ANNA has emailed me her book which makes me really want to get broadband back so I can read it properly.I was so exhausted today I couldn't do anything afater sleeping 10pm to 8am. I had to sleep again from 2pm till 7pm. That makes 15 hours' sleep! Too many hours in my view. I have to go clean my house. It's in a real mess.
There's not much more to tell these days except how boring and down things have gone. I woke up this evening wondering what I am doing with my life. This is a thing I think surprisingly un-often.
I bought heroin and it was rubbish. Bought some more, a bit better. None of it stopped me feeling depressed. Even when I feel relatively OK the heroin doesn't hit the spot it used to. Even when it's strong enough to knock me out with an opiate knockout punch it STILL leaves me feeling it could have been better. Which probably means what I was looking for I would never have found in heroin anyway...
Gled,
ReplyDeleteI hope you get your service back soon.
Exciting to hear you got Anna's book.
Take good care,
j.
maybe the gear u got was 50% sleepers. Thats whats happening here, again . . . Its so bledy annoying . . .I don't use to sleep the next morning, I need to be up early. Just a thought. I gotta do sample safto so will be interesting to c whats in it, apart from sleepers.
ReplyDeleteI keep checking in hoping to find u "on the way up" but this "down" seems long . . . R u still on risperidone? could they have "settled in"? is this what stopping mood swings mean? thats pretty much what i've always feared. but I could be wrong . . .
could it be internet withdrawals?
I'm not being silly either, a lot of your friends r maybe on-line, and u might need that contact. .
I don't know, I bit worried though <-( I will prob post this then see in a new post that u r positively buzzing ;-)? no? just hoping for you . . . will pop back later,
Take care
with love <3
x
TAFFETA: I really want to get broadband back to read the book
ReplyDeleteBUGGERLUGZ: I'm pretty sure it was heroiny, it reeked of heroin and cooked up clean I know that is no sign really, but it didn't have that sleepers feel to it. Just an empty heroin feeling. Boo-hoo!
Maybe I can help you identify what you are missing/wanting?
ReplyDeletehttp:theaddict2011.blogspot.com
or at least I can make you laugh
I read this and thought about your saying that you would not do heroin any more. I still fall for the empty promises made. Should know better by now.
ReplyDeleteNo Syd I'm doing a course on how never to do heroin again. That's tomorrow 12 April 2011 I'll get back to you then.
ReplyDeleteAddict: I sent you a message in Scottish