alarm was going off. All I wanted was access to my own money from that ridiculous Second Class Citizen Card (ie not a shiny one with Visa Wings you pay money INto because you're rich; one you take Govt money OUT OF because you're poor that rubbishy post office card I had to get because I withdrew £700 I didn't have from my former bank account. I had a real nice heroin/crack binge on that £700 it has to be said. Unlike America you won't get arrested for that over here. In fact I'm considering suing THEM for negligence. They allowed me to overdraw. No fraud was involved. I only went into supermarkets, bought cheapest sparkling wine and asked for £50 a day in cashback (cashpoints wouldn't give this money, neither would over-the-bank-counter) once I realized this was a ready sauce of unending cash I spend away. Shit only hit the fan quite a while later and now they're one of some number of people trying to sue me over these debts. I'm not exactly losing sleep over it. Why do you think I enjoy being crazy so much? Nothing to come back TO.Well this nonbipolar thing is still going nicely when I get walking I hear lovely voices saying "fuck up" "call a doctor" "oo that's mental" etc. This does have something to do with having watched Angelina Joelie being Mentalist Chic in Girl Interrupted this morning. Those voices don't upset me. Takes far more than THAT to get me upset (no heroin used to do it big time). The drs think I have a real healthy attiude by considering "auditory hallucinations" (ie Reality Plus) as "free entertainment" (which it is) the best one happened yesterday after Valium Marilyn who wasn't half banging on about her problems poor woman anyway I heard my own voice doubled and out of sync in my own head. It was really poetic. [Hearing 2 of me thinking. That was cool.] And the cars on the street start doing this thing where they either speak random words (not so much nowadays as it's piss weak nowadays) but they also sound really whoosh-oosh-oooohhh!! rather than just boring like cars normally do. A bit like a car sounds after a nightspent at a particularly funky hardcore rave.
So I'm sleeping for ages. Oh yeah! My bowel problems! I knew y'all would want to hear this. I feel like I've swallowed a giant jellyfish whole and it's blocked me up. Terrible inconvenience. How will I ever shit again? I'm eating a breakfast cereal wtih cocolate hazelnut inside called Kraves. The kind of stuff us Brits used to look down at Americans years ago over "how CAN you eat marshmallow for BREAKFAST"? Mcdonalds have it all wrong the number of times I've been refused Big Macs before 10:30 or whatever ridiculously late hour a HAMBURGER JOINT actually starts serving up HAMBURGERS I hesitate to recall.
Well I must go I feel fine now. I was all dull, drab, dysphoric etc a couple of minutes ago. I wanted to cry earlier. I had Better Not be coming down. If I am I can just feel it, I'm going to feel really SHIT. Well best not consider that option. Also Naomi will really love it if I'm down next Nutter Club she'll think it serves me right for having had a Personality last week. Well I'm off have fun!
ps i'm watching the aviator or did i say that? very slow moving but quite good. i want voices talking about aeroplanes and hollywood movies, not boring psychiatric crap. i hate psychiatry why did this have to happen to me? only good thing about psychiatry is the other patients they're really funny
oh yeah i had some nutter links but they are somewhere else, here's one that proves a desperate person is capable of speaking plain english (do nurses really believe you have to get to the jib-jib-jib phase before you need help? oh yeah they call that "acting" so just ignore 'em. that's what i do. except when you wanna go outside in which case it's first name terms and lots of flirting. best nurses are always female so be male or a lesbian if you want to go outside
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100402182556AAQgrJZ
can't recall why this came up but it wasn't what i was looking for. why do they close answers down so fast? i'd have said try sulpiride
Hearing voices isn't free entertainment Gleds, it means there's something wrong. :(
ReplyDeleteyeah but what can i do?
ReplyDeletei'm asking for quetiapine
they think it's healthy because they happen anyway whether or not you think they're real, nice, not nice or anything else you can't block them out. stress and tiredness makes it noticably more intense once it's going, but i know no way of taking it away and usually when that happens i'm too hyped up to care
i do appreciate your concern though thanks
Your banking systems definitely work different there if you were able to use a debit card for cashback when you hadn't got it in your account. Here, it immediately accesses your account and if the money isn't there, you don't get to spend it. Not only that, but they put a limit on how much you can draw out in a day or a week whether you have it in the bank or not.
ReplyDeleteyeah my limit was meant to be £200 so how I got either £500 or £700 more (the number 700 is definitely pertinent) i don't truly understand; i think they check "has this person an overdraft facility?" and are they in Total Red? If not the money comes automatically it took at least 3 weeks maybe 4 until they put my account into "default" or whatever it's called
ReplyDeletei still think THEY were stupid. all i did was ask for something and got it. i never lied. just asked. ok i wasn't exactly being reponsible but they knew i was on govt. sick money, it got paid into their account with the name of the benefit on the statements so they have no excuse for saying they didn't know
ridiculous! but the solicitor i saw wasn't into pursuing a nonstraightforward matter i mean this is something you could pursue to the highest court in the land i'm not sure it's been done before. my case is very straightforward, i'd love to hear what shit the bank came up with. re the debt if i had money id pay 30% in one lump as "full and final" (which debt collection agencies like) other option is to pay 50p a week for however many years i'm not making offers to pay £5 or so i can't afford that
I do empathise about the bank and the debts - I really do. I know this post isn't funny but you did make me laugh about the jellyfish and the other psychiatric patients thinking they're funny! Take care, Gleds. xx
ReplyDeleteLaughter is the best medicine Welshcakes I'm not at all offended the jellyfish thing was meant to be funny!
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