SATURDAY A.M. - 04:52hrs.
WITH MY WINDOW AJAR - as ever - and the world lit cyan-grey, birds a-chirping, the dawn of a new day seems friendly. And not despairing ("more of the same, same for ever"). I can hear the cars at the crossroads by the big park by my local tube station. Is it the sound of tyres on road? They are swooshing straight across the far horizon of my soundscape.
The alarm clock bird, here yesterday, is silent this morning. Or gone. Or dead.
But what an irony. For what I said above "more of the same - same for ever" shall indeed be true today. And true for the forseeable future.
But this no change no change same all the same. Such sameness! So much the same for me. This era has to end...
The only query is: when?
Of course I can't answer that. If making changes to my life were as easy as all that rest assured - I'd have made them long ago. I can be lilly-livered, shrinking violet and so on; but I'm not that bad ..!
One day, when I've decided, it shall all change indeed. It will probably be difficult to communicate, to stay in touch. I may have to move quickly. Decisive action can't always be intricately planned.
But if and when it happens, be assured: it will be a "happening".
I will rock my own world ...
And then, well and truly, all around me will know that a new day truly has dawned ...
I'm sorry. What else can I say about that? Eeewgghhkkhhkkttpkk! I wrote that, as I said, in the very early hours. Those were my thoughts. I know More than Just Thinking is Required for a Future.
I know that.
Don't even need to say Gimme Time
I just gotta make the right enquiries and
Go Ahead ...
Know what I mean ..?
It was Christmas eve in a war zone - I just about managed to rise this morning but shining is still a long way off. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I had my usual stress dream last night....
8 hours ago