WELL TODAY I FELT MUCH BETTER THAN YESTERDAY. I went to bed early; I can't even remember when but it was surely before midnight. Then I slept for hours and hours and hours and woke up and drank methadone and slept for hours and hours and hours and when the radio proclaimed "six o'clock" yet it was light I knew it couldn't be six a.m.; though it felt like it - it was SIX O'CLOCK IN THE EVENING! I had slept EIGHTEEN HOURS AT A STRETCH! How/why on earth I did this I've no idea at all. Especially as people blame the drugs for my oversleeping (I can see why they do) well this is proof positive that is NOT the case. I slept considerably LONGER on methadone than on heroin so there!
My furballs were really entertaining last night. At one point all three were running their wire wheel vigorously in the same direction except Bashful kept pausing for a rest - which caused her to do countless revolutions looping the loop. It was like a Kentucky Derby for gremlins. Then I took the wire wheel out so they would use the other one. It was spinning round and round and round. I didn't realize all three were running it most of the night for I was unconscious (mostly) of course. I cannot really keep them in this cage as it's too flashy and obvious and if some stupid person interfered with it they would escape really easily whereas to get out of a fishtank they must be scooped out ... so it stays their holiday home. A French "gite" with a spiral staircase and turret haha! I can even extend it with special piping to make a gynormous hamster wonderland. Only prob' is the pipes cost about £4.99 each for 10cm extra tunnel. You know the coo. I had one of my business ideas to make a special kind of hammy home yesterday but I can't really tell else someone from Texas with $1000000s of funding will steal my ideas and make 'em themselves.
This evening I felt horribly shivering cold (a sure sign I need more meds) so I drank them. Meanwhile the radio was prattling on about inheritance taxes and redistribution of wealth. I'm not one of these people who believes making the rich poorer will make the poor any richer and I believe that obsessing on the "gap between rich and poor" is a misnomer. To improve the lives of the poor one must first learn how they live as I don't believe most politicians, even the most down to earth, have much of a clue about that and focus on them. Taxing the rich out of existence is merely the politics of envy and young people, ambitious people and the daydreamers among us won't want to live in a country that will steal back any fruits of their future success. The best way of helping the poor is by improving working conditions and pay. 1.2 million outsiders come into this country to do agricultural work (e.g. flower picking, fruit picking) that our own population could easily do... if only we arranged transport and accommodation. Imagine - travelling all over the country from work to work lashing down the alcohol it could be a lot of fun. The reason the Brits don't want to do it is because such work is hopelessly underpaid and I don't blame them. The poor of this country and every other western country will suffer increasingly as globalization takes jobs away from them. Even clerical jobs are disappearing online now. Why pay a Brit £5.50 an hour when an Indian may do it for a tenth of that?
Well that's my soapboxing of the day.
I have a drib of methadone left to take me into tomorrow.
I haven't done much writing. Isn't it stupid - in a way I'm forcing myself clean as it makes the only fitting conclusion for my memoirs. Also I'm scared that if they were a big success I'd only binge away the money on drugs. I don't see drugs as part of my future so the best time to stop is now... Of course the last thing I will stop is methadone and that is where I really wanted to focus. Many thanks for all the messages of support!
Video of the day:
Can your film change the world?
Second video of the day
New Hamsters in New Cage
Shows precisely the same cage (better than the other video did) mine now stay the weekends in. Note it has 2 upstairs bits etc etc...
It's a little bit wonkier certainly than a glass aquarium. E.g. the transparent green bit upstairs; the clip has broken off - but you can hold it closed easily with sticky tape. The wheel on the turret easily comes off just by lifting. It's just slightly too fragile for my own liking if someone walked in and kicked (sort of stupid thing my landlord might do) it it could easily come apart enough to let them out.
Note how baby the hammies in this film are. They all look like Itchy!
I'm convinced now that Itchy is a dwarf dwarf hamster and will never properly grow up.
I was going to advertise on the internet for someone with a male equivalent so we could start a new ultra tiny hamster breed ... (imagine!)
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Two great photo-travel blogs of the day
Papy en Afrique http://papyenafrique.blogspot.com - African villages.
This Too Shall Pass http://lustoftenlovealways.blogspot.com - American travels
http://mouttamijeasso.blogspot.com - Tamil photos from someone living in France
And last but not least - to the person who took the Lake District Shots I said I'd feature PLEASE leave your url with me - it escaped my mind and computer...
Thanks I got the url
Zooper59 http://zooper59.blogspot.com - these are pictures of the Lake District I used to go hiking here and in the nearby Peak District as a tot
And a good afternoon
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A lovely walk on the beach at Caswell with Daughter, Son-in-law,
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14 comments:
If anyone can make it, I'm quite sure you can.
No pressure, and no one expects perfection.
Just keep pressing forward.
And don't I sound like I need a soapbox?
;)
i haven't done as badly as I usually do so that really IS something haha!
thanks so much for your nice comment on my blog! they are the english lake districts, im visiting on a term abroad and we went hiking there, my url is http://zooper59.blogspot.com/ thanks again and hope you have a nice day :)
hey,
you have one heck of a blog here. and so much info in your profile!
i used to have hamsters as a child. each and every one of them was named Goldie. i had a guinea pig once. it was named muschi. i had a cat once that was named muschi too. i'm not very original when it comes to pet names.
I traveled for about 2 weeks before I moved to Vancouver to start fresh. Although I'd love to travel more in the future. I'd definitely love to goto Europe, get a monthly train pass and just tour around.
Cute little hammys!
Well done coping with the weekend, good luck with the rest of the week!
Really now...must you single out Texas? Some of us here are actually very nice and would never think of stealing your idea. ;-)
I don't necessarily agree with your ideas regarding rich vs. poor. In my country, no one can live on agricultural jobs. We can't even live on minimum wage jobs (much higher wages than that of migrant workers); the cost of living is too high. Illegal immigrants live in large groups many times so they can afford to make such paltry wages. Of course, they send most of the money back to their deeply impoverished families in Mexico. It's hard, hard work that robs people of basic rights, adequate health care and, of course, legal protections that citizens of the country enjoy (those that are left after the reign of W.). But that's America for you. You would certainly know better than I about Europe.
Take care.
Cassie - oh you are foreign! I thought you WERE English. I hope you had a pleasing time in my country ;->...
Foam - all my childhood hammies were CALLED "hammy" I'm not that good at naming pets. E.g. my Chinese hamster has only just really taken up the name Yingyang or Yangyang (they always have a slew of names)... my robos HAD to be named as they all look at first glance precisely the same just like in those videos I posted up... the names were vital and described their original distinguishing features...
Vivo - in 1991/92 over xmas new year I went from Wales through France to Spain and down to Morocco on an Interrail pass. I think if you buy it in North America it's called Eurail - same thing though. Free travel in all European countries definitely the way to go if you can!!
Vi Vi - Thanks they are exceedingly entertaining! Sunday wasn't that bad though that DID have something to do with mercifully sleeping 3/4 of the day haha ;->...
GGirl - Yeah but don't most millionaires come from Texas? Glad you got in touch again now I managed properly to find your blog - nice one! ;->...
You are really trying aren't you honey - I'm proud of you. Just one day at a time, do your best. x
We all have our addictions; mine does not happen to be drugs.
Keep up keeping up. I believe you shall be just fine.
I need to explore your bLog more deliberately. What I have seen is quite inviting.
gled i stopped visiting here for awhile because you were using and my heart could not take it. i hope you do good honey! i really do...
smiles, bee
Akelamalu: sure am!
Brother Dave: good thing it is NOT drugs. Drugs are a nightmare. They go straight to the point or crux of the addictive nature - ie the buzz you get out of something - and give you that in a purified form... no wonder they are so addictive.
Bee: I know :: you said before :: let's hope something comes out of it (me) this time ;->...
... you see, I have to have a strong ending for my book... what better ending can I have than getting clean?~???!?
(Can't remember whether I told you; but I'm writing my memoirs...)
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