*~Rhymes with "brave"... THE PHRASE WAS A FAMILY JOKE after one of our parents' friends said to their toddling child: "behave!" ~ and the reply came back, "but I am being have!"
OK so it was a brown Christmas. The day went past in a syrupy haze... but since then I did stick to my plan. Not that it's feeling any good.
I count myself lucky to have the NA big blue book, I think they call it their "basic text"... which is full of junkie advice and wisdom. One such pearl is, "we tried to stop because we were in such pain"... [but that was not reason enough]. My question: so what IS reason enough..?
O man this does not feel good. It doesn't feel right. Feels very wobbly. Can it last...?
I hope it does!
ReplyDeleteI wish you strength to do this. I do not have an terribly addictive personality so I find it hard to understand what you are feeling - other than maybe the desire to eat when I'm not hungry. I'm sure it doesn't come close.
ReplyDeleteI found GABA to be very helpful in calming anxiety (mind racing) - even the anxiety that comes from taking medication. It's an amino acid and probably available in any supplement or health store near you. It is given to alcoholics having the DTs. It slows down the brain firing. It might be worth trying if you are feeling anything like that.
I think reason enough is whatever pushed you to attempt it.
I wonder if you are a passionate person. If so, you will need a new passion to occupy you. Doubtless that will be next to impossible to discover for a little while.
Ah only been four days Gleds, but you don't have to do it alone. Seek help . . .and best of luck. (I do have an addictive personality so go some small way to understanding) It doesn't have to 'feel good' as long as it doesn't 'feel bad'. Stick to your methadone.
ReplyDeleteKeep going, Gleds...keep posting to us if it helps. Best of luck and keeping you in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYes, good luck with it.
ReplyDeleteNever knew anyone on methadone but had friends with other addictions. Don't know what advise to give, other than stay strong.
Gleds, only you can decide what is reason enough but I think you do sowant to. Like Puss-in-Boots says, keep us posted if it helps. God bless. I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteAKELAMALU: it hasn't lasted very well though... ie I had been entertaining thoughts of robbing the smoked salmon out of Sainsbury's etc... stuff i've not done in years... that is what I call gear craving it was horrible and mental
ReplyDeleteJEANNIE: I don't have an addictive personality. It takes some wherewithall and self-assertion to say this as so very MANY former crackheads/junkies at NA claim they "always have been addicts"
I can't speak for anyone else but I know I am NOT an addictive person. Though I have strong obsessionality in my personality...
it took HEROIN to turn me into an addict and... surprise surprise it does EXACTLY THE SAME TO EVERY OTHER HUMAN BEING ALIVE... which is why I count junkies as boring people same same SAME no fascinating distinuishing features at ALLL>!!!
BAINO: BUT IT DOES FEEL BAD. AND BAD THOUGHTS GO THROUGH MY HEAD CONSTANTLY... IS THIS BAD..? What can I do about it? I ended up using on Sunday night...
ZOMBIESLAYER: this opioid thing is a closed book to non-initiates... then again it's nothing you would WANT to know about. At all. ... Trust me...
ReplyDeleteLONEGREY: hey thanks for getting back to me man: long time no see hope all's well with you and THANKS...