the bins shuttup. O man it's WINDY outside. There's been gusting gales the last 2 days.That brainy Susie Dent is explaining something to do with etymologies of snake bites on Countdown. Susie Dent is my ideal woman. Brainy. Looks like she can handle herself in a fight (joke).
O man this dinner is doing my head in. Microwave. In. Out. Stir it all about.
I just spent an hour in a car in a carpark talking shit with someone to pass time. It was fun in a different way. O man I'm craving alcohol. Shall I get some yes I'm out the door one second...
No I'm not getting any. Yeah I'll get low alcohol Smirnoff cloudy lemonade. If they've restocked. I bought all the last batch!
A load of Yum Yum Smirnoff Vodka stuff went through my head on the way too and from that voddy shop. They've restocked. Know a good vodka customer when they see one (me).
Yeah my name is Gledwood I'm an alkie. I know. I confess. I don't like being a lousy drinker.
I feel hyped up enough already without drink dulling me down. I only took it to dull pain. I'm not in pain now I'm in pleasure so why dull it down? See: stupidity.Eh that find the money programme is on. When you open boxes. Can't eve n recall the name. DEAL OR NO DEAL! That's it. Thomas is on. "I think this is one of those we're going to remember for a very long time," says Noel Edmunds. Not likely. Who remembers crappy gameshows. Don't answer.
I hear my name come from inanimate objects on the street: does this mean I'm a mentally ill nutter? Don't answer!
Right I have to go, cheerio!
PS Why do people mix up honesty with frankness? I'm frank, doesn't mean I'm honest. I am but I don't see that one means the other. Maybe frankness is a TYPE of honesty. Yeah that'd be it...
PPS That Iceland £1.50 roast beef dinner tasted like the smell of dog food
Sorry to hear your dinner tasted like the smell of dog food. :(
ReplyDeleteI like Deal or No Deal. :)
I cooked a Kashmiri curry!
ReplyDeleteCooking a Chinese banquet to celebrate Year of the Rabbit tomorrow!
All washed down with... apple juice of course these days ;-)
Akelamalu: it wasn't absolutely terrible but it wasn't as good as if I'd made it myself. I cook perfect to my own taste bc I'm perfectionist. And if I go wrong I nearly always have an idea what I did wrong.
ReplyDeleteIn future I'll stick to Iceland beef in gravy (they also do steak)
Furtheron: I think I'm going to switch to Shloer, which I LOVE but don't want to drink now as I need to keep it separate from alcohol, I don't want to associate Shloer with alcohol craving. I desperately want to stop now...
Hi Gledwood. I think you are a bit obsessed with the drinking. You are drinking so little its hardly worth bothering about. I drink as much of not more than that, and no way do I have a drink problem. You are just obsessed with it. As for the microwave roast YUK...cook some proper healthy food mate. You seem to eat rubbish. You need to stop obsessing about drink and drugs and live life. All this blogging and speaking to other drug bloggers is just keeping you in the sh*t. If not just take drugs and enjoy it. At the moment you seem to just fantasise about it, which is pointless
ReplyDeleteYou really think my drink is ok?
ReplyDeleteI just want off the shit. i got told to count units to see where i am do a drink diary etc
the way i think about gear is hard to describe because it's distant and because it doesnt involve me taking it it's not drug porn or read it, even though i use that phrase as a joke
i'm setting up some of those art therapy classes so i can go and paint my feellings down, i'd love to do that and i want pictures for my room.
You don't think I want to break away enough?
Problem I have with Anna especially, she's my good friend and I look out for her. Noah and Melody and Shane don't need that but Anna does need someone to look out for her.
But I don't crave to use. I don't do that festering thing where you want to use and don't and just fester all this desire to use. Each new day that goes by without gear is another tiumph but not numbered. Gear will only make a mess of my osbriety, that's how I see it. And normally I'm buzzing too much on Clean to feel shit about it.
I'm picking up methadone which I drink twice a day and it holds me fine. Thanks for the comment and the v good points.
Note I barely speak about drugs now in blogging. I speak aobut mood swings I had before I was on heroin, they are just more extreme now so I'm blogging my moods more than any drugs now. I hope over the next 2-3 years to turn into a real life blogger someone who blogs about normality... that will take some time with me as I need to pick up those interests. I'd like to do a garden but need a flat with a balcony, else I could do cactuses indoors I spose...
Many thanks for the comment.
Before I get clean w/ u, u have to stop drinking like a fish. I'm going to duel diagnosis clinic on feb 20th. Twentieth it looks like 28. Don't worry I'll still be able to read your posts on my phone. I'll still post on my phone unless the have Internet there.
ReplyDeleteWhy do you think I'm ugly? Tell the truth.
I'm not a fan of quiz shows. Probably because there were so many of them on tv when I was growing up ... most being cringeworthy at best ;)
ReplyDeleteSo I'm a bit surprised to now find myself tuning into our nightly Letters and Numbers, the Australian version for the UK's long running Countdown. Is it true it was based on a 60's French show?
I never understand why people like to drink, it all tastes like pee to me.
ReplyDeleteJanice~
Give up the booze for a week and see if you feel better. It seems as if you need to decide whether you have the physical craving and the mental obsession for booze.
ReplyDeleteAnna: no I think the car photo is beautiful, I like the blue wig even though you look pissed off. No I think you look beautiful when you're in a good mood but like me too not good in a shit mood! I think you would make a good actress because your face is v expressive.
ReplyDeleteDon't pay too much attention to that answer last night I was answering someone who said I was speinding too much time on blogs of people who used gear and I wanted to say "but Anna is my friend" I wasn't calling you a problem, though that's how it looks. Dur. See I'm not always bright and brainy like you say I can be thick as well
Bimbimbie: was countdown based on a French gameshow... I'll try and find out
Countdown (game show)From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Countdown is a British game show made by ITV Studios and broadcast on Channel 4. Since mid-January 2009 it has been presented by Jeff Stelling, assisted by Rachel Riley, with regular lexicographer Susie Dent. It was the first programme aired on Channel 4, and over fifty series have been broadcast since its debut on 2 November 1982. With over 5,000 episodes, it is one of the longest-running game shows in the world, along with the original French version Des chiffres et des lettres which has been running on French television continuously since 1965.
Janice: I used to loathe alcohol. It was no temptation to me. I hated the image, people who drank I didn't like. When I "got into" drugs via uni there was a drink-drug divide. People who toked cannabis hardly ever drank alcohol; alcohol drinkers didn't feel they needed cannabis so the overlap was small. It was hanging around with people who drank hard alcohol on top of heroin that changed my ways. The alcohol intensifies the heroin, which always felt weak, no matter how good it was. Because I was so addicted to it... I don't like the actual taste of alcohol it's vile.
Syd: I'd like to just cut it out. It keeps going too high 3 drinks not 2. Yesterday it was 3.75 units +2.8 +2.8 =9.4 units
I'm going to try drinking nothing at all today