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DIARY OF A SLOWLY RECOVERING HEROIN ADDICT

I used to take heroin at every opportunity, for over 10 years, now I just take methadone which supposedly "stabilizes" me though I feel more destabilized than ever before despite having been relatively well behaved since late November/early December 2010... and VERY ANGRY about this when I let it get to me so I try not to.

I was told by a mental health nurse that my heroin addiction was "self medication" for a mood disorder that has recently become severe enough to cause psychotic episodes. As well as methadone I take antipsychotics daily. Despite my problems I consider myself a very sane person. My priority is to attain stability. I go to Narcotics Anonymous because I "want what they have" ~ Serenity.

My old blog used to say "candid confessions of a heroin and crack cocaine addict" how come that one comes up when I google "heroin blog" and not this one. THIS IS MY BLOG. I don't flatter myself that every reader knows everything about me and follows closely every single word every day which is why I repeat myself. Most of that is for your benefit not mine.

This is my own private diary, my journal. It is aimed at impressing no-one. It is kept for my own benefit to show where I have been and hopefully to put off somebody somewhere from ever getting into the awful mess I did and still cannot crawl out of. Despite no drugs. I still drink, I'm currently working on reducing my alcohol intake to zero.

If you have something to say you are welcome to comment. Frankness I can handle. Timewasters should try their own suggestions on themselves before wasting time thinking of ME.

PS After years of waxing and waning "mental" symptoms that made me think I had depression and possibly mild bipolar I now have found out I'm schizoaffective. My mood has been constantly "cycling" since December 2010. Mostly towards mania (an excited non-druggy "high"). For me, schizoaffective means bipolar with (sometimes severe)
mania and flashes of depression (occasionally severe) with bits of schizophrenia chucked on top. You could see it as bipolar manic-depression with sparkly knobs on ... I'm on antipsychotic pills but currently no mood stabilizer. I quite enjoy being a bit manic it gives the feelings of confidence and excitement people say they use cocaine for. But this is natural and it's free, so I don't see my "illness" as a downer. It does, however, make life exceedingly hard to engage with...

PPS The "elevated mood" is long gone. Now I'm depressed. Forget any ideas of "happiness" I have given up heroin and want OFF methadone as quick as humanly possible. I'm fed up of being a drug addict. Sick to death of it. I wanna be CLEAN!!!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

The Common House Mouse!

***FURRY FRIDAY ON SATURDAY***



Mus Musculus ~ the common house mouse ~ is said to have originated in Mediterranean Europe and North Africa but has been carried by boats, carts, cars, trains and just about every other available means into just about every part of the inhabited world, where, especially during cold weather and winter months, they scurry around infested storerooms, offices and homes with wild abandon!



Lab mice are usually albino:



The natural colouring, sometimes called agouti (though an agouti is actually a capybara-like rodent from Brazil) is the same dull-brownish colour of most Caucasian people's hair. However the folks from L'Oréal have come up with a trendy range of variations for human and mouse.



Until the hamster arrived on the pet market in the mid 20th century, mice were very common and popular pets and were kept in conditions as cramped and unsuitable as biscuit tins and school desks. Some mice get tame enough to do tricks:



Baby mice are of course "tiny and cute" ~ it's not easy to get pictures of suckling young ~ unless the mother's ANAESTHETIZED as in this shot!



SURFING MICE
An Australian named Shane Willmott taught his pet mouse collection to surf ~ for real ~ at the Queensland seaside. Here goes!



9 comments:

Janice Seagraves said...

Mice are cute unless you see them scurring across your floor.

Janice~

Janice Seagraves said...

Mice are cute unless you see them scurring across your floor.

Janice~

Puss-in-Boots said...

Right, I'm keeping away from the beach if the mice and their longboards are taking it over...

Poor little things, especially the ones that wiped out. Just as well it was a beach with small waves...they'd be drowned rats otherwises....(smirk).

Akelamalu said...

If a mouse moved into my house I'd have to move out! :0

Syd said...

I like mice as long as they don't inhabit my house. I have to admit that the suckling mouse photo was really cute.

Gledwood said...

JANICE: too true!

PUSSINBOOTS: they look like drowned rats, don't they..?!? Also don't you think they'll get itchy, with all that salt in their coats, poor swines...

AKELAMALU: I once lived with 100s! Baby Itchy Roborovski escaped for 2 or 3 days and I found her under my wardrobe, where I hadn't bothered to look bc I knew mice lived under there... and there she was cavorting with them merrily as Father Christmas on Boxing Day!

SYD: I know... and you can't normally get pictures of mice like that, no matter how tame ...

Vincent said...

Hey Gledy, how ya goin?

I think I have a family of these in my Amsterdam ceiling. As soon as I see one I will bring in the traps...

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Anonymous said...

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I WANT OFF METHADONE AS QUICK AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!

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"Wir, Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo" by "Christiane F", memoir of a teenage heroin addict and prostitute, was a massive bestseller in Europe and is now a set text in German schools. Bahnhoff Zoo was, until recently, Berlin's central railway station. A kind of equivalent (in more ways than one) to London's King's Cross... Of course my local library doesn't have it. So I'm going to have to order it through a bookshop and plough through the text in German. I asked my druggieworker Maple Syrup, who is Italiana how she learned English and she said reading books is the best way. CHRISTIANE F: TRAILER You can watch the entire 120-min movie in 12 parts at my Random blog. Every section EXCEPT part one is subtitled in English (sorry: but if you skip past you still get the gist) ~ to watch it all click HERE.

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Drugs Videos

Most of these come from my Random blog, which is an electronic scrapbook of stuff I thought I might like to view at some time or other. For those who want to view stuff on drugs I've collected the very best links here. Unless otherwise stated these are full-length features, usually an hour or more.

If you have a slow connexion and are unused to viewing multiscreen films on Youtube here's what to do: click the first one and play on mute, stopping and starting as it does. Then, when it's done, click on Repeat Play and you get the full entertainment without interruption. While you watch screen one, do the same to screens 2, 3 and so on. So as each bit finishes, the next part's ready and waiting.

Mexican Black Tar Heroin: "Dark End"

Khun Sa, whose name meant Prince Prosperous, had been, before his death in the mid 2000s, the world's biggest dealer in China White Heroin: "Lord of the Golden Triangle"

In-depth portrait of the Afghan heroin trade at its very height. Includes heroin-lab bust. "Afghanistan's Fateful Harvest"

Classic miniseries whose title became a catchphrase for the misery of life in East Asian prison. Nicole Kidman plays a privileged middle-class girl set up to mule heroin through Thai customs with the inevitable consequences. This is so long it had to be posted in two parts. "Bangkok Hilton 1" (first 2 hours or so); "Bangkok Hilton 2" (last couple of hours).

Short film: from tapwater-clear H4 in the USA to murky black Afghan brown in Norway: "Heroin Addicts Speak"

Before his untimely death this guy kept a video diary. Here's the hour-long highlights as broadcast on BBC TV: "Ben: Diary of a Heroin Addict". Thanks to Noah for the original link.

Some of the most entertaining scenes from Britain's top soap (as much for the poor research as anything else). Not even Phil Mitchell would go from nought to multi-hundred pound binges this fast: "Phil Mitchell on Crack" (just over 5 minutes).

Scientist lady shows us how to cook up gear: "How Much Citric?" Lucky cow: her brown is 70% purity! Oddly we never see her actually do her hit... maybe she got camera shy...

And lastly:

German documentary following a life from teenage addiction to untimely death before the age of 30. The decline in this girl's appearance is truly shocking. "Süchtig: Protokoll einer Hilflosigkeit". Sorry no subtitles; this is here for anyone learning German who's after practice material a little more gripping than Lindenstraße!































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