DO Y'ALL LIKE MY MOLECULE? No it is not diamorphine. It's a DIAMOND. Well it's been the worst day. No energy. No will for anything. I tidied up a bit, but only because I'm 99.9% sure I lost a good 0.2-0.3 of that benzo-gear. I could really do with some right now and who knows where it's gone. I was so slaughtered 3 nights ago I hadn't the faintest idea where it could have got to. Not in my arm/leg/foot. I have the memory of a chess grand master when it comes to what I have and have not taken stash-wise.Pregnant girl please email back I didn't get it: hammynutter@lycos.com that applies to anyone else wanting to get in touch. Please bear in mind my track record of email response hasn't always been the "best". So if you write and I appear to ignore you, send a comment; I'll check carefully where that "darn" email got to.
Take it easy peeps. Monday tomorrow. Can't be any worse than Sunday. (Or can it??) Things can always get worse. Simple fact. If anyone knows what's up with Melody Lee please comment or email. Thanks. Melody I'm worried about you, you know.
PS don't envy me having lost a bag. Probably cat in hell's chance of ever finding it.
The only time I ever found a bag was when I'd decided never to do gear again...had turned up 3 days in a row on green to this recovery course..
ReplyDelete..and then that night in my rag-rug sat this little plump parcel....
Typical.
What's annoying is this isn't wrapped properly, just in paper. So more likely to fucking go everyhwere, so I have to be ultra careful searching. Ukk. Tried to score on tick, no joy. So it's tear house apart time.
ReplyDelete(Note my psychology: would rather get in debt than bother to clean own home, ha!)
So you lost some benzos, or was it anphetimenes(spelling). Sorry your feeling a bit down. I had been feeling nearly all the way down(gun to head), but then I took my Ritalin and got real high. The methadone must have been keeping me down, suboxone not strong enough to keep the uppers from picking me up.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, your only 38 that's not that much older than me. Fly to the states. Wisconsin looks just like Germany aka The Father land, and almost everyone here has german blood. I'm mostly Irish, but my grandfather on my dad's side had some German in him. So I have A little German in me. I'd like some English in me though. Get it. Ha ha.
Also there is a dedication to you and I by the guy in the blue silk taffeta dress.blogspot
No it was heroin with loads of benzos in it. Afghanistan is near the country they make them, so they're added neat. Or barbiturates. Or methaqualone (quaaludes). I'm not talking crushed up pills, I mean brown rocky powder heroin with shit loads of benzos in there 2. That's why I didn't post Monday to Thursday. Too fucking out of it.
ReplyDeleteI'm really depressed. One dealer who had won't be around till Mon evening, another has and said he will serve me 1am when I have money.
What's Chicago gear like? Not tar, please no! We could meet in NYC if I could only get funds together. Shit hot China/Colombia white baby!
Sorry you're down too.
ReplyDeletePlease answer the Chicago question. The junkie in me really wants to know ;-)
ps I've tried ritalin. Don't overdo it. "Baby" speed it may be, it's v v strong if you go at it big time which I'm not advising. I wouldn't do that again. Serious hallucinations, massive comedown.
Chicago Heroin is mostly China White, Which is a white powder that looks almost identical to powder coke. Its usually cut with Fetynal and its called venom. You only need a grain which is an old term for less than size of the tip of toothpick. When you cook it up its clear, so when you shoot it up you can see your blood flash into the syringe easily unlike with Black Tar Heroin.
ReplyDeleteSometimes in Chicago you come across Brown Sugar Heroin wich is sort of a China White Black tar mix. Its wet and tar like on the outside, but you break it open and its like brown sugar on the inside. That stuff you need citrus to shoot up. Thats rare though.
That brown sugar might be our Afghan. Nobody wants Afghan here, cept for smoking.
ReplyDeleteI did one point of what looked like crack (crystalline). In the works it was v v pale yellow, just like crack. I knew what it was bc of the vinegar smell. We had a drought on YET AGAIN so my tolerance was low. Got vein instantly. Next thing I knew I was stooped over the sink, not knowing where I was, what I was doing, what day it was. Serious shit, man!
And I still had the other 1 point left! (£10 bag, about $16).
How much do you get for $10 in a big city? I heard 0.1 is that right?
Also you would never buy a "bundle" here. If you want weight, you say "a G please" and it comes in a 1G bag. A good dealer will do teenths ~ 1.75gs and 8ths, 3.5g and a "Q" (7g) if you want it.
Other dealers stingy and only sell in £10/£15/£20 bags so if you had £100 they'd want to sell you 6x£20 which is 2.4g min. Good 20s are 0.5g. Really good ones are 0.6g but they don't like knocking more than a £5 or 2 off, even if you buy a lot. You get what you pay for.
Some people think they're clever giving short money all the time. These are the same people who moan about small bags. + who would you come out for at an inconvenient time? Someone who you know will short you, or someone dealing with you straight. As I say you get what you pay for.
Brown is "low grade" (not weak), but you can get a white version of brown which still needs citric and is smokeable. In my experience good B and China feel the same. I'd just rather skip the citric/vitC crap!
There's a dark brown gear that creeps up on you more (less rush), but very gloopy, very goofy. Sounds more like tar in its effect.
Hope I haven't gone on. Please indulge me with a comparison, esp. on prices/sizes. Do you buy on a "corner" off someone you don't know/hardly know? We never do this, except there's a frontline as we call it (ie a corner) in Brixton. That's for people after a probably not v big but quick deal of crack. We score by phoning in advance, get to the place about 10 mins later. Hopefully another 5-10 mins I'm skipping off home. Man I'm craving craving.
Please give a comparison if you have time tonight. My inner junkie loves that shit! ;-)
I don't belong here today! Did you shower?
ReplyDeleteYes my hair is lovely and clean.
ReplyDeletePink stuff I found in a carrier bag outside Boots (pharmacist) + free blue (ie "masculine") shower gell. Lovely.
I hate showering on methadone. I hate doing anything at all on methadone. My doctor and I are due a serious talk.
The Other half lost a bag at the weekend, he spent Sunday taking the car apart to find it!
ReplyDeleteHow did it get lost?
It was SO SMALL....the smallest of 3 £20 bags....Contents each less than .2.....and the lost and found one .1 OMG Rip Off!
Drought Life!
Hope You are Feeling Better Today (Monday) All The Best,
CJ
Ps. I Like Your Molecule!
Word Verification-Wariest,
You have to be very Wary in these times!
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ReplyDeleteHi CJ did you comment on my German blog? I only take ages to reply because I'm crap not an ignorant rude fucker (though I am that too, harhar!)
ReplyDeleteAkelamalu I know how upsetting this must be for you and all my old friends. Please try and understand there is a crisis, I'm doing the best I think I can do to help out.
Also as you know my blog was originally meant to explain to "normal" people how someone all "bright" and "full of promise" (as if!!) can get sucked into heroin and stay there so long.
I really am sorry if I've upset you. I feel bad bordering on desperate. All I can do is be as grown up about it as I can be.
Love you and thanks for being my friend xx
Wish you the best. I hope that you will still be around.
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