I nearly had a big row in the library just now for phoning a friend. Some Asian guy kept coming up to me asking me to keep it down. Then he told me to stop talking when I was trying to LISTEN to a very involved story so I yelled I'M NOT TALKING then the rude woman who tells the homeless man not to sleep in the library said "well I can hear you" so I deliberately spoke as loud as possible as I gathered my things and left. Amazingly I didn't feel the biting cold that had me in sweats of misery walking down. That's because my methadone is finally working.The poor girl in the room next to me has bought an LCD TV and expected to get Freeview channels out here in the twee suburbs where we get the worst TV reception I've ever experienced. I said you'll be lucky. Then she asked me how to tune it in I said highlight analogue tuning and she got 4 channels of snow, just like I get. The other night Gladiator came on ITV. I slammed in the DVD and compared scenes. The DVD was normality. On ITV it was snowing in Rome!
I'm feeling ill. I don't know why. Is it just manic depression again? I don't know. I feel like I want to puke. I have an abscess on my right foot. The abscesses on my legs have gone down after I stuck surgical blue needles in each one and drained them but this one on my foot is too painful to mess around like that so I might have to go to casualty (that's the ER to you Americans) to get flucloxacillin, which is the normal antibiotic for drug abscesses. Yes I'm afraid I was using every day over the Xmas break (and what sane person wouldn't?) but now I'm back in the routine of knocking back methadone like a 40 year old baby in under the chemist's "supervision" I somehow find it easier to keep the old nose clean.
I'm fretting about what I'm going to eat tonight or should I just get drugs instead? I don't really want to do anything. I wish I could have general anaesthesia. I wish I could have £10,000 to put my magazine together. I worked out start up costs would be a mere £1000 for computers and phones but
several grand to pay the printers to knock out the things. In this country WH Smith are the main distributors of periodicals but I need more information about how you persuade shops to order more copies. Can you do offers like buy 20 get 20 free? Please if anyone knows anything about the magazine industry please help me. I really need a detailed book on the subject that goes into the mathematics of print run costs and advertising revenue. Websites and links please. BTW I have looked into the idea of publishing online and for various reasons it's a non-starter. The entire point of this magazine is that you take it home and read real words on a real page. Even Dickens published a magazine "Household Words". Not a website. Did you know when American newspapers went online they garnered a mere TENTH of the advertising income from the internet as from paper. Please someone who has edited or better still been advertising or circulation manager on a magazine get in touch and tell me how it's done. Well I've got to go else I'll get terminated. Happy New Year to one and all. (Just in case I'm not in the mood to post between now and then....)
Illustrated: the standard of technology in my house (except you can't even have a set-top box in my house) ~ the landlord who takes in over £200 PER ROOM per week ie SIXTY THOUSAND POUNDS A YEAR income from this house cannot even be bothered to fit an operational high gain television aerial to our chimney!
HARDCORE TECHNO VOL 4
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7 comments:
Abscesses OUUCH ! you should really get them seen to as they can lead to blood poisoning if left to fester.
All the best for the 2012.... Karl
thanks
i will go if i have to ...
Hi,
Why the lower case i's? (in previous comment)
Anyway yes I felt like that this morning too . . If I didn't have kids I prob would've stayed in bed all day and hid. I really didn't want to face the day . . . But I had to, and I do feel a bit better now. Well a lot better now.
When we got our new tv's with built-in freeview we had to get a "4 way" tv aerial booster to receive the channels but that was all . . . There still doesn't seem to be much worth watching. Hope your abcesses get better soon. They can make you feel ill. And hot. Take Care. With love x
Lower case i's are just me being lazy with the shift key!
I'm not sure whether the abscesses (which are really minor in abscess terms) are making me feel so run down. The one on my foot hurts a lot and feels like a sprain but that's purely because of where it is. There's something approaching a head on it but my abscesses are always tiny and never burst like proper people's abscesses do. The severe infections I've had were all cellulitis and one time I had a "barb burn" from barbiturated heroin that literally looked (and felt) like a chemical burn. It was 3 times the size of the palm of my hand and every colour of the rainbow because the edge looked like a huge bruise. It had about six huge blisters full of brown liquid which a surly nurse had to "aspirate" which is just a posh word for sticking a needle in and drawing up the watery gunk, which was EXACTLY the same colour as a good hit of B. I "aspirated" one myself and left the works on top of the TV. Several hours later I asked myself "what's that doing there" and INJECTED MY OWN BLISTER FLUID. Ukk. That's yet another story for the memoirs. Know what I mean.
I hope you have a happy New Year :-)
. . I'm still having a happy Christmas Thankyou!! (u will geddit if you read my post later) New year is next year!
"I wish I could have a general anaesthesia" . . What are you like?
Can you get your abscess (shit I've been spelling that wrong - I just copied off you - I have utter faith in you being right of course. Now why is that?) Can you get it on web-cam so we can see what we think? No. Ok.
You prob just feel a bit shit from doing gear-then not doing it-then doing it. I only feel good from it if I keep it going. Just one day off made me ill - (well slightly off colour/hot/cold) I soon felt better when the end was in sight ;-) Did you seriously inject that gunk? Saying that, you've probably paid for dirtier stuff than that (without knowing) . . . At least that was free. I must go . . I popped in at 8am to see if another blogger had taken my advice re; putting childbirth on hold for a while ;-) . . . and I've been here ever since. Shit it's 12.12!!! Happy New year if I don't "see" you before then x x x
Happy new year!
I hope it's a happier one for all of us.
Get well soon.
Buggerlugz: I have to answer you later yes I really did inject the gunk though. At first I thought you meant gunk as in heroin then I remembered that blister gunk. Yeah that went right in. I'm sure I've had gear that was lower quality than that blister stuff, during droughts etc, it has to be said...
Taffeta: thank you I hope you have a great 2012 :-)
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