YES: REDUCED TO MY FOOT. I’M NOT PROUD to be saying this, but my veins have all gone into hiding so badly I’m reduced to stabbing — ever so gently — in my foot.
This does not make me happy. My crazed ex, MadBirdNutNut who was as totally straight as you can get, even she was perceptive enough to tell me I’d only stop when the veins were all gone. Which has hardly happened yet because I have my untouched femoral “groin” on both sides … which I’m not sure I want to tamper with. Many people who do end up with deep vein thrombosis. Plus I have my neck — which is never getting touched. I know myself with enough confidence to say that is one bridge that is never getting crossed, and I mean that. The neck is a prime site for drips and anaesthetics. It is medically very useful and drugs-wise unwise to tamper with.
Medical concerns aside, I would like to keep some semblance of nonjunkiedom about my person. And a nicely-veined neck would make a lovely start.
Gabbly??....think I'm too late...what is it? Going to bed now so will maybe find out tomorrow
ReplyDeleteNight night flower.....x
Oh. It's a thing I managed to get up. I'm assuming you'd have seen it too if it was still there on my screen. It puts a little box in the corner for as long as I'm logged into my own site. And supposedly other people can see it and write in it. It's like one of those chat rooms. (I've tried them but they were nonsensical.) But if we KNOW each other then its different.
ReplyDeleteNeoworx do something like it and that's what originally I wanted.
But I've seen this Gabbly thing working on Raymi's Mom's site. You really can type in real time. But I don't expect really anyone would want to go on for more than 4,5 mins it would get exhausting!
4got 2say: Night-Night 2u2!
ReplyDeletethanks for the blog comment i have a feeling i'll be stopping in here again..
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i hate the chat stuff, although this is similar. but with this method we pick and choose when we answer/have time. I was never big on the chat thing.
ReplyDeleteOh please dont hit the neck.. Im glad you havent. But I watched a girl do it.. and a friend of hers had died doing it.. And she had these grotesque yellow bruises all over her neck she wore scarves for months.. In the disgusting underrealm there was a junky pride to who could look the most disgusting i suppose
ReplyDeleteIvy no I wont do the neck I promised my self. I would as soon kill myself properly than do it slowly like that.
ReplyDeleteDeb yeah I know what you mean I got on to Raymis Mom last night said Hi but I found it v difficult to talk like that. Not being used to it at all.
Interesting. I am familiar with this. I did meet one person who used the neck. Very startling appearance.
ReplyDeleteDebbie is close to moving to the foot too. She keeps missing in her arm, she says. Her arms are deeply scarred now. When I met her I noticed nothing. It can happen fast, I guess.
I suffered from DVT. Almost killed me. It did kill my sister-in-law and the 16-year-old daughter of a friend. Not worth the risk.
You're right Chip. Does Debbie not go in the surface veins in her legs?
ReplyDeleteOnly prob with that is that on a woman it ruins the appearance, more than a man. Also men's legs are hairier so I spose it hides it more.
Y'all are right. Going in the neck is a horrible thing to do. And as I say, I want at least that left over. (If & when I do ever come out of this morass.( 4 medical purposes.
How typical of me. I can't even close off brackets properly. ))
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gled, i can't believe i just skirt around this though, like it's not happening...just don't want to come off as "preachy". i sincerely hope that this doesn't get the better of you....you seem like such a wonderful person. i already feel like you're a friend and i want to say i hope somehow you come out of all this alright - that's all. i've known too many who didn't. and you're too good to waste. that's all i'm going to say on the subject...i hate people who nag and refuse to be one of them. ;) but, in the theme of not censoring thoughts, that's what was on my mind.
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ReplyDeleteHi Gleds
ReplyDeleteI want to say so many things to you, but do not know how and what, I think you understand though....
2 years ago when my son nearly died from drugs (he was in hospital for 3 months) he actually injected the stuff into his IV while in hospital- so they had to put it into his neck veins and he still found a way to inject.
I do not know if he injects into his groin veins in this time- there are just some things you do not ask your child and also maybe do not want to know......
please, please take care, I have the feeling you are really losing it in a big way at the moment, what triggered it?
I and so many others do enjoy your blog(s) so much and also learn so much, and like DEB says, you are too good to waste!!!
Won't you try, please???????
try to get better, gleds, not try to inject in "unnormal" (if there is such a word) places.
ReplyDeleteEnglish is not my mother tongue/home language, so sometimes I really have difficulty expressing myself, especially when I feel passionate about something....
I really worry about you!!!
Debs:
ReplyDeleteProbably the best thing about blogging is I've made friendships with some of the best people, people I'd definitely not come across by any other means. For that I thank you.
Elsie thank you too.
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel not wanting to preach. There are some people who have me in that quandry too.
Elsie, what your son did with the IV line is a very common thing. I've heard a few stories of people being chucked out of hospital for doing that.
By "groin" I mean ... if you look at a picture of a woman in a bikini straight on, where she would shave the bikini-line, the femoral veins are closer to there than anywhere else. It doesn't mean going in genitalia (that really is a truly desperate thing to do).
The friend of mine I wrote about today, I forgot to put in the post he has an abscess on one side of the "bikini-line" ie the crook of his upper leg, his "groin". He is in agony. He says the other side doesn't work. I told him to just inject in his backside intra-muscularly but men seem to hate doing this because it comes on slowly, you don't get a "rush" - they associate needles with that. Also women are better padded for that sort of thing around the upper thighs...
Am I wandering? I just wanted to share some facts Elsie partly to put you in the picture. I know you would probably rather be in the picture than out of it. But I understand they're not really nice things to know.
Didn't know where to say this I have to go now it's coming up to 11pm I've got to go I'll try and log on again later but if I don't manage to - night-night everyone ...
ReplyDeleteI really do not want to preach, I am sorry if sometimes it seems that way.
ReplyDeleteAnd for not wanting to know- not because it is not nice, (and you are right that I do want to know)but you advised me on one of my earliest comments to try not to be so emotionally involved - think it is one way of keeping my sanity, and also maybe in a way hoping that this problem will go away if I do not think about it so often, although I am realistic enough to know that it will not go all by itself.
Stay well
No no no don't worry about it honestly Elsie..!
ReplyDeleteNo no no don't worry about it honestly Elsie..!
ReplyDeleteWhy did my own comment just appear twice? Hmm... I got the feeling you were emotionally exhausted Elsie. You know how situations can get just over-intense...
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