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I used to take heroin at every opportunity, for over 10 years, now I just take methadone which supposedly "stabilizes" me though I feel more destabilized than ever before despite having been relatively well behaved since late November/early December 2010... and VERY ANGRY about this when I let it get to me so I try not to.

I was told by a mental health nurse that my heroin addiction was "self medication" for a mood disorder that has recently become severe enough to cause psychotic episodes. As well as methadone I take antipsychotics daily. Despite my problems I consider myself a very sane person. My priority is to attain stability. I go to Narcotics Anonymous because I "want what they have" ~ Serenity.

My old blog used to say "candid confessions of a heroin and crack cocaine addict" how come that one comes up when I google "heroin blog" and not this one. THIS IS MY BLOG. I don't flatter myself that every reader knows everything about me and follows closely every single word every day which is why I repeat myself. Most of that is for your benefit not mine.

This is my own private diary, my journal. It is aimed at impressing no-one. It is kept for my own benefit to show where I have been and hopefully to put off somebody somewhere from ever getting into the awful mess I did and still cannot crawl out of. Despite no drugs. I still drink, I'm currently working on reducing my alcohol intake to zero.

If you have something to say you are welcome to comment. Frankness I can handle. Timewasters should try their own suggestions on themselves before wasting time thinking of ME.

PS After years of waxing and waning "mental" symptoms that made me think I had depression and possibly mild bipolar I now have found out I'm schizoaffective. My mood has been constantly "cycling" since December 2010. Mostly towards mania (an excited non-druggy "high"). For me, schizoaffective means bipolar with (sometimes severe)
mania and flashes of depression (occasionally severe) with bits of schizophrenia chucked on top. You could see it as bipolar manic-depression with sparkly knobs on ... I'm on antipsychotic pills but currently no mood stabilizer. I quite enjoy being a bit manic it gives the feelings of confidence and excitement people say they use cocaine for. But this is natural and it's free, so I don't see my "illness" as a downer. It does, however, make life exceedingly hard to engage with...

PPS The "elevated mood" is long gone. Now I'm depressed. Forget any ideas of "happiness" I have given up heroin and want OFF methadone as quick as humanly possible. I'm fed up of being a drug addict. Sick to death of it. I wanna be CLEAN!!!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Friday, September 25, 2009

Multimillion-Pound Anglo Saxon Treasure Find!


THE biggest-ever hard of Anglo-Saxon gold has been found in a farm field ~ by a bloke using an old metal detector bought for £2.50 at a car boot sale.

The collection of gleaming artefacts ~ thought to have belonged to 7th-Century royalty ~ is worth MILLIONS.

Containing around 5kg of gold {from Byzantium} and 2.5kg of silver {including Sri Lankan garnets}, it is made up of around 1,500 gem-encrusted items including parts of swords, helmets, strips of precious metal and biblical inscriptions and trinkets believed to be trophies taken after battles. The hoard ~ officially declared teasure by a coroner yesterday ~ was found by Terry Herbert, 55, just under the surface of a ploughed field in Brownhills, West Mids.

He said: "Imagine you're at home and somebody keeps putting money through your letterbox. That's what it was like.

"As soon as I closed my eyes I was seeing gold patterns. I didn't think it was ever going to end. I just kept on thinking of what I might find the next day."

The collection ~ dubbed the Staffordshire Hoard ~ eclipses the famous Sutton Hoo find of 1939, when 1.7kg of gold was dug up from an Anglo-Saxon burial ground near Woodbridge, Suffolk.

Eager archaeologists moved in after Terry's initial discovery to help uncover the entire haul.

It may take more than a year to value and experts will probably argue about its origins for decades.

One of the most intriguing items is a strip of gold bearing a warlike Latin inscription from the Old Testament.

It translates as "Rise up, O Lord, and may thy enemies be dispersed and those who hate thee be driven from thy face."

Under a 1996 law, owndership of such a find switches to the State once it is declared treasure.

But there is likely to be a substantial reward shared between Terry ~ who lives on disability benefits with his three cats ~ and farm owner Fred Johnson.

Mr Johnson said: "We've had eight people from a metal detector club searching the land over the years. They must be kicking themselves because they couldn't find a thing."

Three bodies want to acquire the treasure once it is valued ~ the Potteries Museum and Art Gallery in Stoke-on-Trent, Birmingham Museum Art Gallery and Staffordshire County Council.

Man Strikes Gold with Record Haul Report from Yesterday's Sun

Daily Mirror Saxon Hoard report ...


Ignore the first 45 seconds of some man gabbling to camera. Some people are in love with the idea of being internet TV stars. After about 40 seconds the first lobster comes onscreen. Such a disgusting piece of sea-vermin I have never seen and how on earth anyone can EAT such a stalk-eyed scavenger I've absolutely no idea ... But have a look; this is really entertaining ...

NEW FROM BILD: Putzfrau verjagt Räuber mit Dreckwasser

Berlin ~ Sauber! Mit ihrem Putzeimer had eine Reinigungskraft in einer Berliner Spielhalle zwei Räuber bejagt. Die Männer waren außerhalb der Öffnungszeiten in den Salon eingedrungen, hatten die 50-Jährige mit einem Messer bedroht und Geld gefordert. Doch die Frau reagierte geistesgegenwärtig: Sie nahm ihren Putzeimer und schüttete einem der Räuber das Dreckwasser über den Kopf. Daraufhin flüchteten beide Täter ohne Beute.

Cleaner Drives Out Robbers With Mopwater!

Berlin ~ clean! A cleaning lady dispatched two robbers from an amusement arcade with her bucket. The men broke in after closing time, threatened the 50-year-old with a knife and demanded money. The quickwitted cleaner grabbed her bucket and doused one robber over the head with dirty water. The pair fled with no loot.

PS MERLE ~ just for you. I couldn't find "Mother Shelling Peas"
as exhibited in the Tate Gallery, London, so this photo is just for you ...

... + as you can see, though I never found the London "Mother Shelling Peas" here's a painting from the Australian national collection by Frederick McCubbin entitled "Shelling Peas" ... it's in the National Gallerry, Melbourne ...


Syd said...

Gleds, that treasure is awesome. What a find. I like to think that so many more are still waiting to be unearthed.

Jeannie said...

My husband told me about the treasure last night. I think it must be amazing to live in a country with such history. The most I'm likely to find around here is an arrowhead and that's pretty unlikely.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

I am so glad some poor sod found the treasure. Hooray for him!

Have a great weekend.

Love you, SB.

Welshcakes Limoncello said...

I hope Terry and the farmer get some reward money soon!

Vincent said...

Good karma for the cleaning lady :-)

Baino said...

Quite a catch . . beautiful stuff and rather nice to know that this sort of thing is around. As for the wanky American, I'm very glad he didn't take those rubber bands off!

Nicole said...

Hi Gled! Just stopping by to say hello. I'm catching up on a lot of posts. Was in Sydney for a few days and got caught in that mad sand storm. Back in Adelaide now and off to Kuala Lumpur on the 10th, Amsterdam on the 13th and Ljubljana on the 16th. Hope you're doing okay and know that I'm always reading even if I don't often have the time to comment :)

Akelamalu said...

Such a fabulous and fascinating find.



Heroin Shortage: News

If you are looking for the British Heroin Drought post, click here; the latest word is in the comments.

Christiane F

"Wir, Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo" by "Christiane F", memoir of a teenage heroin addict and prostitute, was a massive bestseller in Europe and is now a set text in German schools. Bahnhoff Zoo was, until recently, Berlin's central railway station. A kind of equivalent (in more ways than one) to London's King's Cross... Of course my local library doesn't have it. So I'm going to have to order it through a bookshop and plough through the text in German. I asked my druggieworker Maple Syrup, who is Italiana how she learned English and she said reading books is the best way. CHRISTIANE F: TRAILER You can watch the entire 120-min movie in 12 parts at my Random blog. Every section EXCEPT part one is subtitled in English (sorry: but if you skip past you still get the gist) ~ to watch it all click HERE.

To See Gledwood's Entire Blog...

DID you find my blog via a Google or other search? Are you stuck on a post dated some time ago? Do you want to read Gledwood Volume 2 right from "the top" ~ ie from today?
If so click here and you'll get to the most recent post immediately!

Drugs Videos

Most of these come from my Random blog, which is an electronic scrapbook of stuff I thought I might like to view at some time or other. For those who want to view stuff on drugs I've collected the very best links here. Unless otherwise stated these are full-length features, usually an hour or more.

If you have a slow connexion and are unused to viewing multiscreen films on Youtube here's what to do: click the first one and play on mute, stopping and starting as it does. Then, when it's done, click on Repeat Play and you get the full entertainment without interruption. While you watch screen one, do the same to screens 2, 3 and so on. So as each bit finishes, the next part's ready and waiting.

Mexican Black Tar Heroin: "Dark End"

Khun Sa, whose name meant Prince Prosperous, had been, before his death in the mid 2000s, the world's biggest dealer in China White Heroin: "Lord of the Golden Triangle"

In-depth portrait of the Afghan heroin trade at its very height. Includes heroin-lab bust. "Afghanistan's Fateful Harvest"

Classic miniseries whose title became a catchphrase for the misery of life in East Asian prison. Nicole Kidman plays a privileged middle-class girl set up to mule heroin through Thai customs with the inevitable consequences. This is so long it had to be posted in two parts. "Bangkok Hilton 1" (first 2 hours or so); "Bangkok Hilton 2" (last couple of hours).

Short film: from tapwater-clear H4 in the USA to murky black Afghan brown in Norway: "Heroin Addicts Speak"

Before his untimely death this guy kept a video diary. Here's the hour-long highlights as broadcast on BBC TV: "Ben: Diary of a Heroin Addict". Thanks to Noah for the original link.

Some of the most entertaining scenes from Britain's top soap (as much for the poor research as anything else). Not even Phil Mitchell would go from nought to multi-hundred pound binges this fast: "Phil Mitchell on Crack" (just over 5 minutes).

Scientist lady shows us how to cook up gear: "How Much Citric?" Lucky cow: her brown is 70% purity! Oddly we never see her actually do her hit... maybe she got camera shy...

And lastly:

German documentary following a life from teenage addiction to untimely death before the age of 30. The decline in this girl's appearance is truly shocking. "Süchtig: Protokoll einer Hilflosigkeit". Sorry no subtitles; this is here for anyone learning German who's after practice material a little more gripping than Lindenstraße!

Nosey Quiz! Have you ever heard voices when you weren't high on drugs?

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