I TOOK THE WONDERFUL SLEEPER as I said zopiclone WORKS no dreams like somebody said dreamless lovely sleep I was out for the count in not much longer than 35, 45 mins. It came on 17 mins after midnight by MOUTH that is quick you can tell zopiclone is coming on your mouth goes bitter.
Its now 0504 I've been up for half an hour with Nightscreen playing that piano track they used to that went for years now its back I want that one at my funeral that is me my life that tune.
Went NA last night for the higher power not that I HAVE THE HIGHER POWER I WANTED THEIR SERENITY. Power I have. Serenity I don't have. Togetherniess i need.
My Higherpower has done for me whatSid spent a lot of money on Ibogaine the miracle AFrican root IBOGA that trips you flips you not in psychonaut terms they call it something more specific a deliriant rather than a trip? Yeah it's meant to be a kind of waking dream where your issues come. Then you're clucking but only a bit. Most of the clucking is taken away. You are in no fit state to use. The igobaine works its magic and gear and the compulsion to use go awsy. Sid has money to do this because he WORKS.
How anyone holds down a job on gear.... you have my admiration.
How anyone holds down a job on methadone... that is alice in wonderland stuff so out of my league it mystifies me if I could have a job now I would love it. Supermarket lots of things with wheels on to move about an dgo in and lots of pots and pans and ings and ongs and pings and pongs and hello hello hello hello how are you how are you??! cutomer service?
why does everybody look at me like i'm deranged? HA DON'T ANSWER THAT ONE. RHETORICAL ONE THAT ONE
hey i got down the meeting i took a tube, i heard 2 shares 3 shares in this dark rooom the rest of the building was wonderful i had a good explore
i want to find a little old lady having a cup of tea in a cupboard
i want to find a magic bunny in the wall
i want to find a million pounds cash in the wall with my name and bank details attached MY MONEY
i need a pickaxe, a toothbrush, a teaspoon, something that if you scrape at it long enough i get into this wall and have a real good look i need something ha ha ha ha
sorry sorry osrry osryy round and round and in and out that is weaving could we weave together some light please and knit me a sweater made in stardust
that is what i want for xmas
summink good. summink cool. summink BRIGHT, SHINY, TRANSPARENT. BLUE WITH OTHER COLOURS PI-P-POPPING PSYCHEDELICALLY ALL OVER IT
lovely psychedelia those youtube rave vids are amazing that is my head
my head is a party
a part of a party
the party is in my head
i see the fireworks eyes closed
ha ha! i got a good one about furniture and buttons tell ya that one later!
gotta run have fun see ya WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WORLD
HELLO HELLO HELLO HI HI HI HI HI EVERYONE
someone please tell me how you are why all me me me this is boring i want to know how you are keep it nice and sweet "I am fine I went to x today" is enough for me please somebody leavea a message or has the universe gone empty? all the fireworks will go then
o man i need a wee i need what do i need?
WHAT DO I NEED?
now there's a sensible question. what do i need?
The egotism of shyness - A few posts ago I wrote about feeling responsible for killing people. I realised today that I blame myself for many things. Most things. To be honest quite...
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