Ok so you've fallen off the wagon. That's what users do but I'm getting a bit cross about all this psycho talk. You live in a country where health care is free for Christ's sake. Take a look at this and see if there's someone near you who can help but don't be surprised if they think a Junkie is too hard to deal with, never mind the psychosis. It's good that you're talking at NA, probably not so good that you're turning up smacked up. I think you need to treat each condition separately. Herion addiction via NA and clinical support. Psychological disorders via another avenue. Anyway, have a click: http://www.cnwl.nhs.uk/nationalsupportgroups.htmlBainohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14156193098088048637noreply@blogger.com