I used to take heroin at every opportunity, for over 10 years, now I just take methadone which supposedly "stabilizes" me though I feel more destabilized than ever before despite having been relatively well behaved since late November/early December 2010... and VERY ANGRY about this when I let it get to me so I try not to.
I was told by a mental health nurse that my heroin addiction was "self medication" for a mood disorder that has recently become severe enough to cause psychotic episodes. As well as methadone I take antipsychotics daily. Despite my problems I consider myself a very sane person. My priority is to attain stability. I go to Narcotics Anonymous because I "want what they have" ~ Serenity.
My old blog used to say "candid confessions of a heroin and crack cocaine addict" how come that one comes up when I google "heroin blog" and not this one. THIS IS MY BLOG. I don't flatter myself that every reader knows everything about me and follows closely every single word every day which is why I repeat myself. Most of that is for your benefit not mine.
This is my own private diary, my journal. It is aimed at impressing no-one. It is kept for my own benefit to show where I have been and hopefully to put off somebody somewhere from ever getting into the awful mess I did and still cannot crawl out of. Despite no drugs. I still drink, I'm currently working on reducing my alcohol intake to zero.
If you have something to say you are welcome to comment. Frankness I can handle. Timewasters should try their own suggestions on themselves before wasting time thinking of ME.
PS After years of waxing and waning "mental" symptoms that made me think I had depression and possibly mild bipolar I now have found out I'm schizoaffective. My mood has been constantly "cycling" since December 2010. Mostly towards mania (an excited non-druggy "high"). For me, schizoaffective means bipolar with (sometimes severe) mania and flashes of depression (occasionally severe) with bits of schizophrenia chucked on top. You could see it as bipolar manic-depression with sparkly knobs on ... I'm on antipsychotic pills but currently no mood stabilizer. I quite enjoy being a bit manic it gives the feelings of confidence and excitement people say they use cocaine for. But this is natural and it's free, so I don't see my "illness" as a downer. It does, however, make life exceedingly hard to engage with...
PPS The "elevated mood" is long gone. Now I'm depressed. Forget any ideas of "happiness" I have given up heroin and want OFF methadone as quick as humanly possible. I'm fed up of being a drug addict. Sick to death of it. I wanna be CLEAN!!!
Attack of the Furry Entertainers!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Have a Furry Weekend Y'all!
YES... A FURRY WEEKEND. My hammies have been lying in bed, like little birdies in a nest together (three little gremlin faces peer up at me whenever I speak to them). Itchy has kept her pouches continuously packed with the new hamster food I put out on Thursday, so she wanders around looking like a furry cobra head, which is faintly ridiculous. Specially for Lime, the illustration is a pair of European harvest mice (apparently American ones are bigger and different), these being called micromys minutus (doncha just luurve that Latin~?!?) They live up corn stalks where they make weaver-bird-style nests for their chirrupping furry babbies (which are born blind and naked, like mini baked beans with paws...).
Now on to drugs, but in a more "clean" way... as I mentioned (and I'm sure this is the cause, though I'd imagine the addicts in London would get through that much in not much more than a week...) I believe the current glitch in the heroin market, which seems to be threatening to become a drought, is down to a 150kg seizure made in Forest Gate early last December... Low quality gear is reportedly everywhere (when I have used I've managed to avoid it, mainly by going to one person who's still got a nice lot)... a vast number of the dealers are switched off because, unable to pick up anything worthwhile they'd rather simply stop trading. As I told myself if or rather when this happened again I would give up rather than stress about what I buy/when/how much/from who/what/why/whatever. Life has better things to offer than worrying about heroin, which I'm so fed up of anyhow... so I'm seizing my chance...
PS I can smell the gear off that photo... but why on earth someone's seemingly tried to smoke it off the spoon I've no idea...
PPS I WAS JUST considering this: how can it be a "success" when drugs are taken off the streets only for their price to rise ~ resulting in more crime ~ and drug-dealing criminals to add dangerous adulterants that could kill the drug-using criminals... what a crazy world...
PPS Read how mad these droughts get from this from earlier this year when we did have a drought...
PPPS FROM THE SIDEBAR: HERE's Pablo the "drugs dog"... made for "Talk To Frank" ~ the UK National Drugs Helpline, this is the tv commercial "There's a Darker Side to Coke"...
Success has different forms. You, for instance, are doubly motivated to get clean. You want to for yourself, but also because the supply isn't stable or dependable anyway. You might not be the only one.
I just find it strange that the cops have such a hard time shutting things down when for instance, I, knowing nothing about drugs, could probably score whatever I wanted in about half an hour through people who know people. I wouldn't think it would take long to find out who is supplying them and on back, if i were motivated in that direction. I somehow think that the war against drugs is a lot of talk and little action - maybe action only if someone doesn't get paid off. I'm a little cynical.
You asked about the elevated tent sites on the photo on my blog. It indeed increases the comfort of camping especially when it rains. Tent floods in the middle of the night are not fun. Plus the Park Service wants to control where people set-up tents so as to avoid crushing all of the landscape in the camping area. Of course not all camp sites in Rocky are so posh.
Looks like you're ready to scale the addiction mountain again. I guess first camp is reached when you are 'done' only. May you have good climbing weather. The pikas are waiting for your arrival.
I hated it too, until I stopped doing dope for a week or two. Then any kindof high was sounding very very good. So, when I'm not doing h, i make due with pot, or whatever else less addictive drug i can find to control the craving.
Thinking about you! It's interesting that you mentioned you could smell the photo...my daughter use to say the same thing...she could smell it if she thought about it. The brain is definitely strange.
Your PPS- Its called "Success" by the police because they confiscate vehicles, cash, and property...yeah crazy world.
Those are the cutest hamsters. It's funny what you said about American hamsters being bigger. I say that because I used to live in Scotland and England and it was so funny when I realized how people thought everything was bigger in America. LOL Unfortunately it's true most of the time. Bigger isn't better.
MDA: I was going to hammer on about the "smell" saying it's why I don't want to switch back to smoking it, which is how I started. Smoking takes ages (reinforcing the addiction) and has strong taste/smell associations ~ further reinforcing the addiction!! That's my "excuse"...
As for success... did you know Khun Sa offered to sell an entire year's opium production of 3000 tonnes to the American DEA ~ ie "best of both worlds" ~ he'd get his money for the Shan people, heroin would stay off the streets. But no the DEA would not do it. It would involve rejiggling far too many budgets... (but they can afford to save toppling banks with multiple $$$billions$$$...
Chunks of Reality: harvest mice but yes probably true!!
Bimbimbie: I once saw newborn baby mice who looked just like that...
Howdy G. The bust you mentioned would have absolutely no effect what-so-ever. The estimated volume seized in drug busts is less than 10% of the total shipped. A heroin drought is because of bigger issues like a change of direction for drug lords or a war.
One of the strategies of drug control is to reduce supply and therefore increase prices. The idea is that it will turn people to treatment because they can't afford their drugs. It actually works but like all price driven strategies it ignores those who don't stop. What they forget is the supply and demand equation. Demand is fairly static so supply will always eventually meet the demand. If prices are too high in the interim, crime rises ... simple.
What part of London are from. You see, my mum is a traveling nurse, and we had planned on going to the UK, in Sept. when her contract is up here in Hawaii. She looked into going to London, and found that she needs to get her BA before she can practice as a nurse in the UK. So instead of the UK, we will be moving to New York City, in the states. While in New York my mum plans on getting her BA, so we can move to the UK. I really want to move to the UK. Anywhere in the UK is fine. In my mind Everyone from the UK is smarter, and listen to better music than us stupid Americans. I'm sure, or postive when I get their I will be disapointed. I've built up your country so much in my head, that I can only be let down. Humans are human no matter where they live. Still in my heart of hearts, I KNOW that my soul mate is from somewhere in England, perhaps Scotland, really he or she is from somewhere in the UK. I need to get there and find him or her. Plus the Brits have a much better vocabulary than us Americans. This comment has nothing to do with the blog you've posted. How did you know about this bust in Forest whatever? Was it in the BBC news, or did you find out thru your dealer(s)? So you want to get clean. I of cource hope you do. I hope that when you get there you are happy, and satisfied with life...your life. I should have just emailed you, but I don't have your email address, and well I'm too stupid and lazy to figure out how to use that icon on the bottom of every blog post that seems to be where I need to click to send you an email. Anyway, I think your well writen, and most likely well spoken. You seem to be witty also. I like you. Sincerly like you. Sorry for my spelling errors.
I WANT OFF METHADONE AS QUICK AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!
METHADONE ~ A FATE WORSE THAN DEATH
Heroin Shortage: News
If you are looking for the British Heroin Drought post, click here; the latest word is in the comments.
Christiane F
"Wir, Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo" by "Christiane F", memoir of a teenage heroin addict and prostitute, was a massive bestseller in Europe and is now a set text in German schools.
Bahnhoff Zoo was, until recently, Berlin's central railway station. A kind of equivalent (in more ways than one) to London's King's Cross...
Of course my local library doesn't have it. So I'm going to have to order it through a bookshop and plough through the text in German. I asked my druggieworker Maple Syrup, who is Italiana how she learned English and she said reading books is the best way.CHRISTIANE F:
TRAILER
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Drugs Videos
Most of these come from my Random blog, which is an electronic scrapbook of stuff I thought I might like to view at some time or other. For those who want to view stuff on drugs I've collected the very best links here. Unless otherwise stated these are full-length features, usually an hour or more.
If you have a slow connexion and are unused to viewing multiscreen films on Youtube here's what to do: click the first one and play on mute, stopping and starting as it does. Then, when it's done, click on Repeat Play and you get the full entertainment without interruption. While you watch screen one, do the same to screens 2, 3 and so on. So as each bit finishes, the next part's ready and waiting.
Khun Sa, whose name meant Prince Prosperous, had been, before his death in the mid 2000s, the world's biggest dealer in China White Heroin: "Lord of the Golden Triangle"
In-depth portrait of the Afghan heroin trade at its very height. Includes heroin-lab bust. "Afghanistan's Fateful Harvest"
Classic miniseries whose title became a catchphrase for the misery of life in East Asian prison. Nicole Kidman plays a privileged middle-class girl set up to mule heroin through Thai customs with the inevitable consequences. This is so long it had to be posted in two parts. "Bangkok Hilton 1" (first 2 hours or so); "Bangkok Hilton 2" (last couple of hours).
Short film: from tapwater-clear H4 in the USA to murky black Afghan brown in Norway: "Heroin Addicts Speak"
Before his untimely death this guy kept a video diary. Here's the hour-long highlights as broadcast on BBC TV: "Ben: Diary of a Heroin Addict". Thanks to Noah for the original link.
Some of the most entertaining scenes from Britain's top soap (as much for the poor research as anything else). Not even Phil Mitchell would go from nought to multi-hundred pound binges this fast: "Phil Mitchell on Crack" (just over 5 minutes).
Scientist lady shows us how to cook up gear: "How Much Citric?" Lucky cow: her brown is 70% purity! Oddly we never see her actually do her hit... maybe she got camera shy...
And lastly:
German documentary following a life from teenage addiction to untimely death before the age of 30. The decline in this girl's appearance is truly shocking. "Süchtig: Protokoll einer Hilflosigkeit". Sorry no subtitles; this is here for anyone learning German who's after practice material a little more gripping than Lindenstraße!
Nosey Quiz! Have you ever heard voices when you weren't high on drugs?
Here's the 4-methylmethcathinone molecule. This is the "cocaine plus ecstasy"-style "legal high" I took that time and didn't even know what it was... After a brief but intense craze for meow, it was eventually banned in the UK in April 2010
If you wanna see what manic looks like, watch this. If this is the mood she stayed in all day she'd be moderately manic (severely manic is literally all over the place verging into complete incoherence)... I have been known to yell the same stuff over and over, which is why I like this:
Ferry Corsten remix. William Orbit performance. Samuel Barber's Adagio
DJ Seduction: Starlight August 1992
I love this style of music and WHY do kidz today call it OLD SCHOOL? MAKE ME FEEL ANCIENT WHY DONCHA! I really like that ting-ting-tong tune that comes into it about 3 mins in "release the spirit" yeah....! Respect goin' out LizzyD Yeah ;-)
Angelina Joelie: Crazy Chic
Girl Interrupted: best scenes
Mozart's Requiem Tranced Up
I like danced-up tunes now that I'm "OLD". Like this one... The actual name of the tune is "lacrimosa" which means sad. Which is weird it actually sounds uplifting. but there ya go:~~~~~~~~
Click herefor the Drought Post, news is in the comments.
Because there's more than 200 comments, look closely at the bottom of the form for for "Newer/Newest" - THAT is where you click to find most recent comments.
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The good, the bad, and the stupid
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The ward is in lockdown until Monday when the situation will be
re-assessed. No visitors. Big sigh.
As if that wasn't bad enough, this afternoon Wales ta...
HODGEPODGE FEB 20
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1. Many of our earliest presidents created words or expressions widely used
today. Teddy Roosevelt is credited with *mollycoddle, pack rat, frazzle*,
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AMID THE MADNESS
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The world appears to have gone mad, so let us pause and gaze upon something
that takes time, patience and art - from the Cicara Caffetteria in Modica:
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Blog Updates
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To all my faithful readers:
It's been a while since I posted a new essay. However, I still check and
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Blogging Break
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I'm taking a break from blogging, for two major reasons :a. I find it
hard to concentrate on chosen topics, while there's war and tragedy going
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Dying Independently.....
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I just finished working with a woman for the past 6 weeks, who was dying
from a vicious form of cancer.
I live in a small town, so sometimes I get a cal...
Just a Thought for the HBO Execs
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I want to rename Game of Thrones, “Two Crazy-Assed Bitches.” Mail me my
check, motherfuckers! Actually three crazy-assed bitches if you count
Sansa. The me...
Souls of the Goldhawk Road
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It was one of those tawdry summer evenings and all I could think about was
the heat. It was everywhere, stuffy and humid and crucifying even at that
late...
Yeah
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No, I am not returning, just updating out of boredom. Plus writing on my
phone sucks, so it won't be a long post.
Yep my book sucks, makes close to no mon...
The (complete) rainbowrain
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Today is the last time I'll post blog-photos from my work as tomorrow, the
last day of this blog is a Saturday. So you can enjoy this view one more
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Twelve Months
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I can't believe it's almost 12 months since I posted anything on my blog!
I confess I've been spending a lot of time on Facebook - I know you think
I'm a t...
Graphic Wisdom to Begin 2016
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*By three methods we may learn wisdom: *
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Obat Herbal Stroke Berat dan Ringan
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*Obat Herbal Stroke* - Penyakit ini terjadi karena peredaran darah didalam
organ otak mengalami penyumbatan atau gangguan. Penyakit Stroke ini adalah
adany...
Iboga- A Magic Bullet?
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Thoughts and random musings
I get the feeling, that this blog and therefore, my own thoughts and
behaviours are, to the average reader, quite controversi...
The People You Meet
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Not saying this is a come back of any type, but after farewelling my
darling friend Jeffrey today, I felt the overwhelming need to blog. Met a
weird Japan...
Despair and Dissolution
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I haven't written partly because I was confused by the new setup. Took me
ages just to get to my blog. Frustration.
Everyone can say "I told you so". Hate...
A long time coming....
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I cannot believe I have neglected this blog for so long.
Just to let you know I will be uploading a post in the next couple of days.
Things are good.
My hea...
Gone but never forgotten
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Hello everyone....
Saturday the 24th May would of been Merle's 80th birthday...
Unfortunately she is gone, but never forgotten...
I just thought I would...
Everything in it's place
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Yum.That people are reading this in Israel and Indonesia, as well as so
many other places around the world that I never would've expected is pretty
fuckin...
How to Negotiate With Used Cars Dealers
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Car traders have excellent discussing abilities. They know how to deal with
their clients with their methods and methods to make sure that they shop.
Amazi...
starry starry night…
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Ho Ho Ho! Hope everyone had a merry fucking Christmas and will enjoy a
drunken orgy of pleasure on New Years Eve. I had a nice Christmas Day with
Melinda(a...
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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.....I think the time has come to acknowledge that I'm not actually
blogging any more.....
PLUS
I'm off on Sunday for a Big Adventure Down Under, with L...
Drug Law Reform - NZ Show Australia How it's Done
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It seems that our New Zealand cousins are finally taking some much needed
action on drug law reform. Australia should take note of this and consider
caref...
Daze of Summer
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Her mentor is one of the most gentle people on the planet. He catches flies
in his hands and sets them free outside his studio, and he flicks
mosquitoes a...
Musings
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A week has passed since my last post and it's been a week of contrasts.
Right smack bang in the middle of week, Wednesday, was Australia Day, a
public holi...
Who buys CRACK without Brown ?
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See these F.cking dealers up here they cant get the brown sold cause its
shite so lots of people are just buying Whisky and im thinking to myself No
For Me...
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Would you trust someone who was never sure if they loved you?
I want to be held (or posses a large amount of drugs)
I want to be skinny and pretty
I want...
The Neighbour's Gun
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I remember those lazy summer nights. In my light, light dress, I would open
the window and gaze at the moon in the night. I would look and almost feel
th...
THIS is classic slice-of-life video; filmed from a sushibar conveyor belt in Japan. You don't need sound for this one (unless you speak Japanese...)
Never Mind The Balearics...
LOST WEEKENDS... Lost weeks... Lost lives...
THE SPANISH ISLE of Ibiza is the "spiritual home" of much British dance music...
Eva Cassidy: Autumn Leaves
I wonder if Autumn is as miserable your end as it is here..? This song wonderfully reinterpreted by Eva Cassidy (I think) brought tears to my eyes when I first heard it. See what you think ...
Christiane F
Christiane F
("Wir Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo")
Berlin has long been a centre of "alternative" living, attracting the artistic and dejected. And of course heroin rushes into such a void:
You can see the film in its entirety by clicking HERE.
These are my 3 roborovski hamsters!
(And now there is one...) Itchy, Bashful and Spherical... Itchy, the scruffy, dopey (and tamest one) died a few weeks ago. I was very ****** off (no swearing on this blog (or I'd be effing and blinding all the time...)). Spherical and Bashful were the remaining "Trotters" aka Hamsta MCs, Carrot Nose and Trotter Donkey ... until Trotterdonkey died and now poor Spherical Carrot Nose remains alone ...
What name should I give to my fictional slavering English mastiff hellhound..??
Name the Uncooth Doggie...
NOW I'M PUTTING UP A NEW POLL...My forthcoming fiction shall feature a giant, ill-tempered slavering hellhound of an English Mastiff who spends her time savaging pram wheels, dolls, etc; pulling soft toys apart... growling at houseguests, baying at the light fittings etc etc. She has a total personality change, however, when she gets "raped" down the park by a local rottweiler... leading to a howling, baying, snaggle-toothed litter of puppies!Anyway, which of these three names do you think fits best?(In alphabetical order)GwendolinaPansyTinkerbelle???Vote now ...!!
London Time
GMT (aka "Universal Standard Time"):
ahead of the Americas; behind everywhere else...
Trisch & Jen on the phone
Real life spooky phone call. Trisch Li is speaking to her friend Jen, who has a stalker sneaking round the side of her house. I Love the film exposure. I love the funky background. And I love Trisch. She had bipolar. She died. She left some amazing stuff behind ...You can see Trisch manic here.
Moby: Go
Anyone who was a Twin Peaks fan will know this tune: the in-sequence floaty tune played in-episode (not the theme tune) that made that tellyprog so dreamy.
This tune is something else:~~~~~~~
Future Sound of London: Papua New Guinea
THIS tune is transcendently beautiful.
Thank you to Lizzy who reminded me:~~~~~~~
The Orb: Little Fluffy Clouds (Danny Tengalia)
Archetypal triphead/herb-tokers' tune ...
Urban Shakedown: Some Justice
One of my all time favourite "hardcore" rave tunes. The "woman" singing "we live as one family" is actually a man speeded up. The primal line "Now eeeee-yeah-oh-eeeee-yeah we live as one family," sounded to me like the sun rising at psychedelic dawn. For a long time there was forever a part of me left from this 1991-1992 era, still out there, tripping in a certain corn-on-the-cob field at dawn...
Praga Khan: Injected with a Poison
Sums up what my attitude used to be and is once again to gear. That because, "There's a rainbow inside your mind ... Injected with a poison.... we don't need that any more."
Scott McKenzie: San Francisco
I really used to believe all this crap with all my heart. Peace and love and chemical dreams. If you've ever tripped out high upon higher and sublime upon sublime there is no way of bringing the beauty of the experience back with you... I once had a friend down who brought some cocaine. I did some lines and was soon stuck to the ceiling. I had tickets for a rave in south London. He was too wasted to go. So I had to negotiate an hour and a half nightbus ride all the way down. By Trafalgar Square I was eeing out on 2 pills as well and my eyes such massive discs I couldn't read the bus time tables and had to tell passers-by I'd "forgotten my reading glasses" (how embarrassing)... then I arrived around 3pm. DUR! Not pm (wasn't THAT late 3AM): though these pills didn't wear off till well after 11am which made them superstrong... anyhow... Security let me straight in I'd obviously taken all my drugs (indeed I had: felt like I was flying by this point)... first person I encountered was a middle-aged woman in a ball gown swaying back and forth in the foyer (Brixton Academy: a venue for 5000) I told her: "you are so cool". We subsequently made friends. Watching this video and seeing how stuck in the neverending moment of bliss some "flower kids" are I remember this lady having to tell me: "there's the party. Then the party's over. You have to accept that." But I never could. I wanted happiness to last for ever...
SCOTT MACKENZIE HAS GONE (copyright reasons)
HERE'S JOE BELTRAM 1990 ENERGY FLASH
Who is the superior writer? (From... in no particular order...)
Itchy's "Windy" Face
Not because she has the "farts" but because she "runs like the wind on a windy day" this is Itchy's look when she is nervous...
Bashful and Spherical look like this
(Itchy is a bit smaller)
Bashful's Lookie-Lykie
Hello you Tiny Tubby! Roborovskis are the tiniest of all hamsters, being a mere 5cm/2" fully grown... "Bashful" is pulling a bit of a grumpy face here; but hey!
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Doggie or Kittie?
You Are: 50% Dog, 50% Cat
You are a nice blend of cat and dog.
You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.
And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.
38 year-old guy, 6 blogs (the main one is gledwood vol 2 so go there for new postings: blogs are linked via my sidebars), I also have 3 video blogs. One mainly music vids, the other random "novelty" clips from Youtube/etc. The third is my Fabulous Celebrity Blog for fans of trash culture. Unfortunately addicted to drugs - yes it was my own fault but what can I do about it now? Addicted means trapped & can't stop. That's how addicted I am. But that's not ALL I blog about. Apart from drugs I love drink. Apart from drink I'm into little furry animals like Pingpong, my Chinese hamster, and my 3 roborovski hamsters: Itchy, Bashful and Spherical... and ... er, food. Lately there has been a drought of the substance that enslaved me for so long. Will I clean up? Only time will tell...
Fun, comforting, and friendly.
You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality.
People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.
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Success has different forms. You, for instance, are doubly motivated to get clean. You want to for yourself, but also because the supply isn't stable or dependable anyway. You might not be the only one.
I just find it strange that the cops have such a hard time shutting things down when for instance, I, knowing nothing about drugs, could probably score whatever I wanted in about half an hour through people who know people. I wouldn't think it would take long to find out who is supplying them and on back, if i were motivated in that direction. I somehow think that the war against drugs is a lot of talk and little action - maybe action only if someone doesn't get paid off. I'm a little cynical.
I sometimes don't think the police WANT to shut it down
yeah i'm using the drought as a kind of excuse-on-top thang...
I agree, one of the main problems with prohobition is more people die because with prohibintion, there's no quality monitoring.
Crazy.
If it means you stop using, long may the drought continue! :)
those are some awfully cute little corn critters there. thanks.
Crushed: Aye!
Akelamalu: Aye-aye!
Lime: Aye-aye-aye!!
You asked about the elevated tent sites on the photo on my blog. It indeed increases the comfort of camping especially when it rains. Tent floods in the middle of the night are not fun. Plus the Park Service wants to control where people set-up tents so as to avoid crushing all of the landscape in the camping area. Of course not all camp sites in Rocky are so posh.
Looks like you're ready to scale the addiction mountain again. I guess first camp is reached when you are 'done' only. May you have good climbing weather. The pikas are waiting for your arrival.
I hated it too, until I stopped doing dope for a week or two. Then any kindof high was sounding very very good.
So, when I'm not doing h, i make due with pot, or whatever else less addictive drug i can find to control the craving.
Hmmm, getting clean is coming closer, Gleds. Good luck with it all.
Cute little furries on the wheat stalk.
Thinking about you! It's interesting that you mentioned you could smell the photo...my daughter use to say the same thing...she could smell it if she thought about it. The brain is definitely strange.
Your PPS- Its called "Success" by the police because they confiscate vehicles, cash, and property...yeah crazy world.
Those are the cutest hamsters. It's funny what you said about American hamsters being bigger. I say that because I used to live in Scotland and England and it was so funny when I realized how people thought everything was bigger in America. LOL Unfortunately it's true most of the time. Bigger isn't better.
Thanks for stopping by my blog.
Hi Gleds, love that mental image of mini baked beans with paws ... too cute. Smiles*!*
Molson: ~~only in America would they have luxury mattresses pinned to the woodland floor..!
I hope there are pikas on descent from Mount Addiction ~ haha!!
Cody: I wish I could find something else that fitted. I tried it with drink and just ended up turning into an alcoholic!!!
Puss-in-Boots: aren't they tiny....
MDA: I was going to hammer on about the "smell" saying it's why I don't want to switch back to smoking it, which is how I started. Smoking takes ages (reinforcing the addiction) and has strong taste/smell associations ~ further reinforcing the addiction!! That's my "excuse"...
As for success... did you know Khun Sa offered to sell an entire year's opium production of 3000 tonnes to the American DEA ~ ie "best of both worlds" ~ he'd get his money for the Shan people, heroin would stay off the streets. But no the DEA would not do it. It would involve rejiggling far too many budgets... (but they can afford to save toppling banks with multiple $$$billions$$$...
Chunks of Reality: harvest mice but yes probably true!!
Bimbimbie: I once saw newborn baby mice who looked just like that...
Howdy G.
The bust you mentioned would have absolutely no effect what-so-ever. The estimated volume seized in drug busts is less than 10% of the total shipped. A heroin drought is because of bigger issues like a change of direction for drug lords or a war.
One of the strategies of drug control is to reduce supply and therefore increase prices. The idea is that it will turn people to treatment because they can't afford their drugs. It actually works but like all price driven strategies it ignores those who don't stop. What they forget is the supply and demand equation. Demand is fairly static so supply will always eventually meet the demand. If prices are too high in the interim, crime rises ... simple.
Love the hammies BTW.
What part of London are from. You see, my mum is a traveling nurse, and we had planned on going to the UK, in Sept. when her contract is up here in Hawaii.
She looked into going to London, and found that she needs to get her BA before she can practice as a nurse in the UK. So instead of the UK, we will be moving to New York City, in the states.
While in New York my mum plans on getting her BA, so we can move to the UK.
I really want to move to the UK. Anywhere in the UK is fine. In my mind Everyone from the UK is smarter, and listen to better music than us stupid Americans. I'm sure, or postive when I get their I will be disapointed. I've built up your country so much in my head, that I can only be let down. Humans are human no matter where they live. Still in my heart of hearts, I KNOW that my soul mate is from somewhere in England, perhaps Scotland, really he or she is from somewhere in the UK. I need to get there and find him or her.
Plus the Brits have a much better vocabulary than us Americans.
This comment has nothing to do with the blog you've posted.
How did you know about this bust in Forest whatever? Was it in the BBC news, or did you find out thru your dealer(s)?
So you want to get clean. I of cource hope you do. I hope that when you get there you are happy, and satisfied with life...your life.
I should have just emailed you, but I don't have your email address, and well I'm too stupid and lazy to figure out how to use that icon on the bottom of every blog post that seems to be where I need to click to send you an email.
Anyway, I think your well writen, and most likely well spoken. You seem to be witty also. I like you. Sincerly like you.
Sorry for my spelling errors.
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