WOW I WAS self-pitying earlier on, wasn't I? Well I had my "gear" and slept all afternoon and watched some rubbish on television and now I feel a lot better. Many thanks to everyone who got in touch. I'm not trying to scare people or shock people or be childish. Whenever I feel like that I am always put in the same quandry: to be careful what I say, for so many reasons. A trivial one being that I risk sounding like I'm just speaking for effect. Another one being that I don't want to cause people genuine hurt. The reasons go on ... On the other hand I did always call my blog "candid confessions". So if I'm not being "candid" and am holding off on the "confessions" I'm hardly being true to myself (or my blog) am I? Well I'm going to continue with my "theory of addiction" tomorrow ... Till then rest easy, y'all ...
PS Isn't it a pity we don't all speak the same language. Look what I found in Portuguese. It's intriguing. But I don't know that I'd have the patience to go through translating every paragraph ...
More I do not believe in the power of the sin, neither I import with that believe it, I only opt to living in a world where the truth is more proxima of that I feel. The people have of form so impregnated these ideias of that it is certain e is made a mistake that they finish living as marionettes in accordance with the values that it are impostas.E this make with that they leave to act, of living, not simplismente they dare to risk because such thing "is missed" and thus they finish seeing the life to pass without leaving the lugar.Por much time I was thus and today I see the quão donkey I was, in such a way of suffering that could have to evitado.Mudar everything this tambem is complicado..é very facil to be rock, dificil is to be glassware.
(From Psicotidiana)
Kaixo. Estoy tan cansado ke ahora mismo me da pereza leer en inglés, pero quería agradecerte una vez más tu elogio.
ReplyDelete= Kaixo. So I am tired ke right now gives laziness me to read in English, but your praise wanted agradecerte once again.
ReplyDeleteHi Subverso y muchas gracias por su comentario. Fijé la traducción inglesa para arriba también. ¿Usted vio ese párrafo del individuo de Brazilian/Portuguese que puse para arriba también? Es una vergüenza que no puedo hablar esa lengua. Él se parece tener un blog fascinador. Recuerdos de Gledwood
ReplyDeleteHola gledwood. Nice blog. Thanks for the link. I put your link as well.
ReplyDeleteI like your blog. Keep up.
gledwood,
ReplyDeleteGreetings from The States, and more specifically New York City. Thank you for the kind words in regards to our blog (theweightonline.com). My brother, a good friend, and I began posting about three weeks ago about whatever comes to mind (as I'm sure you noticed is mainly about music and how it helps to get through the day). Please comment as the mood strikes you on our page and I will check in to see how you are doing based on your postings.
All the best,
Ryan
theweightonline.com
Look at the dialog you attract from all over the world! It blows me away.
ReplyDeletePerhaps to the detriment of your physical health you still have so much to offer and still manage to know joy and passion in between the lows. There is a point of difference between us (besides the huge schism between the physical effects of withdrawal from each of our poisons) and that is when I chose to quit I had no passion, no joy, no interests and no expectations from anyone or anything. Yeah, I had a few veins left where perhaps you do not. But man you sure have retained a passion for the world and the world for you. My complete isolation made my choice easy and shores up my determination each day. Knowing there's a bit of happiness out there when there didn't used to be is a strong motivator. If you quit this very minute things will seemingly get worse before they get better. For me they just got better and continue to do so. But can you just imagine how even more rich your life would be if you were not tethered to something you no longer want but that is difficult in the extreme to shake. It would be so worth it for the world if you could be even more of the great person you are. Consider that because, man, the world's in trouble and we need you to help make it better just like you do. This overly laudatory but I am dead serious. It's a fucked up world you have to save it.
Google these things on line. Rational Recovery and Emotional Freedom Techniques. They are so non NA and just one of many options out there. Just check em out and let me know what you think.
Okay, I'm gonna let it rest for a bit. I am preaching to the choir, I know. Doesn't make it not true.
Ms. Steel has extreme wealth yet she also has had her share of tragedy. Her son suffered from severe depression and took his own life. All her wealth could not protect him nor save him from himself. I read a quote recently that the truly wealthy are not those have much but those who need nothing. I can assure you she is poor in many respects.
There is a saying here that no one ever went broke underestimating the taste of the American public. Certainly Danielle Steel has banked on that aspect of human nature and on an international scale. To me her writing is superfluous and formulaic. All her books that I have read have a heroine who is is hard working and never falters. She is ultimately betrayed by people to whom she has been nothing but kind and generous to. Sounds a bit like a deluded self perception to me. I'm am no one to judge—not that that ever stops me.
The word your looking for is ... who do you think I am? Your the Brit here. If you don't know it it's highly unlikely some tremulous Yank will. (LOL) I am at a loss my friend but I'll keep on thinking about it and probably be like you and spend the whole night looking up every word that comes to mind. It's a good way for us to increase our vocabulary.
Just like they say it's the journey and not the destination! I've been killing everyone with platitudes today just to piss off Ann Coulter. You should read her shit—it is the vilest thought one can imagine.
Best, WS
Hi I stumbled across your blog and I can't help but notice the way your write.
ReplyDeleteYes it is true that we're all allowed a little bit of self-pity to aid us along the way, but indulgence can encourage chaos. I've never personally been addicted to anything, unless you count music and acting, but transfer your addiction elsewhere, find something to grasp your focus and energy! I think you have a beautiful mind and a lot of what you write stimulates thought. Don't lose that gift, and don't let it be taken away from you because of an addiction you know isn't right in the first place.
Please don't think me presumptuous, I'm merely giving my humble two cents worth.
All the Best!
I'm not really sure what I want to say yet feel like I should say something. Life is cruel and the pain some of us feel others will never understand.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on sharing your inner-most self; I hope you find peace, or at least a piece of the worldly pie we all deserve.
Yes, you should be free to post anything you'd like, and have the chips fall where they may. This is your blog and no one else's; you should feel free to be yourself here, warts and all. Writing is therapeutic, and honesty even more so. You are at your best, Gledwood, when you are being open and honest, with us and with yourself. Just my two cents' worth.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, where is London City Airport? When coming to London before I've flown into Heathrow, Gatwick, Stansted ... never heard of City Airport before. I'm flying in from Frankfurt on Tuesday ...
Danielle Steel - what a character!!
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