YES I SPENT ALL WEEKEND SULKING and in bed and not seeing the internet and not feeling well and sleeping the minute my back was turned to any activity. I did have ritual Sunday Lunch at Mother Hubbard's, but fell asleep on the corner of her bed after that ... then I fell awake for a great deal of Sunday night going into Monday morning ...
... why am I posting this boredom in such details? ...
Ah yes! I just saw my ten messages from wellwishing friends. I thank you all! Seriously. That was so nice of people troubling to get in touch ...
Now I'm here, hot alone. It's not a fever, but I wasn't well. This morning, felt like I had a stomach full of metal staples scrunching in on me around all that yellow bile. Aaaarrrrgggghkk!! I hate bodies. Hate bodily functions. Hate nonfuctional bodies. Hate functions full-stop. Just ... functioning ... is pain. Nicer to 4get about it. Do angels sit on the toilet? Serious question. How superior not to have the burden of a body ... a ray of sunlight ... a drop of golden sun ... a golden dream ... a dream forever onwards. "Thou shalt not surely die," said the Serpent to Eve I once read (reasonably) is the ultimate lie. That humankind has no immortal soul. That the divine in human is the image of God, in whose image we're all created. That no-one need worry about eternity, unless we qualify.
This is the Christian theory that I have heard: that goes against every other "inner divine" - religions are paths that converge at the mountaintop - we've all lived before and shall live again ... most typical theory. Speaking as one who's dabbled in Hinduism, Buddhism and Techno-Shamanic Paganism or "the New Age" as well as Christianity, have quite a variety of religious experiences under my belt ...
I don't know that I could otherwise deal with eternity. Let alone fully comprehend it ... I would have to qualify ...
Eternity. We all know it. It's all that infinity before we were born. Do you know such infinity very well? Because I don't ...
On that note I leave you ...
PS Anna Nicole Smith: polydrug addict not heroin addict. Ie she was an addict who took a little of everything and a lot of somethings. But essentially a mixture ... My apologies. Correction.
Unlike most of the addicts I work with, and by work with I mean cook for and mother at the rehab, you seam straight forward and honest. I'll be back.
ReplyDeleteYou never told us what Sandy won.
ReplyDeleteHey - thanks for stopping by my blog. Come again, anytime.
ReplyDelete(I'll visit again soon, too.)
Was going to say glad to see you're out of bed but a heavy load here...maybe you should get back out of bed the other side.......come on...coochie cooochie coo...give us a smile;->
ReplyDeleteLittle Lamb: in response:--
ReplyDeleteRight, the prize was originally just a joke: used staples, pingpong ball/something. Then I gave out 2 entertaining urls (bc of course how do I GET the prize to her??) But upon quiet reflection I thought to myself well I will make a beautiful home-made card especially for her and that will be the prize. I just have to arrange an address I can send it to. I haven't told her yet though as I'm still wondering if you don't want to give your address over the internet to a stranger should I ask for the name of a school/business/library/something? That's what I was going to do ...
& hi to everyone else ...
ReplyDeleteGledwood-
ReplyDeleteYou must have been doing a lot of pondering while you were lollygagging about in bed these past few days... wow! Did you see the quote I placed on the blog about the difference between those who are ardently religious and those who are spiritual? I've dabbled in quite a bit myself and am now a bizarre amalgamation of eastern and western beliefs. Have you ever read anything having to do with Sikh beliefs?
Ruth-
You never fail to make me smile :-)
Thanks.
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I also hate going to the toilet! I wish that bodies had been designed without having to dump waste products. It would have been so much more pleasant!
ReplyDeleteI'm now looking for that quote on the difference between religious zealots and spiritualizers ...
ReplyDeleteI heard a BBC World Service documentary on Hinduism among Tamils in Malaysia. Among them was a Australian convert.
I have heard that (some) Hindus would perhaps counsel a Westerner not to convert to Hinduism, rather to follow their own Western traditions (eg Roman Catholicism has incorporated polytheistic aspects in all these myriad saints some Catholics pray to ...) This Hindu advice is on the premise that all religions end in a self-same goal of spiritual realization ... (Of course not all Christians or Muslims would agree with that, but hey. Five religions=six opinions. Sometimes.)
So I was most fascinated in what this Australian got out of his Hindu beliefs. He wwas dragging a chariot behind himself with hooks in his back. People were impaling their cheeks and tongue with knifelike implements. This particular manner of festival which seems to be most at home in Southern India, intrigue me bigtime ...
Well have I made a point there? Or am I being pointless as always ..?..
Hey Gledwood, days in bed, my specialty for the last two days running. Just stopping by to say hello before I head back to bed. xox
ReplyDeletenope, not wandering... I agree. Under all the bright, shiny trappings you're looking at the same basic beliefs and "goals"... just named differently...
ReplyDeleteI was raised Catholic and was always amazed by the Mary worshippers... and lets not get into the partaking of the "body and blood"...
Did you find the quote?? It was from Friday I believe.
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Okay I'm looking again 4 it ...
ReplyDeleteFOUND IT:...
ReplyDeleteThe Verge Quote of the Week
“Religion is for people who are
afraid of hell, and spirituality
is for people who have been in hell.”
Liza Minnelli , as quoted by Liz Smith
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Posted by Women on the Verge at 10:08 PM 5 comments
Labels: religion, spirituality
Yes that's TOO TRUE, as they say. TOO TRUE...
I like the quote. Religion scares me. This is my religion...live your life as a kind person and believe there's something more than this hell on earth. Works for me.
ReplyDeletehi gledwood, hope u r coping well in bed. spirituality can also flourish from love. not just from hell.
ReplyDeletehugs.
What an intriguing blog! Although I am sad to hear you are ill, I'm glad you made it up enough to write.
ReplyDeleteMay God heal you soon!
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ReplyDeleteNicole said...
ReplyDelete"I also hate going to the toilet! I wish that bodies had been designed without having to dump waste products. It would have been so much more pleasant!"
My beautiful darlin', if you didn't produce waste, you would not be classed as a living physical entity! Enjoy your life with all its dumping activities!
PUT some reading material in your karzy and enjoy your daily dump!
(I deleted the original post above because I mis-spelt some of the text)