TONKIE EARS MY MANIC HOUSEMOUSE has returned. Scuttling amongst my possessions most of last night and rustling merrily away... Somewhere, deep under my bed, he found something particularly crinkly and loud to amuse him. Then he found something to eat and was nibbling voraciously away until well past sunrise. At last I saw him emerge, perky-eared and beady-eyed at dawn. He pinged off in the direction of the kitchen and hasn't been seen since. Probably he took his mousey anti-manic pills and has been luxuriating in a deep furry sleep ...
I've discovered some lookeylikey pictures of the tiny Tonkie Ears. Isn't he tiny and cute?I've had enough of posting my confused feelings surrounding not using drugs, at least for now. I've only used gear once in the past week. It barely does anything when I do use it. While I cannot convince myself that using opiates is inherently "wrong" I do think it's wrong for me. For all the "medicating" I may (arguably) have done to myself, it's my belief that heroin puts a lid on happiness at best (hence the mood-stabilization aspect). At worst it leaves those enslaved to it in misery and squalor. And though there are treatments licensed and used for a minority in this country, and though they might have helped me a great deal if only they'd been made available, I'm more interested in getting off all opiates altogether than lobbying for better maintenance therapy which will only prolong my addiction. I don't see methadone dependency as any better than heroin addiction. I'm fretting already that my new clinic won't be willing to cut down my script steeply enough. I want a 1mg a day reduction ideally. I don't see that I'd feel a single milligram a day when I'm still on over a hundred. As my old pharmacist pointed out, you could spill one milligram and not notice it. So it's OFF OFF OFF for me.
The summer has been beautiful here in London. Sun is shining. The weather is sweet. It's high, high summer, like a Caribbean spring ... I'm thinking of investing in some of those self-tinting Reactions lenses. Only £70 for another pair of glasses. I could easily have blown that on gear, so what's the big deal..?
EastEnders' Cindy Beale is in Coronation Street (big news). I'm still at a dead loss over what to chuck out and what to keep in this Great Clearout of mine... Stuff is lying everywhere. I'm dreading moving house, yet I really want to go. Up up and AWAY as soon as humanly possible. Those are my goals. 100% drug-free and living somewhere nice. Then I can do something ... something amazing with my life. WATCH OUT CRUEL WORLD. You will pay for what you've done to me!!(My memoirs; Valerie's memoirs... bookshops of the world will be groaning in misery wishing Gledwood was still on heroin and too mentally impaired to pen two coherent words together..!)
I hope y'all had a cheery cherry bakewell of a weekend...
Driving on drugs: methadone (with links to most other drugs).
8 comments:
Hope yours is shaping up well too Gleds. Back to work this morning after I get my tyre repaired. I drove up to the shops with a completely flat one and wondered why things felt bumpy. Think I'm turning blonde! As for the mouse? Ugh. I know they look cute but they poo and wee everywhere.
Yeah mice are permanently incontinent, so I heard!
And you said the glasses were dodgy yesterday. I think the haircut looks like a rug...
Hi Gleds, I've been having a break from blogging, thought I'd come over and take a look at Tonkie Ears but now I'm interested in who Cindy Beale is with in Coro - only the tops of their heads have loaded and I'm guessing Peter Barlow????
Our cat caught a mouse but left it alive sitting by our front door. Daughter and I bought a cage and food for it, only to have the little thing die on us a few hours later.
Janice~
Bimbimbie: I was wondering where you got to... Do they watch Corrie in Australia? I heard it's quite popular in Canada. I wondered for years why whenever somebody went away from Weatherfield for a couple of years Canada seemed to be the destination ~ I now know why... yeah I think that's Peter Barlow. No idea what their connexion is. I only watched the 1st 2 episodes after she appeared, then rapidly got bored of it. Only soap I watch is EastEnders and one called Doctors that comes on after the One O'Clock News....
Janice: our cat once brought home an entire nest of baby birds; that was like something out of a horror film... Did you know rodents live an average of twice as long in captivity as in the wild and I'm not surprised being as just about everything seems to "predate" them :-(
I,m so pleased that mouse has imposed himself on you . . think its just what u needed. i know U dint want to get more robos in case you get carted off or even cart yourself off,
but u dont have the worry with tonkie ears, he will survive. Perfect. I felt a bit worried for the tiny brown mouse on your photo when I noticed he sitting on someone wearing a"lab-coat" with extremely hygenic looking hands & nails (maybe a scientist)
trying to look like he gently holding the mouses tail . .
I started to take some photos of the "white pups" tonight and i dropped my sons camera :-( o, he says i've broken he screen, in that it still works,but u gotta guess what u taking the photo of (roughly) hmmmm. I gotta take them soon as they just turning beige with a streak of grey down the back. but their faces are totally white (they look like seal pups) I gonna have to keep at least two.
So hope you still feeling half way good?
and taking some care
with love
di
I can't get into Facebook. I'll report back soon as it lets me in. Bloody computers!
Yeah! I just got in. How cuuuuuute!!
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