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DIARY OF A SLOWLY RECOVERING HEROIN ADDICT

I used to take heroin at every opportunity, for over 10 years, now I just take methadone which supposedly "stabilizes" me though I feel more destabilized than ever before despite having been relatively well behaved since late November/early December 2010... and VERY ANGRY about this when I let it get to me so I try not to.

I was told by a mental health nurse that my heroin addiction was "self medication" for a mood disorder that has recently become severe enough to cause psychotic episodes. As well as methadone I take antipsychotics daily. Despite my problems I consider myself a very sane person. My priority is to attain stability. I go to Narcotics Anonymous because I "want what they have" ~ Serenity.

My old blog used to say "candid confessions of a heroin and crack cocaine addict" how come that one comes up when I google "heroin blog" and not this one. THIS IS MY BLOG. I don't flatter myself that every reader knows everything about me and follows closely every single word every day which is why I repeat myself. Most of that is for your benefit not mine.

This is my own private diary, my journal. It is aimed at impressing no-one. It is kept for my own benefit to show where I have been and hopefully to put off somebody somewhere from ever getting into the awful mess I did and still cannot crawl out of. Despite no drugs. I still drink, I'm currently working on reducing my alcohol intake to zero.

If you have something to say you are welcome to comment. Frankness I can handle. Timewasters should try their own suggestions on themselves before wasting time thinking of ME.

PS After years of waxing and waning "mental" symptoms that made me think I had depression and possibly mild bipolar I now have found out I'm schizoaffective. My mood has been constantly "cycling" since December 2010. Mostly towards mania (an excited non-druggy "high"). For me, schizoaffective means bipolar with (sometimes severe)
mania and flashes of depression (occasionally severe) with bits of schizophrenia chucked on top. You could see it as bipolar manic-depression with sparkly knobs on ... I'm on antipsychotic pills but currently no mood stabilizer. I quite enjoy being a bit manic it gives the feelings of confidence and excitement people say they use cocaine for. But this is natural and it's free, so I don't see my "illness" as a downer. It does, however, make life exceedingly hard to engage with...

PPS The "elevated mood" is long gone. Now I'm depressed. Forget any ideas of "happiness" I have given up heroin and want OFF methadone as quick as humanly possible. I'm fed up of being a drug addict. Sick to death of it. I wanna be CLEAN!!!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Guinea Swines!

FURRY FRIDAY (ON SATURDAY)...

PROPERLY KNOWN AS GUINEA PIGS OR CAVIES, these are native to South America ~ where for generations the Andean natives have considered them a source of food. They look like this in the wild:



Like all furries, they have to be quickwitted, because just about everything that's bigger than them considers them food ... including, as I say, some of the local human population ...



They do chill out when they get the chance ... here's a furry cavy-conference on the sands ...



Guinea pigs are of course best known as domestic pets. This is a typical mixed-coloured coat.



They resemble giant hamsters but actually probably make better pets for many children because they are easier to handle, active by day, better-natured and hardly ever bite. See how the kitten fell in love with this one:



They require far more extensive housing than hamsters of any type, but hamster-style high security isn't required as unlike hamsters, guinea-pigs aren't obsessed with running wheels and trying to escape!



Guinea pigs breed as prolifically as rabbits. A female guinea pig can (apparently) hold on to a male's sperm inside her and "use" it several weeks later to get mysteriously and inconveniently pregnant ~ the swine!

... and young guinea swines are of course extremely tiny ...



... look at these tiny trotters ...



and very, very cute!



Coo!



O, and one thing I forgot to add: they love to make squeaky noises!
Look at Emanuel's glossy coat. They must be feeding him lots of lovely linseeds:




HAVE A BRILLIANT WEEKEND, Y'ALL!









10 comments:

Baino said...

They're cute but noisy little beggars. We babysat some for a mate once, the males in one cage and females and babies in another . . .one of the boys escaped, did the deed then ran away! We never saw him again.

J said...

ah i love guinea pigs :) check out my blog too! i follow you obsessively now!!

Gledwood said...

Baino: a female guinea pig can apparently hold on to a male's sperm for weeks, and then "use" it to get "mysteriously" pregnant ~ the swine!

J: thanks I will ;->...

Sweden said...

happy halloween gledwood!!!!!!
hopes all is well with you, going out soon with reeny and friends for party. TTYL

Gattina said...

We had a guinea pig (multicolored) with curly hairs.His name was Pitsou. He was the boss in the house ! Dog and cats ran away when he got angry. He was so cute. We let him free each evening and he always went on paper to do his business. When he got angry he showed his teeth and made a strange noice. He also slept with the cat. I haven't listened to this language CD I think it's more a joke. I don't see myself speaking zulu, lol !

Bimbimbie said...

I had two albino guinea pigs - thought to have been two females, but no one was a male of course and soon we had three babies. I was so surprised to see them fully furred and eating within hours of being born exact mini me's of their parents*!*

Gledwood said...

;->...

Sarcastic Bastard said...

The photo with the kitten is precious.

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METHADONE ~ A FATE WORSE THAN DEATH







Heroin Shortage: News

If you are looking for the British Heroin Drought post, click here; the latest word is in the comments.







Christiane F

"Wir, Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo" by "Christiane F", memoir of a teenage heroin addict and prostitute, was a massive bestseller in Europe and is now a set text in German schools. Bahnhoff Zoo was, until recently, Berlin's central railway station. A kind of equivalent (in more ways than one) to London's King's Cross... Of course my local library doesn't have it. So I'm going to have to order it through a bookshop and plough through the text in German. I asked my druggieworker Maple Syrup, who is Italiana how she learned English and she said reading books is the best way. CHRISTIANE F: TRAILER You can watch the entire 120-min movie in 12 parts at my Random blog. Every section EXCEPT part one is subtitled in English (sorry: but if you skip past you still get the gist) ~ to watch it all click HERE.

To See Gledwood's Entire Blog...

DID you find my blog via a Google or other search? Are you stuck on a post dated some time ago? Do you want to read Gledwood Volume 2 right from "the top" ~ ie from today?
If so click here and you'll get to the most recent post immediately!

Drugs Videos

Most of these come from my Random blog, which is an electronic scrapbook of stuff I thought I might like to view at some time or other. For those who want to view stuff on drugs I've collected the very best links here. Unless otherwise stated these are full-length features, usually an hour or more.

If you have a slow connexion and are unused to viewing multiscreen films on Youtube here's what to do: click the first one and play on mute, stopping and starting as it does. Then, when it's done, click on Repeat Play and you get the full entertainment without interruption. While you watch screen one, do the same to screens 2, 3 and so on. So as each bit finishes, the next part's ready and waiting.

Mexican Black Tar Heroin: "Dark End"

Khun Sa, whose name meant Prince Prosperous, had been, before his death in the mid 2000s, the world's biggest dealer in China White Heroin: "Lord of the Golden Triangle"

In-depth portrait of the Afghan heroin trade at its very height. Includes heroin-lab bust. "Afghanistan's Fateful Harvest"

Classic miniseries whose title became a catchphrase for the misery of life in East Asian prison. Nicole Kidman plays a privileged middle-class girl set up to mule heroin through Thai customs with the inevitable consequences. This is so long it had to be posted in two parts. "Bangkok Hilton 1" (first 2 hours or so); "Bangkok Hilton 2" (last couple of hours).

Short film: from tapwater-clear H4 in the USA to murky black Afghan brown in Norway: "Heroin Addicts Speak"

Before his untimely death this guy kept a video diary. Here's the hour-long highlights as broadcast on BBC TV: "Ben: Diary of a Heroin Addict". Thanks to Noah for the original link.

Some of the most entertaining scenes from Britain's top soap (as much for the poor research as anything else). Not even Phil Mitchell would go from nought to multi-hundred pound binges this fast: "Phil Mitchell on Crack" (just over 5 minutes).

Scientist lady shows us how to cook up gear: "How Much Citric?" Lucky cow: her brown is 70% purity! Oddly we never see her actually do her hit... maybe she got camera shy...

And lastly:

German documentary following a life from teenage addiction to untimely death before the age of 30. The decline in this girl's appearance is truly shocking. "Süchtig: Protokoll einer Hilflosigkeit". Sorry no subtitles; this is here for anyone learning German who's after practice material a little more gripping than Lindenstraße!































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