On 100mg Diphenhydramine (Benadryl) I'm OK to sleep usually on days 1 and 2 but after that it just stops working. Zopiclone works far better and is much nicer and not something to abuse (ALL it does it makes me sleep; nothing benzoey, just drowsiness, nothing else so no motivation to stay up through it as in temazepam (Restoril) which takes 30mg to 40mg to actually get me to sleep. 10mg temazepams are a JOKE. Zopiclone is the only sleeping pill I've taken that works reliably on ONE full-dose tablet. Zopiclone 3.75 is a piss take they're for elderly people but some doctors will mess around with you giving them when you just have to do 2 to get the effect ie half as many doses.
I also have enough methadone to zonk myself if I really needed to but hate doing that on methadone it takes a LOT. I buy it on the street for when I need extra. My dose is going DOWN now which I'm SO GLAD ABOUT I can't tell you. I absolutely LOATHE being on methadone I hate the shit, it's the all time pits of drugs. Does nothing unless you take doses I won't mention in case some kid with no tolerance thinks a hardened junkie's sleep dose will make them feel good when it WILL KILL THEM. I want off all this crap I hate taking drugs to sleep.Last night (or rather this morning) I slept late morning to early afternoon about 10am to 1:30pm 3.5 hours. And felt gluttonous and lush for having done even that. Very indulgent. Mania thrives on sleep deprivation so the less sleep = the more manic = the better I feel unless I really start going off the scale which is just DIDDLADDLEODDLEODDDZZZ-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-ZZ-Z-ZZZZZZZBZZZZZZZZZZZZBZZZZBZZZBZBZZZZ like a noise.
I'm well rested now thanks to black coffee perking me up. Shouldn't drink that either. but with nothing, no drugs at all I'd be ragged, frazzled and extremely irritable and sleeping 3.5 hours maximum. Least with sleepers I can get a little extra sleep. If I take them at 10pm I can usually sleep midnight till 2:30am at least. This is while hyped up. When I'm down my sleep still goes all over the place but tends to go longer so I could sleep 12 or more hours. In bad states right through the morning into the afternoon from going to bed at 9pm.Well this is me and sleep, maybe I shouldn't post this but what the heck.
Illustrated: temazepam 30 ~ this dose should actually work, but no better than zopiclone 7.5! Zopiclone (not licensed in the USA) is like a far superior version of zolpidem (Ambien) zopiclone (Imovane) is called Zimovane in the UK. Nytol one-a-night is diphenhydramine 50mg but I'm not even sure I should be taking that on bipolar mania it might make it worse... (who knows?)
1813 I might try a red light. Blue light keeps you awake; red at the other end of the spectrum definitely makes you sleepy. Hammies can't see it and go pinging about like crazy under red light, they think it's pitch darknesss...
I find that for me, sleep in and of itself, is a drug. I love it. I crave it. I plan for it all day long. Naps are my heaven.
ReplyDeleteIs this wrong?
No but according to some doctors you're a drug addict just for wanting to sleep that really is ridiculous. I ONLY take sleep meds TO SLEEP not to stay up though as I say the benzos do feel nice. I've only been taking the diphenhydramine Nytold/Benadryl for a very short while it just doesn't work over time.
ReplyDeleteNo there's nothing wrong in my view. But ask a doctor they'll probably tell you you need hardcore prison detox and 10 years torture-psychotherapy!
Hi Gled,
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you finally were able to get some sleep. Not sleeping can be the pits.
Janice~
Hi Gleds, read my post and you'll see what causes me to sleep badly somne nights.
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear your methodone is lessening. Keep up the good work.
I've only taken a sleeping pill once and I woke up feeling as if I'd been partying all night. I felt dreadful. Never again, I said to myself, and flushed the rest away.
BTW...word verification is tarti. Is that me or you...lol!
Good for you to get some sleep. I got some last night as well. And am sure that I will sleep tonight after working hard all day.
ReplyDeleteHi Gleds ~~ I am glad you have a diagnosis that you are comfortable
ReplyDeletewith and the sleep pills help you
some. Best you like the doctor who
tells you the truth. I hope and pray all goes well for you my friend.
Thanks for your comments, my bluebird looks most unhappy and not near as nice as your blue tits. So pretty. Thanks for your concern for me and the people of New Zealand. We have bee free of major calamities for a while, so I guess we had to have a turn.
Take good care Gleds,Love and best wishes, Merle.
JANAICE: it makes me very jagged and grrrrouchy; i find it easier to sleep in daylight than at night when i'm too hyped. when i'm hyper i get visions behind my eyes that are too bright at night to sleep to!
ReplyDeletePUSSINBOOTS: they say sleeping pills don't give real sleep but i'd rather get a few hours of false or reset my body clock to normal and sleep false than sleep abnormal or not at all
SYD: i used to be able to tire myself out and STILL not sleep, i dont know what was wrong there. then again insomnia can come in 3 strengths like everything mild-moderate-severe and i suppose it had just gone severe
MERLE: there is a bird v similar to the blue tit called the great tit that lives all the way east as far as Japan and as south as Indonesia. blue tits especially are v agile and can easily perch upside down, they sometimes feed upside down too
i try to avoid taking pills but i just do not sleep sometimes; when i do go like that i nearly always sleep during the day, but my body knows what time it is, i don't sleep at night but go a bit quieter usually and get noticably more hyped up around mid morning to late afternoon then calm down a bit in the evening, that's what i noticed before and it happened every day, i was taking pills then and got 2.5 hours a night sleep but felt great!
i wish i could have the good bits without the bad bits but i don't think anyone actually does... even people who only get mania and never any depression, they still get very stressed/anxious/agitated when "high" so it's not all good on the other hand there's a HUGE number of illnesses i'd less rather have, esp. considering this is supposed to be serious i can't think of anything else thats serious and feels fun!