YES, this is going to be very short because I'm singularly uninspired. Or to put it another way, yes I did (some of) my "proactive" day. Then fell into a deep sleep. O hang on there was MY DREAM!!
Gotta tell yous all my dream. When I was little we used to go to this huge swimming pool on a weekly basis. My Mum forced me into swimming lessons. I think this was bc my Dad always hated swimming due to a childhood getting pushed into pool experience. And she was determined that I should not be like this. So I spent (what felt like) hours in this pool weeping in the water. Of course, in chlorinated water no-one can see your tears. Oddly after these traumatic swimming lessons I did get to enjoy swimming. But I never ever did the proper strokes as taught.
Anyhow, this pool had a 12.5' deep end with three diving boards. The top one being merely a platform. Only once do I remember jumping off the top. It was like a suicide leap. I went so far down in the water.
The other thing dreamlike about the swimming pool was that if you had goggles on and dove down under the water in the 6' deep area there was this shelf going down to the 12'6" area. I remember trying to swim down it like a shark but obviously I couldn't hold my breath THAT long so had to come up. And nobody hit me on the head, I didn't venture into the middle of the diving area. I wasn't that stupid.
Anyway my dream was very simple, I was trying to climb the ladders to the top board (okay, platform) at this swimming pool and could not quite make it. I trod on something that felt like a cricket ball. And woke up with agonizing cramp in the middle of my foot. As if I'd been trying to pick up said ball in my sleep and my foot had frozen.
Well I'm not sure what this is relevant to really... but there you have it. The only people who've been disturbing my sleep lately are drug dealers. But they don't bother me because I don't pick up the phone. (Usually I couldn't find it in time anyway.)
So I'm saved!
On a temporary basis.
From them? Or from myself.
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