HAMSTERS & HEROIN: Not all junkies are purse-snatching grandmother-killing psychos. I'm keeping this blog to bear witness to that fact.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Barbiturates Alert!
I AM SURE I MUST HAVE INADVERTENTLY TAKEN BARBITURATES in my "gear" ... yes I did use today. The initial hit felt "weak" and I stayed awake and ate some pasta. Then WHAM! ~ I'm unconscious for about five hours ... I know this sometimes happens to me anyhow without drugs ... but this time, on awakening I felt extremely drowsy and drugged ... I haven't a clue what happened and the only explanation is barbiturated heroin. Only top-end dealers have access to barbiturates in 100% pure form (adding the contents of Seconal capsules, even if you could find Seconal capsules would dilute the "gear" down so much it would be utterly ineffectual ... no if barbs have been added they've been added "neat" to street heroin. O I feel woozy! Serves me right for "using" I know ... still I am making lists of things I really want to do (more to the point want to buy instead of drugs. List so far is CD player (haven't owned one for over five years) and DAB (digital) radio to get BBC 7 which is back to back radio plays and comedy as well as World Service through the day as well as night ... so no I have not given up on giving up!! Note to self: remember this is what it was like NEXT TIME ...
well don't take the bleedin heroin if you dont want the barbiturates then
ReplyDeleteWILL YOU REMEMBER THOUGH? ONLY TIME YOU GONNA STOP DRUGS IS WHEN BEING ON DRUGS IS WORSE THAN BEING WITHOUT THAT IS THE FACT OF LIFE
ReplyDeleteKeep hoping it will be the last time for you. Re your comment on my blog...visited jmb earlier with no problems. I'd take the Flaming Katy out if it's getting that big and pot it up separately...easy to take cuttings, just snap a bit off and pop it in some soil...being somewhat of a succulent it'll root quite easily. The NAZE in Walton on Naze is the area of headland that it stands on.
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Hi Gleds ~~ Sorry you had that experience, but it will help you attain the strength to do better.
ReplyDeleteGuess you hate all us do-gooders
but your life is worth so much more
I hope you can achieve a CD player
and the radio that you want. I have a clock radio, that also plays CD s and I like to turn it on for news and music through the night. Take care, my friend. Best Wishes, Merle.
Hi again Gleds ~~ I forgot to thank you for your comments. and I agree that flower is known as Bird of Paradise. Si it does resemble the head of an exotic bird. You amaze me how well you think and write - under the circumstances. Wel done.
ReplyDeleteCheers, Merle.
Today is a new day, Gleds. Yesterday's been and gone and you can't change it. So...you start over and you don't beat yourself up over the lapse.
ReplyDeleteIt's gonna take time, Gleds, but you'll get there in the end.
Pity that anonymous character hasn't the guts to put their name to the negative comment.
gleds!
ReplyDeletenow it's time for me to give u an award!
go grab it @ my place!
Hi Gleds, Sorry you had to go through that keep strong as Puss in boots said tomorrow is another day. Hope you get your radio and cd player soon.
ReplyDeleteYes Rolf Harris is well known over here with his warble board and paintings... keep safe.
you're on the right path gled...it'll be a gradual process and you're in the right mindset
ReplyDeleteat least your heading in the right direction...u now Want to quit. and u can't if u don't desire that so keep going. if you really wanna do something u can.
ReplyDeleteBe well..ok?
ReplyDeletePeace