OKAY I CONFESS, my life is going nowhere and I know it and I have no career plans apart from jokey ones that make everybody laugh.
I know I exasperate people by not changing. This blog never has been a cry for help, nor is it meant to be even a document of change (though if and when I do change, that's what the blog will become also). All it was ever meant to give was an insight into my life as an addict of hard drugs. And to draw attention to the fact that addiction can happen to anybody. There's nothing special about being an addict. If I'm "special" in any way it's most definitely despite my addiction -- not because of it.
All I have done today with any enthusiasm is sleep. That's because I could not sleep properly at night. And reluctantly did the bare minimum chores or tasks I had to. And made it to 7pm without major incident.
So much stuff I haven't told you. I'm working on at least making a list of it all. Then I can get round to organizing day-by-day letting you know.
It was Christmas eve in a war zone - I just about managed to rise this morning but shining is still a long way off. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I had my usual stress dream last night....
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