I SLEPT A LONG TIME lats night because I had the antipsychotics, antihistamines and alcohol. The antihistamine was to make me sleep because despite the other stuff I just couldn't do it. And now I feel woozy and my head is racing and spinning. I feel in a much better mood. I'm not "high" but the same stuff is going on as when I'm going there. In the chemist and the post office I kept seeing visions in the floor. The chemist was a girl in a beautiful egg-shaped water drop with drops like rain behind her. In the post office I saw a slavering wolf in chalk-white on the brown floor. Then I looked away and there were just shadows where wolfie's features had been. I really am getting paranoid today I can't tell when people are and aren't talking about me and I hear weird noises. Whether or not this is the risperidone pills I don't know. If it carries on like this I know I'll go back on a manic whoooosh uppp-p-p-P-PPPP!! Least I'm not depressed right now all is fine with me. I'm stressed about seeing the doctor on Thursday and I don't like the way thes pills make me feel wibblywobbly. I can't deal with change and buying things in shops I just have to give money and get the girl to sort it out it caused a massive headfuck when all I wanted was an Oyster top up that's an e-bus ticket. Sorry if this doesn't hang together well my head has a distinct lack of focus and my memory is shot to pieces these days. I forget people's names, everything. Have a nice day everyone. Mine's going well. My racy brain has elevated me way above yesterday's dreary misery-schmizzery so I'm good. Good health to all!PS ANNA GRACE: a lot of your comments got dumped in spam and I just found them. They're in their proper places now
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ReplyDeleteHe posts some good things there. Today's post may be relevant.
i'll have a look, thanks
ReplyDeletei'm trying to keep open minded to anything that might help, even stuff i don't really believe in like homoeopathy... etc. i heard you can even yourself out a LOT by avoiding undue stress and eating organic food etc etc. i might have to try that route if i don't want to become a walking drugs cabinet...
I love the image of the lion jumping up. He is wearing cloths. What the heck
ReplyDeleteYeah when I was little I used to find images in children's books e.g. of pigs standing on their back trotters wearing shirt and tie and smoking a cigar totally ridiculous!
ReplyDeleteI chose it for the "lift me up" title and I love big cats (tigers most of all).