tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post5807395534560843590..comments2023-11-05T12:22:53.660+00:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 2 (Main blog): Back to BrushwoodGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-49004679485657426832011-06-14T22:27:17.933+01:002011-06-14T22:27:17.933+01:00Spindrift: have you tried giving up caffeine? I sw...Spindrift: have you tried giving up caffeine? I switched to decaffeinated tea completely for several years and my anxiety completely went away. <br /><br />I now drink caffeinated but only very occasionally. I think it was making me more manic when I was "overexcited" hmmmmmmm.<br /><br />I used to get a strong feeling of unreality. I remember my useless counsellor saying "it feels like this white mist is swallowing you up"... one of the most unhelpful things anyone's ever said to me.<br /><br />One night nearly 20 years ago I had this hallucination where I shrank down into a microscopic dot. I ended up in the shower, trying touse hot water to make me feel real again. Not good.<br /><br />I don't think my depersonalization (it wasn't really derealization, it was the opposite) was anxiety related as such. It didn't really bother me in an anxious type way. It just made me feel really unreal and peculiar, know what I mean.....<br /><br />.... most of the socalled psychiatric symptoms I get aren't inherently unpleasant. More disabling than bad feeling. Anxiety is the one I hate most by a long way, followed by depression and paranoia. The other ones don't really bother me and I tend to miss them when they go. It annoys me slightly when people assume the symptoms must be horrible just because they're "illness" but they're not horrible eg hallucinations are like free entertainment. People spend money on drugs in order to hallucinate so I'm not going to complain for getting them free.<br /><br />Irony is: there's not one drug I actually like any more, except heroin. If I can kick that one to touch I'll be genuinely drugfree. Sleeping pills I don't count as drugs as I don't consider sleeping to be drug abuse.<br /><br />Gattina: I would love to learn web design. If I could find out where to study I'd go for it!<br /><br />Merle: you're Australian and you've never seen a funnel web! I remember when you said you'd never seen a mouse spider either. The real nasties seem to live up the East Coast from Sydney to Cairns. Exactly the stretch of Australia I'd choose if I lived there. I'd love to live in Cairns.<br /><br />I find Japanese writing a source of endless fascination. Especially as it's Chinese in origin and fits the Japanese language in an unweildy way, the same way it would fit English....<br /><br />It's ONE degree out there?! No wonder you're cold!!<br /><br />John: I've seen that site. Something to do with bubblegum isn't it?.... Thanks :-)Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-75087435669196391242011-06-14T15:02:49.996+01:002011-06-14T15:02:49.996+01:00Hey up Gleds, how do,
Hope you're well and al...Hey up Gleds, how do,<br /><br />Hope you're well and all that - have you seen Shane's new site?<br /><br />shortshortsandminiskirts.blogspot.com<br /><br />fiction/short stories - really pretty good.<br /><br />JohnJohnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17928403879981792388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-20669810296360599152011-06-14T12:35:21.230+01:002011-06-14T12:35:21.230+01:00Hi Gleds ~~ I see you are still keen on the Japane...Hi Gleds ~~ I see you are still keen on the Japanese language - it looks<br />a very difficult one to learn, although they say English is the hardest. I am sorry you are not sleeping well again.<br />Thanks for your comments and good wishes for my recovery which is going<br />quite well. The rain over there sounds depressing, but if it is needed, I guess it is OK. That book about Melbourne had the January temps wrong. They are usually in 60s and 70s F overnight<br />That is our Summer. Now June overnight is about 1 C about 33 F<br />As for the spiders and snakes, I<br />guess they hide away. I am 77 years old and have never seen a<br />funnel-web, have seen a few redbacks. It would be 20 years since I saw a snake and in my whole life would only have seen<br />5 or 6. So there is not as many as Poms believe.. Take care my friend<br />and keep up with the Japanese if it<br />makes you feel good. Love, Merle.Merlehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05763778255535640633noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-56573156004152390662011-06-14T07:26:43.068+01:002011-06-14T07:26:43.068+01:00I see you are still into japonese. My friend's...I see you are still into japonese. My friend's son also switched from chinese to japonese, must be in fashion, lol !<br />It's never too late to learn something else, why don't you put your energy of Japanese learning into wegdesign or something creative, bi polar people are often very good artists and very creative too !Gattinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06636525277807715146noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-73434821815804139622011-06-14T02:30:36.055+01:002011-06-14T02:30:36.055+01:00'energy misplaced', anxiety, yes very much...'energy misplaced', anxiety, yes very much, it has crippled my life, in many ways. When I was young I suffered from derealisation that had me climbing the walls. I still can feel it lurking in my backgroud. <br /><br />I think you are very insightful, sounds like you have much to learn also, and much to teach.<br /><br />I watched the Stephen Fry clips you posted, he's great, I saw his 2 part show he did on bi-polar a while ago. <br /><br />The Australian interviewer is Jennifer Byrne, she narrated 'we can be heroes', which was popular in Australia.<br /><br />All the best<br /><br />PaulSpindrifthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13052520038521108511noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-24286378819576684122011-06-14T02:11:02.118+01:002011-06-14T02:11:02.118+01:00I had anxiety every day for 2 or 3 years and it wa...I had anxiety every day for 2 or 3 years and it was awful. I always think of depression as a lack of energy, anxiety as energy misplaced (going inwards, clenching round the heart) and mania a huge excess, shining outwards.<br /><br />I didn't realize misplaced energy is the foundation philosophy of Chinese medicine. Maybe I should try that. I certainly agree with the "energy" philosphy. I used to have chronic fatigue syndrome (I still have symptoms, just not as bad) and that's energy badly misplaced. It felt much worse than depression.<br /><br />What he means in that mania quote is that mania addles the brain in a way nobody can really explain.<br /><br />I looked up "delirious mania" and found out it still happens today and people still die directly of the illness. Which intrigues me as I went manic enough to feel literally that my brain was somehow massively overheated to the point where it could no longer produce thoughts and just produced random nonsense. I think what happened to me was called "catatonia" which means crazed excitement as much as it means stupor. Repeating the same syllables over and over is considered a catatonic symptom and that's what I did. I only wanted to know what it was so bad because I felt I'd gone behind my brain's welcome screen and seen error messages most people don't get to read. That's the explanation I would give. What annoys me is that something that must happen quite a lot is NOWHERE described firsthand online, as if people who go over the edge cannot remember it. Well I remember and I want to make sense of it.<br /><br />If you look at that Stephen Fry video posted yesterday where he's talking to an Aussie woman he says of all the people he interviewed with bipolar, if they were offered the opportunity to press a button not to have it, only two of his interviewees would press it. The rest preferred being bipolar (but on meds), in most cases....Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-9235798853179816612011-06-14T00:56:27.765+01:002011-06-14T00:56:27.765+01:00Dear Gledwood, I re-read over what I posted and wh...Dear Gledwood, I re-read over what I posted and while I'm not going to delete it, I wanted to apologise. I didn't realise when I first wrote it that I had written the word 'rid', it just sounds all wrong. I think that someone with mania in their lives might find that the desirable and a life without it not desirable. I think I was more curious to know if people live well without it once they have it. I know with my anxiety I want to 'rid' myself of that. It has ruled me and my life for too long and because of its affects I want it banished. Anyway, I hope you are well. PaulSpindrifthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13052520038521108511noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8092261346236962635.post-23217686511429989552011-06-14T00:24:17.195+01:002011-06-14T00:24:17.195+01:00You are a sensitive and gentle soul Gledwood.
...You are a sensitive and gentle soul Gledwood.<br /><br />'It is doubtful whether the brain ever truly recovers from an episode of mania; the world never looks the same again.'<br /><br />I guess there are medications to rid oneself of mania. <br /><br />Are there any instances of people who take medications and don't have mania, being happier with their lives, I wonder, than they were before when they didn't take medications and had the mania.<br /><br />Nice fluffy Japanese dogs, they are very popular in Japan, I've seen a lot of them on TV recently.<br /><br />I think when I learn Japanese I might be coming to you for lessons.<br /><br />I hope you are well,<br /><br />Safe Journey<br /><br />PaulSpindrifthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13052520038521108511noreply@blogger.com