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I used to take heroin at every opportunity, for over 10 years, now I just take methadone which supposedly "stabilizes" me though I feel more destabilized than ever before despite having been relatively well behaved since late November/early December 2010... and VERY ANGRY about this when I let it get to me so I try not to.

I was told by a mental health nurse that my heroin addiction was "self medication" for a mood disorder that has recently become severe enough to cause psychotic episodes. As well as methadone I take antipsychotics daily. Despite my problems I consider myself a very sane person. My priority is to attain stability. I go to Narcotics Anonymous because I "want what they have" ~ Serenity.

My old blog used to say "candid confessions of a heroin and crack cocaine addict" how come that one comes up when I google "heroin blog" and not this one. THIS IS MY BLOG. I don't flatter myself that every reader knows everything about me and follows closely every single word every day which is why I repeat myself. Most of that is for your benefit not mine.

This is my own private diary, my journal. It is aimed at impressing no-one. It is kept for my own benefit to show where I have been and hopefully to put off somebody somewhere from ever getting into the awful mess I did and still cannot crawl out of. Despite no drugs. I still drink, I'm currently working on reducing my alcohol intake to zero.

If you have something to say you are welcome to comment. Frankness I can handle. Timewasters should try their own suggestions on themselves before wasting time thinking of ME.

PS After years of waxing and waning "mental" symptoms that made me think I had depression and possibly mild bipolar I now have found out I'm schizoaffective. My mood has been constantly "cycling" since December 2010. Mostly towards mania (an excited non-druggy "high"). For me, schizoaffective means bipolar with (sometimes severe)
mania and flashes of depression (occasionally severe) with bits of schizophrenia chucked on top. You could see it as bipolar manic-depression with sparkly knobs on ... I'm on antipsychotic pills but currently no mood stabilizer. I quite enjoy being a bit manic it gives the feelings of confidence and excitement people say they use cocaine for. But this is natural and it's free, so I don't see my "illness" as a downer. It does, however, make life exceedingly hard to engage with...

PPS The "elevated mood" is long gone. Now I'm depressed. Forget any ideas of "happiness" I have given up heroin and want OFF methadone as quick as humanly possible. I'm fed up of being a drug addict. Sick to death of it. I wanna be CLEAN!!!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Attack of the Furry Entertainers!

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Siberian Chipmunks!


No type of chipmunk is native to the British isles. But Siberian chipmunks have been in the news this week because as well as being popular pets indoors ...

... they are frequently being found outdoors, where they most definitely should not be, either having escaped or having been thrown out by idiotic owners who take them on then don't feel able to continue caring for these tiny critters...

It is illegal to release any non-native species into the wild in the UK.

Britain is on full-alert after a "plague" of feral chipmunks was "discovered" around Paris. The stripey "vermin" are said to be heading to British shores (and the Channel Tunnel) at a pinging pace...

The feral chipmunk plague is causing great concern because these animals can carry Lyme disease and it is feared chipmunks from France could even be carrying RABIES! Lyme disease, incidentally, was not endemic on these islands till very recently ...

Smaller than squirrels, chipmunks are VERY agile, VERY fast... (so almost impossible to recapture from the wild and not at all easy to cull)... and (fascinating to me) have cheek-pouches just like hamsters!

They breed like rabbits...

... and of course the furry babies are really cute ...

Siberian chipmunks how-to taming/looking after site ...

Come and see this gaggle of baby roborovskis ...


Puss-in-Boots said...

What cute little critturs. But I'd love to wring the necks of the irresponsible owners who just let them go into the wild blue yonder. We have that problem here with feral cats. They cause havoc amongst the native wildlife...especially koalas and possums...all because their idiot owners can't be bothered with them anymore. Grrrr!

Gledwood said...

Did you know idiot westerners actually DELIBERATELY imported crows to the south sea islands... where they have caused equal furore amongst the technicoloured local plumage out there... it all begs the question why why WHY??!?

Gattina said...

I think the human being carries the most of diseases ! and they accuse the animals. After, bird, cow and piggy flu now the chipmunk Lyme disease, never heard of it. If ever they invent a cat flu I go on strike!!
I wonder how some people managed to get over 100 years with all these dangers around us !
My grandma survived 2 WW, ate the good fat German kitchen touched all animals and became 95 !

Gledwood said...

Gattina that is a very good point. I wish I had bourne that in mind before. It might have made me a little less chipmunkaphobic!

Sweden said...

i LOVE furry fridays and that pic of the baby in the hand is just too much for me!!!!!!!!!

ps have u ever done raccoons for furry fridays??? if not do it please i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE raccoons, did u see the pics i posted of the raccoon ted i took care of for a few weeks on my blog? if not ill send u the link its adorable.

ttyl gleds

Catvibe said...

We have chipmunks here and I have a few living under the house. I like them, they are so sweet. They plant trees and sunflowers all around, busy little guys.

Merle said...

Hi Gleds ~~ I also like the little
Siberian chipmonks. Pretty colours.
Hope you are keeping well.
Thanks for the comments about my
beautiful family. Of course I
agree with you. Take care, my friend. With best wishes, Merle.

Akelamalu said...

Are these the chipmunks that have been attacking people?

Janice said...

The baby pic was especially cute, and I feel the same way as Puss-n-boots about the irresponsible persons who release non-native species into the wild. It happens all the time here too. Gaters in the lake or pacu in the creeks.


Gledwood said...

Sweden: no and OK then

Catvibe: what you mean? they bury seeds like squirrels and forget where they all are??

Merle: ;->...

Akelamalu: allegedly so! or that "could" attack people being as in the wild they carry Lyme disease. But not in captivity

Janice: terrible stuff!

Sarcastic Bastard said...

God, those babies are adorable!

Hope you are ship shape and all well, Gleddy.

Much love,


Bimbimbie said...

Hi Gleds ... sometimes I can't help but think it's humans who ought to be inside cages ;)

An Unconventional Mummy said...

Anytime a country permits it's citizens to import and keep animals that are clearly wild for pets ...you're going to run into such issues. Chipmunks are wild animals and are viewed as such in Canada.We have a burrow in our back enclosure and the pleasure of watching and on the odd occasion feeding these tiny creatures. Very cute but not to be domesticated. They gather nuts,maple keys,sunflower seeds and I'm sure lose the odd seed which is replanted.Much nicer than squirrels..
If you don't want these issues... pass a law banning importing foreign animal species.



Heroin Shortage: News

If you are looking for the British Heroin Drought post, click here; the latest word is in the comments.

Christiane F

"Wir, Kinder vom Bahnhoff Zoo" by "Christiane F", memoir of a teenage heroin addict and prostitute, was a massive bestseller in Europe and is now a set text in German schools. Bahnhoff Zoo was, until recently, Berlin's central railway station. A kind of equivalent (in more ways than one) to London's King's Cross... Of course my local library doesn't have it. So I'm going to have to order it through a bookshop and plough through the text in German. I asked my druggieworker Maple Syrup, who is Italiana how she learned English and she said reading books is the best way. CHRISTIANE F: TRAILER You can watch the entire 120-min movie in 12 parts at my Random blog. Every section EXCEPT part one is subtitled in English (sorry: but if you skip past you still get the gist) ~ to watch it all click HERE.

To See Gledwood's Entire Blog...

DID you find my blog via a Google or other search? Are you stuck on a post dated some time ago? Do you want to read Gledwood Volume 2 right from "the top" ~ ie from today?
If so click here and you'll get to the most recent post immediately!

Drugs Videos

Most of these come from my Random blog, which is an electronic scrapbook of stuff I thought I might like to view at some time or other. For those who want to view stuff on drugs I've collected the very best links here. Unless otherwise stated these are full-length features, usually an hour or more.

If you have a slow connexion and are unused to viewing multiscreen films on Youtube here's what to do: click the first one and play on mute, stopping and starting as it does. Then, when it's done, click on Repeat Play and you get the full entertainment without interruption. While you watch screen one, do the same to screens 2, 3 and so on. So as each bit finishes, the next part's ready and waiting.

Mexican Black Tar Heroin: "Dark End"

Khun Sa, whose name meant Prince Prosperous, had been, before his death in the mid 2000s, the world's biggest dealer in China White Heroin: "Lord of the Golden Triangle"

In-depth portrait of the Afghan heroin trade at its very height. Includes heroin-lab bust. "Afghanistan's Fateful Harvest"

Classic miniseries whose title became a catchphrase for the misery of life in East Asian prison. Nicole Kidman plays a privileged middle-class girl set up to mule heroin through Thai customs with the inevitable consequences. This is so long it had to be posted in two parts. "Bangkok Hilton 1" (first 2 hours or so); "Bangkok Hilton 2" (last couple of hours).

Short film: from tapwater-clear H4 in the USA to murky black Afghan brown in Norway: "Heroin Addicts Speak"

Before his untimely death this guy kept a video diary. Here's the hour-long highlights as broadcast on BBC TV: "Ben: Diary of a Heroin Addict". Thanks to Noah for the original link.

Some of the most entertaining scenes from Britain's top soap (as much for the poor research as anything else). Not even Phil Mitchell would go from nought to multi-hundred pound binges this fast: "Phil Mitchell on Crack" (just over 5 minutes).

Scientist lady shows us how to cook up gear: "How Much Citric?" Lucky cow: her brown is 70% purity! Oddly we never see her actually do her hit... maybe she got camera shy...

And lastly:

German documentary following a life from teenage addiction to untimely death before the age of 30. The decline in this girl's appearance is truly shocking. "Süchtig: Protokoll einer Hilflosigkeit". Sorry no subtitles; this is here for anyone learning German who's after practice material a little more gripping than Lindenstraße!

Nosey Quiz! Have you ever heard voices when you weren't high on drugs?

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