I FOUND A 6ft long little trotter horse narrow cardboard tube ideal for tubby roborovski hamsters to ping along. It's lying up my street as we speak.
In the shop I purchased a Cadbury's Praline Flake bar and no cyder. I'm giving giving up alcohol a bash and I'm doing it cold turkey. Fed up of messing around. I calculated I was on just over 40 units of alcohol ~ that is 400 mls or 320 grams of neat alcohol ~ per week or three half-litre cans of cherry Fizz per week. I'm fed up of drinking alcohol. As my family put it, I know alcohol is not helping my depression at all. I know alcohol worsens bipolar, even in the relative moderation I drink it in... I know if it wasn't a problem there'd be no trouble giving it up for a year, so that's what I intend to do. A year on Pepsi Cola and tea and chocolate milk.I'm still sleeping far too long. My head to my dreams dreams 12 hours to 16 hours a night and that's too long. I'm blushing like a babboon's backside over this embarrassment.
If I give up all illicit drugs I may be lucky enough to have a Positive Mood Swing (going UP) but there seems fat chance of that, I feel so sluggish and shamed.
Now I must ping off before this computer really starts misbehaving on me. Good luck to y'all and have a great weekend. And I'm sorry I couldn't find anything furry to post up!
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Hi dee ho Gleds mate. Good luck with the turkey :-)
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a good weekend too!
V.
Hiya. I think the more you sleep, the groggier you tend to feel. Six hours a night does it for me. Oh the spider is a Golden Orb taken on a macro setting. Loads of them around at the moment but such beautiful webs in the morning moisture. Had one crawling on my arm the other day after running into the web half an hour eariler, I'd been walking around for half an hour with a friggin huge fat spider somewhere in my hair. ARRRR
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are doing well, Gleds. Rooting for you.
ReplyDeleteAlcohol, at times, even in small amounts, throws me off so you might be very wise to give it up completely for a while. Give your body a chance to right itself with the meds they want you to try.
ReplyDeleteI miss you. Sorry for not posting anything new. I've relapsed, but not that bad. Not using everyday, sorta like you, every once in a while. My tolerance is so high it takes at least .08mg to even feel it, and that's not even getting loaded. I miss the days when I had a low tolerance and could use 0.2mg and get loaded.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad everything went okay with you at the shrink's office. No straight jacket on you yet.
My opinon is that the Methadone is making you sleep so much. I slept up to 18 hours a day when I was on it.
Sorry I got a go. I got a dr. to prescribe me hydromorphne. He only gave me ten 2mg tablets. It took 5 at one time to get me high. At least I can feel it.
Your still my best online friend, and I miss you. Do you have your broad band back yet? Did you read my book and think it stinks. That was a non edited version. How embarrassing that I had you read it. Now you know how stupid I really am.
I want to kill myself.
Love you,
Anna Grace
damn
ReplyDeletewrote a "comment" quite a long one actually(unlike me) and as I am sneaking next doors signal its very on/off and although I kept copying when I lost the sig and got it back, it would not paste.
O well I write later. try stay outdoors in the good weather near water is brill. moving water even better. \i could sit by a stream all day.
Yes dump the booze, very good idea. Has a lot to answer for.
Howz Kenny?> has he transferred ward Yet. Hope he got bed near window with all this sun ;-)
send him my get well wishes.
I goitta get my son to put the photos I taken of Hamper pups on computer, somnewhere u can c them they so . . .silky and tiny and their ears!! one has 3 legs but she strong and happy so will keep eye on her.
Was so tempted to drink the other day as people inb my bro back garden eating and drinking, and I love that first merry "bit" but I remembered where it leads. Where there is an up there is a down!
Will pop back later as prob about to loose this all again!
Really hope u enjoying the sun and feeling at least Ok ish? (at least)
with love
xx
Good for you Gleds. I am glad that you have those goals of giving up alcohol and drugs.
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