WHEN INDEED! I am awake in the middle of the night worrying because my life feels wrong-wrong-WRONG and yet I never seem able to do anything about it. Not for any meaningful length of time.There are gerzillions of things I'm meant to be sorting out, yet inertia stops me doing so. E.g. I really need to see a decent careers advisor from a good university to get my priorities straight and find out where I stand vis-à-vis returning as a student.
And what subject(s) would I study? Looking into Japanese at Birkbeck, the University of London college that specializes in degrees taught as evening classes, if you come to Japanese ab initio you can expect in the four years of a BA Hons degree to raise it to the status of "one year post A level" (higher school leaving certificate). But dreadful grammar aside, that's roughly where my German is now and I'd want a higher level of competence than that.
I have bought a fresh notebook, whose blank pages shan't glare at me ~ white with rage! ~ because I've already defaced a load. On one double page I've begun listing my goals and have decided to get Japanese up to A level before I even apply anywhere, even if I do apply to do that. I also want to learn Chinese. And I have an A level in French I'm not going to let rot. In any case, if I do win the lottery I'm shipping out to Monaco. I ain't paying taxes to Gordon Brown any day of the week!
Also if I really do win the lottery no-one need worry about what I'd do. I've already decided the first thing I'd do if I had any amount of money (apart from paying my debts off) will be to get straight into private treatment where they can prescribe sustained release morphine pills which are far better than methadone for someone who really wants to stay away from "gear" ...Speaking of drugs: here's something "funny" I found online:
"Heroin Clearance Sale in Southeast Asia (New York Times)"!
The Union of Myanmar, better known as Burma, which not much longer than a decade ago used to make the majority of the world's heroin, still manufactures about 5% ~ which amounts to about 40 tonnes of neat diamorphine annually!A Burmese tribe called the Wa, supposed "masters at heroin production" are arming for a full-on fight with the "ruling military junta" ... hence a cut-price "drugs garage sale" threatened to "flood" international markets ....
Euromillions' jackpot is actually more than double the £35,000,000 mentioned on that ticket and no those aren't my numbers so please nobody congratulate me if they come up!! Pills: morphine sulphate 100mg ...
I wish you the best of luck with your endeavours! It's good to have goals :)
ReplyDeleteYou seem to be setting yourself goals Gleds - that's good! Good luck with them m'dear.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to hear you would spend a lottery win on getting yourself clean. x
Well good luck with the lottery but I would'nt bank on it! I've been trying for years. Then there is that guy in Canada who's won five times! Doesn't seem fair really.
ReplyDeleteI'm from Canada and didn't know about the guy who won 5 times. If I can locate him I'm cattle prod him until he gives up his secrets.
ReplyDeleteReeny: I always used to have loads when I was growing up... but for years during my addiction, I had none.
ReplyDeleteAkelamalu: but I didn't win!
Baino: five times! The bastard!! How many balls are there in the Canadian lottery though? Our normal 6/49 one is 14,000,000 to 1; Euromillions 5/50+2/9 is 60,000,000 to one. Two British winners shared just over 45million each, a record prize payout in the UK.
Anonymous Drifter: please do. And ask if he'll send a few dollars over to me!
OK it says don't hold back so I won't. Forgive me if I seem very judgemental but you know I speak from experience here. I'm curious to know why you think you need 'treatment' for heroin addiction, replacing one drug with yet more drugs? Why not just get on your back and do your RIP? It's no worse than a case of swine flu. OK, sleep can be a problem but it can't kill you and it can't get you pregnant.
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