OR... I COULD HAVE PHRASED THAT: my methadone is going up and I'm giving up gear but things with Maple Syrup, my drugs worker, tend to be confrontational so I'll keep them as they are.I even have to have an ECG because my daily dose will be so high. Now I've gone over 100mg, so theoretically I have no excuse not to "use on top".
As we all know by now, theoretics mean very little to the incorrigible junkie... so let's see what happens ...
I have to come off gear to get to beloved Berlin. Bear this in mind.
Apart from that, I'm saying nothing ...
Dear Gleds ~~ Just catching up on your posts and things are really
ReplyDeletehappening. First Happy 38th Birthday
and I am so glad your Mum bought you a present. I will be 75 on Sunday
so my sons are taking me out for lunch with some of their families.
I am sorry that you lost another of your robos. Do they only have a
short lifespan, maybe?
Good luck with your move to Germany and I hope you find it to your liking
It should be a help in giving up the heroin. I wish you all the best
and for the rest of your life.
Take great care, REgards, Merle.
It sounds hopeful. If Berlin is your dream, go for it. Take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteThis is encouraging news Gleds! :)
ReplyDeleteKeep your dream and realise it. x
Merle: happy 75th!
ReplyDeleteSyd: it is my dream for now. Much as anything, I wanna see what the place is like
Akelamalu: I shall. But it's seeming ever more complicated by the day...
Keep your dream in front of you then. I'm sure getting clean will be worth it!
ReplyDeleteBeer is my methadone. For that, Berlin could be my Valhalla. Fortunately there are Holy Houses of Hops and Barley to worship at right here in the States. Many of my favorites can be found in the Pika Kingdom known as Colorado. I'm not talking about Coors here, but still, I may have to make a pilgrimage to the Domain of Arminius for some frosty paralyzing liquid gold. Ahhhhh!
ReplyDeleteGo for it Gleds. Wishing you all the best of British with the Methodone and don't give up on Maple Syrup just yet. I've never been to Berlin, my daughter has and just loved it. Very trendy and arty apparently. At least now you have a goal so go for Gold! Cheers mate!
ReplyDeleteWhen I read the title to your post, I wondered where the methadone was going up to...sorry, couldn't resist that one.
ReplyDeleteSeriously, Gleds, I hope it does the trick and that you fulfil your wish to live in Berlin. Don't stop blogging though, will you? BTW, happy birthday. I missed that particular post.
I'm confused. You write "so theoretically I have no excuse not to "use on top"" but don't you mean "so theoretically I have no excuse to "use on top""?
ReplyDeleteJeannie: I have to clean up before I go otherwise I would be at too much risk. Plus i would hate to be tied to methadone in a foreign country
ReplyDeleteMolson: my favourite beer is Czech: Staaropraaromen (or however spelt)
Baino: Maple Syrup is cleverer than she looks. I have to hand her that ...
Pussinboots: oh no I won't stop blogging. If anything I will just open one with pretentious German days of the week ...
Vincent: what I meant was theoretics mean nothing to me. Never since I was a raving smackhead have they affected my behaviour (except to pull me back to using) so there's little point using logic to reason it will make me stop, except as an extra spur to my own Will ...
Hiya Gledwood,
ReplyDeleteWhen travelling you can take methadone Within europe you can travel with 500ml and not have to justify that. Any more and you will need a medical note explaining it. This is very easy to get.. it's not something that is refused.
I say thi not to discourage cutting down (or anything likethat) but to let you know that your dream is still achieveable whilst on juice.
Your right about the theory. Everyone says once your on over 80mls a day it acts as an opiate blocker and one canno longer feel the effects of herion: BOLLOCKS! I've been on 150ml a day, and still used on top, and still got the desired effect. The only time I do otice an effect i if I se withiun the first 3 or 4 hours of drinking my meth. But as we know, it's not science and eeryone behaves differently.
Hope you manage to stick toyour guns andnot use.. I only ever want whats best for the individual. Whatever you decide, i'll still be reading and still be commentating.
Hope your Germans going well... it's a pity your not coming to France, we could have met up.
take care Gledwood & we'll speak mor soon. All my best, Shane.
thanks for that ;->...
ReplyDeleteGledwood,
ReplyDeleteI just replied to your comment over at mine.
I also meant to add in my comment here, that if you do come to frnce (Lyon) you're welcome to stay at mine. I know we only know each other through the blog, but I feel safe enough to make tht offer. Also, juice would be no prob if anything bizarre happened with yours. It'd also mean a very cheap holiday.
Just letting you know that. Shane.
Eh bien: MERCI BEAUCOUP! Thank you very much I will bear that in mind ;->....
ReplyDelete140 mgs across the pond here, a gradual build-up over 30 yrs - all clean-time. Clean only because of that build-up. If it didn't hold me I would never have stayed this clean this long - family says "You're still an addict" True. I say "But I'm not stealing your freeking silverware anymore am I" and I have this damn paralegal sheepskin, another for lab tech, another for coroner's ass't, blah blah. Couldn't do it on just willpower, this is 1960's smack we're yakking about, like 15% pure nothing but Italian baby lax to cut it. Harder habit to break. Oh where are my manners, I found you thru Shane's place linking here and there. Hope you never take anyone's advice, man. Just accept all the love and support. (Hey that was advice wasn't it lol) Much luck.
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