MY WORKER WANTED ME TO GO to a "how to survive without drugs" meeting... so I went. I wasn't too happy about going, but I went, and endured a random collection of people's bullenscheiße for over an hour.A fat black man, who looked just like the one pictured, and appeared to believe he was better than any of us, opined on how he "didn't see himself as a heroin addict" and so had been reluctant to get scripted on methadone... and "just wanted to get into treatment" (ie rehab)... and acted out in the most childish way putting on "I'm bored" and pretending-to-be-asleep faces as the rest of us banged on about drugs. One retired prostitute asked him whether he really thought he was ready for rehab and he insisted yes. Then the invigilator queried at the end how the session had been for him and he said "You know people moaning on and on about drugs ~ does my head in. I just want to be in treatment."
So I interrupted him and said: "In treatment this is all anyone talks about!"And he did that assertive thing: "I thought it was my time to talk..." and "I have been in treatment."
I shrugged my shoulders and wondered why I bothered trying to point out to a bullshyter the diarrhoea he was spewing...
Which is one reason I've had enough of meetings like that ~ I'm fed up of hearing 1: people talking shyte in general and 2: thick junkies thinking they will somehow impress the rest with tales of the "kilo" of their "100% pure dope" they had to flush when police came knocking. Yawn yawn YAWN!
LATER ON TODAY there was a row in my local shop between a Turk (behind the counter) and some random other foreigner. About a woman (also a foreigner) who the random other foreigner had allegedly shouldered in front of. The Turkish shopkeeper put the male customer right in direct terms. The customer replied that his language was "too strong". As a native speaker of English I can confirm that the shopkeeper's language was direct but in no way rude, but I just bit my tongue. I'm fed up of hearing one ethnic group despising/riling/slagging off/being offended by the other... and then hearing talking heads on the ten o'clock news telling us (or implying to us) that whites are the most racist group of all ~ which is an absolute crock of bullensheiße!
And on that note I must go before I break something... cheerio folks!
Illustrated: a fat black man; bullenscheiße; an "ethnic" cornershopkeeper ~ allegedly murdered (probably in a racist attack)...
... sorry about yesterday's picture failure. Whoever posted the picture's account went down.
Aye regarding the pointlessness of these meetings. To me it's no different to talking about the consistency of one's shites.
ReplyDeleteJust cause we're addicts doesn't mean we'll have anything more in common than just the fact we're addicts! Not my thing at all. Maybe I'm too introverted and like being alone (but don't like being lonely).
I've never got on with any form of group therapy. I just think they're too generalist to really make a difference to anyone. My long term psychotherapy is finally going to happen at the end of the month!
Take care Sweetie
Hope life is treating you much better than the nasty bitch is treating me.
xxoooxx Kelly
I would have thought these 'counselling' sessions would provide you with some lifestyle strategies to reduce your habit. They sound more like a moanfest. Shame. And racism is not restricted to the colour of the skin. Otherwise the Pakistanis and the Indians would get along just fine! And they're not the only two ethnic groups who feud.
ReplyDeleteRe the Thai curry paste thing . . they all have prawns in them. Thais use dried prawns or prawn paste and fish sauce in just about everything to give that salty flavour.
Did I tell you about the addict who was telling me he was hoping to get into rehab. He said, 'I don't have a problem giving up drugs, it's just that i start taking them again. But giving up is easy.' I got the feeling that he hadn't quite realised his problem!!
ReplyDeleteI hope that something works. An open mind and willingness to change helps. When ego is in charge, very little ever changes because I think that I know it all. It wasn't until my ego hit bottom that I finally was willing to listen and to hear. Hang in there with all of it.
ReplyDeleteI wonder how the row between Val Mal and the Greek Witch went down.
ReplyDeleteo man I'm about to get terminated... have to reply later...
ReplyDeleteKelly: I'm annoyed at people trying to prove THEY are the smartest baddest junkie ~ annoyed at all of it actually. A big waste of time
ReplyDeleteBaino: I'm not eating Thai curry paste again then! Why can't they just add salt?
Yes and I'm annoyed at racist biggoted antiracist biggots. No time left for them at all...
Liz: bloody hell. He couldn't have been taking heroin then surely? That's really hard to stop AND stay stopped on. The others like crack are easy to stop... for about an hour!
Syd: but I'm going to individual counselling from now on!
Molson: I'm not sure but yesterday Marilyn had her phone back ... insists the witch still has her charger...
I can imagine that the meetings might get a bit tiresome and going is probably more helpful to those who need an audience than to the audience itself.
ReplyDeleteYes!
ReplyDeleteI'm not going again in case I die of irritation or get arrested for assault/murder!