AWW! WHAT can I talk about? My head is done in having posted about "depression" ~ just thinking about it makes it worse. I know it's for real because as well as feeling peed off all the time I've been sleeping ridiculously long amounts of time.
It's not all down and doom though. The "invigilator" or whatever he calls himself ~ the guy in charge of yesterday's group ~ said I made a most profound statement when I piped up my Former Philosophy of Life (before I got sucked into junkiehood) ~ this was that you cannot change everything in life, can't necessarily avoid it, whatever you do, or defeat it. What you can change is your attitude to things ~ and THAT makes a massive difference.
If I cannot think my way out of these pits, surely I should be able to ACT my way out of them (that is by actions not pretence). Putting drugs well and truly behind me would be a good start. But that's a massive one. So you see I'm shot in the foot before I start because my Task To Do is far too huge.
I think that's why NA say "just for today" ~ ie live your life a day at a time. Sometimes the best way of not getting scared is just not to look down. Sometimes NOT seeing the bigger picture may actually help. Then perhaps afterwards we can marvel at the feats and accomplishments we might achieve.
I heard this playing over Morrisons' PA and thought "that sounds like Madonna, but it's good"...
PS: CAN ANYONE GUESS what's the famous mountain illustrated?
Things I cooked yesterday - Maple and pecan gluten-free cookies - slight fail on the texture but tasted nice and conkers. I still haven't decided what I'm going to do with the conkers...
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