WEATHER OUTSIDE IS LOVELY. IN MY HEAD: storms approaching. I don't know. Very in-between. Had (drugs) clinic today which always puts me in a funny mood. Have to fill in two long-overdue forms also to do with money. Which I hate doing. And they ask for details to which (like most normal people) I simply do not know the answer. I hate doing stuff like that. But it has to be done.
It's a sunny day outside, and when the breeze blows, it is delightfully cool. London parades around in summer attire. Little Turkish boys run after footballs right by the main road. Sunshine gleams on wingmirrors, windows, doorhandles. Traffic passes in a daze. Even the local trains seem lazy, trundling to the station through a tunnel of deep-minty leaves. The overhanging trees have made a sunless cave where occasional birds fly in and out like bats.
ONE TRAGEDY: and I hate this stuff. Right on the floor of our nearest phonebox, on the pavement, cowering into the corner so as not to be seen but most remarkable as you don't normally see them there is a poor decrepit pigeon - an otherwise healthy pigeon - one leg sticking out at an agonizing angle, one wing strangely ruffled (perhaps broken). It was gazing on me, terrified, as I passed. I thought "Don't be scared of me. Be scared of the local kids with their fighting dogs ..." I don't know what to do. Having once called an animal rescue charity over a pigeon and being told, in so many words to go away ... (Even charity considers them vermin.) My two options are: leave poor bird where it is to die "naturally" (possibly by being kicked to death by local kids. And you have to see our local kids to believe that any group of young people can be so arrogant, boastful, loud and obnoxiously self-centred. Even Americans go home shaking their heads saying they can't believe what has happened to the youth of Britain (most specifically: to the urban youth of today's London) ... OR I can pick said pigeon up in newspaper and, assuming the place is open, place him down in a quiet glade under the trees in a sort of wildlife park where it is quiet. But where he might wait a long time to die, dodging nighttime foxes, stoats and neighbourhood cats on the ground in the pitch darkness. I don't know that the second option is at all kinder. From a human perspective it seems to be so. From a pigeon's point of view, I think the local wildlife are far more of a threat than we tall humans credit it to be. So maybe I'll do as most people do and do nothing at all. That feels best. Do nothing. Mediocrity and compromise. That's the way of the past. So that's the way forward. Good old human head-in-sand nature ...
Here's four very randomly different blogs I found in the last 24 hours.
First is Daily Squamer, an American High School Diary.
Second: The Wrath of Rachel - the journal of an international romance and a new life in Australia. A story that's still very much ongoing...
Third: Twinkkelstar. This is typical of South-East Asian schoolkids' blog-journals. The overall look. The lack of comments (but a message box instead). This one features some lovely kitch Japanesey-looking pixx...
And last but by no means least. I found Madonna's personal blog. The Bloggers' Choice Awards believe it's her. And (cynicism aside) I've no reason to believe it's not her. And it is a true blog because she accepts comments. (I'm sorry; but a blog without comments is merely a personal homepage.) If you don't believe it's her; see for yourself ...
So that's four things to click on if you're otherwise unengaged tonight!
I was going to post about free heroin and hoops of fire. That's what a local dealer thought I'd jump through to get it. No thanks. It's not five years ago and I'm old, exhausted and cynical. What changes day by day except the date?
I don't know. Oh,
duh duh
duh
I really ...
... really I ...
really
... I really don't know.
But I'm not jumping hoops of fire. Not for anyone ...
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O, & picture of the day... (click this if you click nothing else!) turkey chooks in a ring from Natasha's blog.
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Does nobody smoke anymore?
Tragedy! I went out without a working lighter ...
Anyone would think I was asking for a light for a crack pipe -
And finally, 20 minutes later (albeit not constantly asking) I found one man at the same bus stop smoking - and I got my light
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wmafhp
(today's random letters before they let me post)
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O, & click this to see random household objects being microwaved.
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17 comments:
Can sympathise, but not empathise on this, I'm afraid.
Certainly, I know that heroin is a whole different ball game to other so-called 'drugs'.
I wish you luck with your battle.
I have had an on-off romance with the Colombian stuff myself for years, which has done me no favours.
ooo dear! some people say that is worse. it's like chocolate and greed. chocolate inspires the greed. but the greed isn't there without the chocolate.
but heroin. doesn't matter where it is. you NEED IT
if i had been sick i would have gone to the moon to get that gear let me tell you
o...
as i said "overleaf" ...
i just
don't
know
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more
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Oh dear I've just opened a bar of chocolate...never used to have a sweet tooth. I can't even give up Nicotine so can't imagine what it must be like to try and give up heroin. As for forms to get money!!!..****!!!
Ruth I was talking about nicotine in the clinic today... actually you smoke far more fags in a day than anyone could possibly take shots of the old "h" ... i was saying various stupid things inspire me to use... she said yes smokers have that prob with lighting up after a cornish pastie, with a drink, whatever ... the nicotine habit is v much routine-based (well I think so)
one way of breaking the routine e.g. is to stop drinking tea & coffee when you stop smoking drink mint tea instead. i used this method and stayed stopped for a year.
(I also used nicotine gum to cut the habit down. people who quit fags cold turkey are eejuts in my opinion when the help's out there...)
Sorry Gled but I'm an eejut, what works for one remember!!!!!!
queenie you're an eejut? massive, huge degrees of selfconfidence & selfdiscipline surely were involved. good on yer!
i'm still smoking now so without being too pentinent: who's the eejut now-??
hello old friend! so glad you stopped by today! our family is still fighting addictions too. sigh... number one son was out again two months ago, heroine too, all i can do is love him and try hard not to let my disease of co-dependence kick in. it's a hard road to hoe! stop by anytime, love to have you!
smiles, bee
hey, thank you so much for the kind words. I hope that you find a way to get away from the heroin, but I know that it is hard. Even in my small high school I have seen what it does to people. It is terrible, but I think that you can make it through.
It's funny, because even the small towns have become infiltrated with drugs and other illegal activities, and our school isn't even in that bad of an area. That just goes to show how crappy America really is. But whatever, every place has it's ups and downs.
Hi Gled! I finally made it over to your place, but I'm so wiped out. This new job is kicking my butt! I checked out a few of those links, including the Madonna one. Very interesting. This is the most blogging I've done all week! Time for a nap before bedtime. See you again soon *waves*
I was going to email about the stuff we're working on... and then I realised that I don't have your email address here at work. I'll mail from home tonight :)
Glen, peace be with you today and always (its BlogBlast, Globe peace day today, incase you thought I'd gone weird)..
Empress: thanks for the support
Squamer: thank you. Your blog's a really interesting depiction of high school life. Not all flat & dull & full of nothing as so many tend to be ...
Glad you like it all, Mellowlee
I'll get in touch with you later, Nicole
Queenie: & peace to you. I was thinking of doing a peace post if I'm still in the right time frame ...
Hi G ! Nice to see your comment in my blog. Your blog is really nice with lot of philosophy in it that most of the time has bounced from my head. LOL ! I liked your music blog very much. Keep up the good work and be connected.
ok I'll stay connected
thanxx
i mean i will stay in touch
you know what i mean
surely
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cant you take the pigeon in as a pet? maybe itd get along with your chinese russian switolandilnavianerman hamster.
Thanks for visited my blog and leave me a nice comment.
I like your blog and it has good feeling inside.
And I'm still smoking.
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